Love me like I Love you 8
Title: Love me like I Love you 8
Pairing: Taecyeon/Wooyoung, Junsu/Junho
Rating: PG-13, M
TaecWoo: Because of dance everything leads to disguising himself as a girl and loosing all his first. Life goes from normal to strange as Wooyoung gains a lover.
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I ate slowly in silence as thoughts of wonder went through my head.
It was silent for a long time before Taecyeon broke it.
"So...We're thinking of getting a dorm here." he said.
My head quickly lifted.
Taecyeon stared at me and nodded.
Since all three of us want to at least finish High School. We will get a temporary dorm here for a while until we all finish school." he said.
"But....your job." I said.
"We will drive back and forth." Taecyeon said.
I didn't know what to say so I turned back to my food.
"Is that....why your here?" I asked.
"I came to see you." Taecyeon said.
I covered half my face and sighed.
"Are you mad?" he asked.
"It doesn't matter. It's your education." I said.
"So your mad." he said.
"I told you." I said as I lifted my head to look at him.
"What?" Taecyeon said.
I shook my head and looked back at my rice.
"I'm not mad." I said. "It's your future. You need school in case the whole idol thing does not work." I said.
Taecyeon laughed and I refused to look at him.
"Good." he said.
I didn't say anything.
"Are you done?" I asked after a few seconds of silence.
I looked up to find him staring at me.
"Stop that." I said.
"What?" he asked.
"Don't play games with me." I said as I got up and grabbed my bowl.
I walked to the sink to wash my bowl.
A few minutes later, I felt a heat behind me as two arms wrapped around me and some dishes fell in the sink.
I froze, unable to move with his hold.
"Stop." I said.
"Why?" Taecyeon asked as his hands tightened around my waist. He hugged me a little too tight.
I felt his head on my shoulder and his breath as he spoke.
I still couldn't move. The dishes fell from my grip into the sink.
"I don't like skin ship." I said.
"Why?" Taecyeon asked.
He lifted his head and have me a weird stare.
'So close.' I thought.
"Soyoung will see." I said as I tried to move back.
"She's at work." Taecyeon said.
"I'm...I'm not gay." I managed to get out.
"I'm not either." Taecyeon said.
"You can't say that...."
I let out a deep breath and tightened my eyes.
"You can't say that and claim you like me. If your not...if your not that way then you don't like me." I finished.
"Should I show you how much I like you?" Taecyeon said after a short silence.
My body stiffened and I tightened my eyes.
"I mean if you don't believe me-"
"No...I believe you." I said. "But...stop doing this."
"But I'm only hugging you. Friends can hug." Taecyeon said.
"Your playing with me." I said.
"These are my true feelings Wooyoung." Taecyeon said."
I stayed quiet as I tightened my eyes with force.
"Do you need help?" he asked after a while of silence.
"No." I quickly said.
The faster he left, the faster my face would stop heating up.
I waited in a frozen state for what I counted to be three minutes before Taecyeon let me go from his tight hug.
"I'll be at the table. Sure you don't need help?" he asked again.
"I...I have to use the bathroom..." I quickly said as I dashed quickly to the bathroom.
As soon as I closed the door behind me, I rushed to the sink and mirror as I washed my heated face with cold water.
I did this 3 times more before looking at myself.
My cheeks still looked red.
'I can still feel his hands.' I thought. 'What is wrong with me?'
I stayed in the bathroom looking at myself and washing my face for another 5 more minutes before sighing, wiping my face and stepping out of the bathroom.
"I washed the dishes. Come here." Taecyeon said.
I turned to the sink in which was empty.
"Come on." Taecyeon said.
A sigh escaped my mouth and I walked to the couch, sitting on the opposite side.
A good distance was in between us and I sighed in relief.
"Why are we so quiet?" Taecyeon suddenly spoke up.
I shrugged as I listened to the sound of my heart beat, hoping Taecyeon couldn't hear it.
Being alone with him...now felt even more awkward then before.
Before I didn't know his "feelings."
Now I knew.
My heart continued beating hard and fast.
'I hope he doesn't hear.' I thought as I stared at the space between us on the couch.
Taecyeon sighed and turned to look at me.
"Should I have not told you I like you?" he asked.
I shrugged.
'You shouldn't have. Now I don't know what to do or say!' I yelled in my head.
"But if I didn't tell you...and I continued touching and kissing you. I didn't want you to feel as if I was playing with you."
I tuned out when he said kiss.
"Wooyoung."
I snapped out of my thoughts.
"Want to go somewhere? The movies?" he asked.
I shrugged. "I don't have any money." I said.
"Yes you do." Taecyeon said as he pulled out some money and shoved it in my face.
"That's not my money." I said staring at him.
"Yes it is. It was right on my desk with a note with your name on it." he said.
"That...that's for you." I said.
"I told you you didn't have to pay. Now lets-"
The door bell stopped him.
Taecyeon stopped and first looked at the door and then me.
"Don't answer it." he said.
'I can't continue being alone with you.' I thought as I ignored him and practically rushed to the door.
"Wooyoung? You there?"
The sound of Junho and Junsu hyung's voice made my heart stop beating.
I sighed in huge relief.
"Yes." I said as I quickly opened the door.
My eyes tightened as I was pulled into a tight hug.
"I feel like I haven't seen you in a while." Junho said as he squeezed.
"Hey...okay...okay....I'm not a doll." I said chuckling.
Junho squeezed a little bit more before letting go and yelling.
"Where have you been? Hyung told me you weren't feeling good. I feel like I haven't seen you in forever. You missed the beginning of dance class today..." Junho only continued talking until Junsu hyung opened his mouth.
"Who is he?" Junsu hyung asked.
It was only when I remembered that Taecyeon was still in my apartment.
A long moment of silence passed.
"Wait...why is he here?" Junho whispered to me.
I shrugged. The only movement I seemed to be doing a lot lately.
My mouth couldn't move for any of their questions.
"I came to check up on him. Since he had a headache." Taecyeon spoke up and answered a question for me.
"But who are you?" Junsu hyung asked.
I could hear his protective hyung anger filled voice and I suddenly spoke up.
Ever since my parents, Junsu hyung has been even more over protective and slightly obsessive towards Soyoung and I.
Without realizing it myself I looked up and walked to Taecyeon as I grabbed his hand and walked him to the two other guys.
"This is Ok Taecyeon. He is my friend. I quickly said.
A short silence passed.
"Umm...Taecyeon....hyung....uhh this is Kim Junsu hyung and Lee Junho." I said introducing him.
"Wait a minute....you mean Ok Taecyeon of the group 2PM that Soyoung always talks about." Junsu said.
"Yeah." I said.
"How...did you...wait? You were in Seoul when i picked you up. With him? Is he the one that picked up when I called and hanged up on me?" Junsu hyung continued.
He started sounding a little more angry the more he thought to himself and spoke.
'So he did call.' I thought.
"I didn't mean to hang-"
I stopped Taecyeon and started talking.
"I just went to visit. I made him a promise to hang out but it couldn't be done because of his-"
"That's dangerous Wooyoung." Junsu hyung said as he interrupted me. "How about if something bad-"
"Nothing bad would of happened because I protected him. I wouldn't let anyone hurt him or touch him without my permission." Taecyeon said.
I turned to him and scowled.
'What do you mean without your permission?' I thought. 'You don't own me.'
A moment of silence passed.
"Uhh...we will go get drinks." Junho said as he took my hand and pulled me towards the kitchen with him.
I was glad to be away from the tension but there were still going to be questions.
A lot of them.
"So...why exactly is he here?" Junho whispered.
I didn't reply him.
"Woo?" Junho whispered to me again as he stopped me by the fridge and turned me so our backs were facing the other two guys.
"Something happened." Junho said.
I looked away.
"Your not going to tell me?" he whispered.
I opened my mouth and then closed it.
"Later?" Junho asked.
I slowly nodded.
"I don't want to think right now. Maybe I do have a headache." I said.
"I'll make you some tea." Junho said.
I nodded and sat as Junho got the drinks ready.
Thoughts of whether Junho knew how to make tea quickly clouded my mind.
'Since when does he make tea?' I thought to myself.
Though I wondered that, the thoughts of Taecyeon, especially of what he was doing earlier when we stood by the sink, still wouldn't leave my head.
I felt my face heat up and I scowled.
'If your not gay then why do you blush when he's around!?!?' I yelled at myself.
A war went through my mind as I sat and stared at Junho opening and closing the fridge.
A little while later we all sat at the eating table and the t.v was the only noise.
'Why is it so awkward.' I thought as I stared at the cup in front of me.
"Is your headache a little better?" Junho asked me.
I nodded and thanked him for the tea.
The silence continued.
"Maybe we should go watch a movie? If you are really feeling better." Junho said.
I glanced at Taecyeon then. We caught eyes and I sighed and looked up.
"Uhh...we were just about to go out...how about you two come too...hyung?" I turned to Junsu hyung and smiled.
"Are you really okay?" Junsu replied me with a serious face.
"I'm fine." I said.
"No you aren't. In the hospital. Then your headache...your acting strange right now too you know...I've seen you like this only once and now I'm seeing it again." he said, his eyebrows lowering as a look of regret appeared on his face.
"I'm fine seriously." I said smiling wide. "I never had a big headache. I just wasn't feeling a little too good." I finished.
"Sure?" Junho now asked.
"Yah!" I said towards him a bit annoyed.
How many times did I have to repeat myself to all three of them that I was fine.
"We are just worried." Junsu hyung said.
I turned to him and he smiled lightly and sighed before turning to Taecyeon.
A scowl replaced his light smile.
"From what I know, you chased after to him become his friend." Junsu hyung suddenly said.
A tension replaced the silence as they stared at each other.
"Actually I really lo-"
I quickly stood and my hand quickly landed on Taecyeons lips as I turned to him wide eyed.
"Don't." I said.
I could feel the stares of both of the other two as I quickly pulled my hand away from Taecyeons mouth and stared at him with a look of nervousness.
Taecyeon shook his head, sighed and nodded.
I found myself sighing as I turned and nodded to the other two.
"I'm okay really...come on hyung you should become friends with him. He's my friend. He's a really nice guy." I said smiling at Junsu hyung as I left to my room.
I came out a little while later with a big jacket.
"Lets go somewhere." I said smiling.
Junho smiled wide at me and got up as he took my hand and we walked to the door.
"Your going to tell me later?" he whispered.
I sighed. "Yeah." I said.
I could tell Junho but not everything to Junsu hyung.
I needed someone to really ask if I was gay or not and why I blushed every time I looked into the brown eyes of Ok Taecyeon.
'I just hope Junho doesn't become disgusted with me.' I thought to myself.
"Who's driving?" Junho asked smiling.
Junsu stared at Taecyeon for a little bit longer before turning to look at Junho and I as he sighed and got up.
"I'll drive." he said.
"Wait. Won't he get recognized." Junho suddenly said.
I turned to Taecyeon but didn't look him in the eye.
We all paused.
"I don't have any hats or anything. Maybe a scarf." I said.
"How big is it?" Junho asked.
"Big enough. I'll go get it." I said as I rushed to my room.
'I hope he doesn't realize I'm avoiding hi-'
"I think that will work."
I froze at Taecyeons voice.
A warm hand touched mine as Taecyeon took the scarf and wrapped it around his neck, making sure it covers almost his whole nose.
I glanced at him and sighed.
"Can you breath?" I asked.
"Yeah. I can smell...smell you." he said.
I paused and looked at him.
"It smells good." he said.
I turned away quickly before he saw my face.
'What is wrong with him?' I asked myself.
"That's good. I can't notice you." Junho said once we walked out of my room.
I smiled and nodded.
"What's with your face? Why are your cheeks red? Are you sure your not sick Wooyoung?" Junsu-hyung asked me.
It made me even more embarrassed.
"I'm fine." I said loudly as I put on my shoes and headed out the room.
"You were blushing." Junho said as he reached me a couple of minutes later.
"Shut up." I whispered.
When we reached the car, Junsu hyung and Junho sat in the front and Taecyeon and I in the back.
The silence once again surrounded us.
"Play some of your music. I want to hear." I said as I started feeling the nervousness of earlier being alone with Taecyeon.
"I'll play you some of mine....yah." Junsu hyung said.
Junho laughed and put a c.d in.
The sound of Junsu hyungs voice filled my ears and I relaxed for a little while, only to jump up when a warm hand touched mine.
I didn't turn to Taecyeon.
"I'm kind of jealous." he whispered in my ear.
I didn't say or do anything but my face was feeling hot as he leaned in too close.
"Move back." I said as I pushed him away a little.
I didn't look at the face he made but I knew he wasn't smiling.
'I can't respond when your so close to my face. Idiot!' I yelled in my head but didn't say anything to him.
A little while later only the sound of Junsu hyungs voice filled our ears.
"This song is really good." Taecyeon suddenly said.
I turned to him for the first time since we got in the car.
Taecyeon turned to me and nodded as he stuck his thumb up.
"Hehe....Thanks." Junsu hyung replied.
That's the only thing it takes, to say good things about Junsu-hyungs music and his voice, you can become good friends with him.
"Hey? How old are you anyway?" Junsu hyung asked after a little while.
"A year older than Wooyoung." Taecyeon said.
"Oh so your his hyung. Your a 4th year?" Junsu hyung asked.
"Yeah." Taecyeon said.
"Ahh...yeah. I have seen you in my class. Then we can talk informally." Junsu hyung said.
I sighed, glad he was talking to him.
The sound of the two guys voices filled my ears.
Our first stop was indeed at the movies.
"I'll pay for you." Junsu hyung said as we chose the movie.
"No." I said.
"I got it." Taecyeon said stepping up behind me.
"N-"
Taecyeon stopped me from saying no as he put a finger on my lips.
I turned away embarrassed.
"Hyunggg...I don't have money." Junho said.
"I can pay for you." Taecyeon said.
"Yah! You aren't a little kid." Junsu hyung suddenly said.
"But I didn't know we were going to go somewhere." Junho said with a puppy dog look on his face.
"Don't look at me like that." Junsu hyung said.
"I can pay." Taecyeon said again.
"No. I got him." Junsu hyung finally said.
I looked at Junho.
He smiled lightly and quickly frowned.
We caught eyes and he shook his head and smiled again as he thanked Junsu hyung.
I wanted to laugh.
Junsu hyung has always been very biased towards both of us but he really did anything that Junho asked for even if he complained at first.
This is because I don't ask for anything.
Sometimes they look like a married couple, especially when they argue and Junho wins. I find it funny.
With all of us paid and the snacks bought, we headed into the movies.
I couldn't say no because either way, Taecyeon would pay for me even if I yelled at him not too.
A movie about fighting and saving the world.
It ended a hour and a half later and we declared that we would go to the amusement park.
"I heard they decorated everything really nice since its almost Christmas." Junho said.
I smiled.
"I want to see it." I said.
"We are." Junho said.
"Hey. Give me your number in case we get lost."
"Me?" Taecyeon said.
"Yeah. Wooyoung doesn't have a cell." Junsu hyung said.
"Give me your phone." Taecyeon said.
This went in a process as I stared at the exchanging of phone numbers for both Junsu hyung and Junho.
"Wow...you really trust us." Junho said.
"Because you are friends of Wooyoung." Taecyeon said.
I looked away.
'He's saying weird things.' I thought.
"Why do you want to become his friend so bad." Junsu hyung asked.
My ears perked up.
I always wondered but never asked.
"I don't." Taecyeon asked.
I turned to him wide eyed.
He turned to me and sighed as he smiled.
"He knows what I want but he's the only one that can tell you. He hasn't even told me yet...but I will stay close to him until he does." Taecyeon said.
"Why does that sound like a love confession?" Junsu hyung asked.
"It's not." I quickly said.
Silence surrounded us after that.
I didn't look at Taecyeon again.
The car ride wasn't long.
We all got out and looked out in front of us.
The noise of people laughing, the bright lights, and and the smell of food made me smile.
It's good we waited at the theatre until it got dark. It looks better." Junho said.
"It does." I agreed as I smiled and continued looking out in front of me.
It was so beautiful but I wanted to cry.
The night before my parents accident, we all went to a amusement park.
I had a fight with dad and mom became angry at me because I didn't bother to make up with my dad.
It was a really big fight.
Bigger than our usual fights. I forget what it was about now.
I sighed and lowered my head as I wrapped my arms around me, finally feeling the cold hit my body.
"Cold?" Taecyeon asked me.
I turned and looked up at him.
"No." I said shaking my head. "Thanks."
"Come on."
I looked up to see Junho and Junsu at the front entrance yelling at us to hurry.
I turned back to Taecyeon.
"Come on." I said.
He nodded and we walked to the other two.
We ended up paying all together as we stepped into the park.
Of course, Taecyeon forcing his way in paying for me.
"Which one first?" Junsu hyung asked.
He loved stuff like scary rides.
"I guess the boat." I said pointing to the boat that went back and forth really fast that I wanted to throw up sometimes.
"How about we go ride something else and meet you two at the food stands." Taecyeon suddenly said.
I turned to look at him and he smiled.
"Yeah. Lets do that." Junho suddenly said.
I turned to him quickly with a panicked face.
"But hey! Wait!" Junsu hyung yelled as Junho pulled him away.
I took a step towards them when I was suddenly stopped by a warm hand linked into mine.
I turned to Taecyeon and he smiled at me.
My body froze and my heart started again.
The cold air couldn't even stop the heat on my face.
"We should try to spend some more time together so it won't be so awkward between us." Taecyeon said.
I didn't look him in the face, but nodded.
After Tacyeon asked a few times and I nodded and shook my head no, we decided to go with the bumper cars.
We waited in line for only a few moments before getting in the cars.
I seemed to get hit by everyone, Taecyeon the most.
It was hard for me because I have never learned to drive. Ever since that day, I couldn't.
Taecyeon hit me a lot, and after a while, it was over.
I sighed as I got out the carts.
"You don't look happy." Taecyeon said.
"It's not you." I said.
"Then what is it?" Taecyeon asked, stopping me by taking a hold of my hand.
I turned to him and tried to pull my hand away, but he didn't let go.
"I don't know how to drive okay. I've never touched a wheel." I admitted.
"What? Oh....I can teach you." Taecyeon said.
"No." I quickly said as I pulled my hand away. "I don't want to learn.
We walked in silence for a few moments.
"We should try to go win something." Taecyeon said.
I didn't get a chance to say anything as I was taken by the hand and pulled.
We stopped at a game in which you throw a ball to try to win something.
Taecyeon went first.
"I want to win you that over there." he said pointing to something.
"What?" I asked.
Taecyeon didn't reply but started the game.
"You really have to stop wasting money on m-"
DING!
"You won!"
The person who owned the place screamed and I looked shocked as Taecyeon asked for a yellow chick and turned around smiling at me.
I looked at it, then looked at him.
"It kind of reminds me of you." he said as he handed it to me.
I felt my face heat up.
"That's stupid." I said.
I didn't take it in the beginning but people started staring so in the end I was forced to obey and take the stuffed animal.
"Then let me win you something too sijce this doesnt seem fair." I said.
'But your bad at these things Wooyoung.' I thought.
I shoved the yellow chick in his hand and walked up to the game, only to realize I had no money what so ever
I heard Taecyeon laugh as he paid the man.
"I...might loose." I said.
"It's okay." Taecyeon said.
I stared at him for a while before sighing and starting the game.
I lost exactly four times before I won him something.
"What do you want?" the man asked.
I sighed.
"His money back..." I grumbled to myself.
"What do I look like to you?" Taecyeon asked.
I looked arrangement of stuffed toys.
"That one." I said pointing at the big stuffed cat head.
"A cat?" Taecyeon said.
"Yeah." I replied as I handed it to him nervously.
Taecyeon laughed and almost pulled me into a hug when I stopped him and gave him a look.
He nodded and gave me back my chick as he looked at the cat again.
"OkCat." he said.
I ignored him and looked at the chick again.
"Maybe the merry go round next?" Taecyeon suddenly said.
"I'm not scared." I said. "We can go on bigger rides."
"The roller coaster." Taecyeon said.
I stopped walking and turned to him.
Taecyeon started laughing and I glared and walked away.
"Wait. Wait! Hey! Lets go on the ferris wheel then." he said.
"I just want to sit down." I said.
"Then let's go."
Taecyeon grabbed my hand and pulled me to the long line.
It was the ferris wheel that was completely covered, like a small house. It was really really big too.
"You cold?" Taecyeon asked me.
I shivered and replied no.
"I can give you my gloves." he said.
"Then you will be cold. I'm fine. I should have brought gloves." I said.
"Here."
I paused as a single glove was shoved in my face.
When I didn't take it, Taecyeon took my left hand and put the glove on it.
"Wait.." I said.
"Now your other hand."
He took my right hand and covered it with his as he held both our prizes from earlier in his other hand.
I didn't have time to protest as my hand, covered around his, went straight into his jacket pocket.
I tried to pull my hand away but he wouldn't let me.
"People are looking." I said panicky.
"Ignore them." Taecyeon said.
I couldn't.
"My heart felt like it was going to burst, and I only became even colder as I froze my body.
Only couples do stuff like he was doing and only male female couples.
Taecyeon had to lead me all the way until we got into the ride.
I tried pulling my hand away and he let go finally as he gave me back my chick.
I flexed my hand a few times and handed him back his other glove without looking at him.
The ride became silent.
After a while, it stopped and it became even more awkward.
'Damn. I forgot its couple night every Christmas.' I thought.
The ride usually stops about three times for couples to do whatever couples do, and at the end they get a free couples shirt.
"You know...it's fine with me if you don't want them to know now...but Wooyoung..."
I didn't look at Taecyeon but covered my face with the chick and turned around.
It didn't work though, because suddenly my face was turned to him and the stuffed chick moved away.
My body stiffened as I noticed that Taecyeon almost completely laid on me.
"I like you." he said.
I didn't say anything.
"Your not answering. It's still not enough time?" he asked.
I didn't say anything, not because I wanted to hurt him, but because I didn't know what to say.
I've never gotten confessed to, nor have I confessed to anyone so I don't know the feeling or how to respond.
Besides, Taecyeon is male.
"Wooyoung."
My head was turned to look at him again.
I turned my eyes to my left.
"Can I kiss you?" he asked.
I didn't say anything but my body stiffened more and my heart start beating fast.
"Can I?" Taecyeon asked again.
'I don't know. What am I supposed to answer to that!' I yelled in my head.
"Maybe I should show you how much I like you after all."
I didn't have time to respond to that as my lips were caught and my hands held down tight above my head.
I tightened my eyes.
'Wait!' I yelled in my head.
Taecyeon released my lips for a few seconds as I told him to wait.
He didn't.
'Don't do this again.' I thought as my hands and eyes tightened real tight.
He didn't let me go or stop kissing.
I stopped moving and resisting.
I laid there silent with no response when Taecyeon stopped and got off me.
He sat and turned to the other side of him.
A long silence passed.
I laid there unmoving for a long time with no thoughts in my mind as I squeezed the chick in my hand.
The ride started and stopped again.
I convinced myself to get up and rub a cold hand on my face.
I waited for a long time before talking.
"I'm sorry." I said.
Taecyeon didn't say anything.
"I just...need time. I'm not...gay." I said.
Taecyeon didn't say anything.
"I don't know what to say to you at-"
"Then tell me no." Taecyeon said.
My body stiffened and I lowered my head and looked at the chick.
My heart started beating fast.
"Tell me you don't want me here. You don't want me touching you. You don't want me to try at all." Taecyeon said.
"I...I can't." I said.
I felt him turn to look at me.
I didn't look at him.
"I'm not gay." I said. "But...I...every time your close to me I don't know what to say and I freeze up. When you....when you do what you just did...my heart starts beating fast and my face heats up."
A very short silence passed.
A warm hand touched my face and I flinched only a little.
"Is this your confession?" Taecyeon said.
The ride started moving again.
I didn't say anything.
Suddenly, a warm heat started moving towards me.
I lowered my head lower but Taecyeon lifted my head by my chin.
"Can I?" he asked me.
I felt my head shake yes.
Warm lips touched mine and my body pushed backwards.
My back hit the seat again as Taecyeons warm body leaned on top of me.
My body stiffened.
"Calm down. It's okay. I just want to kiss you." Taecyeon whispered in my ear.
I tightened my eyes.
"Relax." he said. "I won't do anything you don't want me to do. So stop me when it's bad." he said.
I didn't say anything and warm lips landed first on the side of my neck.
He kissed.
Kissed everywhere.
It was so embarrassing.
My eyes stayed tight, only to open wide when a hand snaked into my shirt.
Taecyeon stopped at my hip and his lips once again stopped at my neck.
It happened at the same time that I had no idea which one to yell for.
Instead of a kiss, Taecyeon bit me and then started sort of sucking on my skin.
Even thinking about it made me more embarrassed.
I closed my eyes tight as he continued biting and sucking on my neck.
His hand moved up and I opened my eyes, unable to let him continue.
"Hurts...It hurts....Stop." I said.
It took only that one word and Taecyeon stopped everything.
"Get up." I said.
He got up.
I got up after him and grabbed the side of my neck.
My cold freezing body turned warm, every part of my body felt warm.
"I don't...think I can....do this."
Those few words made a silence fall over us.
"Is that a no?" Taecyeon said after a long time.
I didn't want to, but my head shook yes.
The silent became even more painful.
"Taec-"
I paused as he looked at me and smiled.
"Thanks for letting me know." he said.
Those few words that escaped his mouth made something hurt in my heart.
I didn't say anything, he didn't say anything, and finally the ride stopped and we got out.
We walked a few steps before Taecyeons phone rang.
"Okay. We will meet you there." Taecyeon said hanging up the phone.
"Follow me." he said.
I nodded and followed him, staring at the chick he won me the whole way.
I couldn't talk, but I could think, a lot.
"Hey! You want to go get some food?" Junho smiled wide and walked up to me.
I nodded without a word.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
I shook my head.
"Wait. We're going to use the bathroom." Junho suddenly said stopping me.
"Both of you? Your not girls you know." Junsu hyung said.
"We're not." I heard myself saying. "It's fine Junho." I said.
"Hyung!" Junho screamed at Junsu hyung and I looked up to him.
We caught eyes for those two seconds before Junho pulled me away to the restroom.
"What happened?" he suddenly asked.
I let out the deep breathe I was holding and closed my eyes tight as I let my head fall back and almost squished the stuffed chick in my hand.
"I-"
"Wait a minute." Junho suddenly said walking up close to me.
I stopped and looked at him, glad once again that we are the same height.
"That." Junho said pointing at something.
"What?" I said. "Is there something on my face?" I asked.
Junho quickly turned me towards the mirrors and pushed me close so that we both stared at each other.
He pushed my head close to the mirror and turned my head only slightly.
"This."
"Ouch." I winced as he touched the side of my neck.
"What are you doing?" I said turning to him quickly as I covered the part he touched.
"That's...It's a hickey." Junho said.
It took me a short moment to understand what he just said as I turned to the mirror and looked.
A big bruise. A clear big bruise.
My eyes widened.
"Junho." I said.
"Did he...?"
"Wait." I stopped him and closed my eyes tight.
I turned to the mirror quickly again and found the same big bruise.
'Its not a dream.'
"What should I do? If I stretch its seen. I can't let Soyoung see this. I can't let people see this." I said panicking.
"Help me."
I turned to Junho for help.
"How? I've never had a hickey either." Junho said.
My eyes widened and I covered my face full of embarrassment as my body crouched to the floor as I covers my face with chick.
A moment of silence passed.
"Hey. Wooyoung? Was it Taecyeon-sshi?" Junho asked me.
My body stiffened and I nodded my head without looking him in the eye.
Another silence passed.
"Woo? Do you...maybe do you...like Taecyeon-sshi...as more than a friend?" Junho asked me.
"I told him..." I paused and looked up at Junho. "I told him to stop...I told him I couldn't do it...he asked if it meant no and I shook my head yes. I was just scared and embarrassed and he was going too fast." I said.
Junho responded with asking me again.
"Do you like him?" he asked.
I looked up at Junho.
"Can I ask a question?" I asked.
I didn't give him time to answer.
"Am I gay?" I asked Junho.
He didn't reply.
"Please. I need you to tell me." I said.
"I don't know Wooyoung. Your the only one that will know the answer to this question." he said.
"I don't hate him...but he was just going fast. I haven't even told him my feelings...do you think all he wants is you know...." I felt my face heat up. "Do you think he only wants to do that with me? His manager said that he's been wanting a girlfriend lately. Do you think I'm a substitut-"
"Your not a substitute."
The voice that interrupted me.
I looked up into Taecyeons eyes.
"Hey! Are you two done? I'm hungry." Junsu hyungs voice also filled the bathroom.
I quickly got up and nodded with a big smile.
"Yeah! We're done." I said as I walked up to Junsu hyung and unconsciously gave him a hug.
"Yah...Wooyoungie...are you okay?" Junsu hyung asked calmly.
I smiled and nodded with my head still on his shoulder.
"You hungry?" he asked.
"Yeah." I said.
"Then let's go." he said.
I nodded and pulled away from the hug.
We got some food and went to some other rides together this time.
Taecyeon ignored me for the rest of the night and I ignored him.
By the end of the night he had to leave.
Junsu hyung dropped me off first.
My bed was my only comfort that night until Soyoung came home and I crawled into her bed.
She didn't ask me anything but wrapped a warm hand around me.
I snuggled more into her and closed my eyes with a sigh.
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"Woo? Do you feel good enough to go to school today?"
I tightened my eyes and opened them to the sight of Soyoung looking down at me.
"How late am I?" I groaned.
"A hour. You didn't look we'll so I let you sleep until I finished getting ready." Soyoung said. "I think you should stay today too. I'll call your school." she said.
"No." I said getting up. "I'm fine. Wait for me to-"
"Woo?" Look at your face."
A sudden mirror was shoved in my face and I stared at my reflection.
My eyes seemed red as if I was crying, my face looked terrible. I looked completely sick.
"You were crying again." she said. "And I think you got a cold...you were coughing a lot yesterday night."
I didn't reply her but continued getting up.
"I can't miss another day. I'm going." I said as I rushed to the bathroom and brushed my teeth quick.
I washed my face and pulled on my school uniform.
Soyoung didn't say anything more as she walked out the building with me.
We stopped at a convenience store and she bought me some medicine and food.
"If you don't feel good, call me and I'll come pick you up." she said.
I nodded.
We arrived at the school only a couple of minutes later.
"I called the school." she said.
I nodded and thanked her as I got out of the car.
The sound of quietness filled my ears all the way until I got inside the school.
I stopped by the teachers office to get a pass and then stopped again in front of my classroom door.
'Did I really cry?' I thought to myself as I remembered what Soyoung earlier said.
I stood for a few more seconds, a sneeze escaped my lips and I finally opened the door.
"Ahh...Jang Wooyoung, you finally made it." My Korean history teacher said.
I nodded and walked to my seat.
"Woo.." Junho whispered to me.
I slowly turned to him.
"You don't look so good. You sure you should be here?" he whispered.
I nodded and turned back to the board.
I didn't pay attention in class, by my third class, I felt exhausted.
I sneezed and coughed in every teachers lesson.
"Maybe you should go to the nurse Jang Wooyoung." my English teacher said.
I shook my head no.
"Ah...Junho. Lee Junho. Take him to the nurse." she said again.
"Alright." Junho said.
"No." I said. "I'll go. You stay and take notes for me." I said.
Junho didn't agree but I glared at him and he sat back down and nodded.
I stood up, grabbed the medicine and some water Soyoung bought me earlier and excused myself from the classroom.
"What's happening to me?" I groaned out as I walked towards the bathroom.
My face looked worse than before as I stared at myself in the mirror.
I stood silently in the boys bathroom as I took the medicine and washed my face again.
'I feel dizzy.' I thought as I leaned on the sink.
I continued that way for a few more minutes before I forced myself to get up.
I took a last look at myself before I grabbed my water and medicine and started heading out the door - only to be hit in the face with a chest.
I grabbed my nose and a cough escaped as I leaned down and rested my head on my knees.
"It hurts.." I groaned.
"Wooyoung.."
'Of all the people.' I thought.
I quickly got up and nodded before started to head out.
I literally took only two steps before I felt my legs give out of me and my body start falling.
It's the last I remember.
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"I don't know what's wrong....But I'm scared. I think he's going back to remembering again."
Soyoungs voice woke me up.
I kept my eyes closed.
"I don't know what to do. I don't want to go through this anymore. I can't do this by myself again.
She was crying.
I felt bad.
"Your coming?" she asked the person.
'On the phone maybe.' I thought.
"Maybe he should come live with you for a while."
I knew it by those words who she was talking to.
I lifted my body quickly and opened my eyes.
We caught eyes.
The tears ran down her face as she hugged me.
"I'm fine..." I whispered in her ear as I patted her head.
"Your sick. It's getting worse. Umma Lee is coming." she said.
She knows I hate when she says Umma Lee.
I pulled away from her hug and started getting up.
"Wooyoung! Woo!" Soyoung yelled as I ran towards her door.
I opened it, thinking I could make my escape when I was pulled into a forceful hug.
I couldn't breath.
The person let me go quick.
I looked up to see big, deep brown orbs.
Taecyeon and I stared at each other for a long time before I broke down and hugged him.
I didn't cry.
Not ever will I cry a second time in front of him.
He hugged me back and gently pulled me back.
I let myself be pulled back as I was gently put on the bed.
A cough escaped my lips and I closed my eyes and quickly found myself asleep.
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"He has a high fever. Has he been to the hospital?"
The sound of Junhos moms voice sounded through my ear.
"How bad is it?"
I heard Soyoung ask.
"It's worse than a regular winter cold. Has he been out a lot? We might need to take him right now." she said.
There was a short silence.
"I...let him go on a trip." Soyoung said.
There was another short silence.
"To Seoul." Soyoung said.
"By himself. It's colder in Seoul than it is here." Mrs. Lee started yelling at Soyoung and I quickly opened my eyes and started getting up.
"I wanted to go..." I said. "I made her give me permission. Don't yell at my sister." I said.
Sometimes I'm rude to Mrs. Lee, and sometimes I regret it because she is Junhos mom and someone who does indeed take care of us sometimes but other times I can't tolerate her...seeing her makes me want to cry, and I believe she has no right to yell at Soyoung who does her best.
Another short silence passed.
Mrs. Lee and I stared at each other.
"How are you feeling?" she asked.
"Fine." I said.
"Wooyoung...don't lie to me now...this is serious and it can get worse if you don't tell if something's wrong. Your body feels like ice." Mrs. Lee said as she walked up to me.
I caught eyes with Soyoung and sighed.
"My head hurts...my eyes hurt...I'm freezing." I said.
"How long has your head hurt?" she asked.
I turned to Soyoung and she nodded.
"Since....Since I came back from Seoul." I said.
"Did it start in Seoul?"
I grabbed my head and ruffled my hair.
"I'm sorry. Can you walk? You need to see a doctor." she said.
"I'm fine. It's just a col-"
A cough escaped my mouth and I sneezed.
"It's just a cold." I said.
"Woo...please listen to her." Soyoung said.
An hour later and I was in a hospital.
The place I always dread to be and I was currently laying on a hospital bed.
"The doctor said its not a normal cold for sure and you might of caught a virus. He is going to give us medicine but he says you can go to school tomorrow if you want." Soyoung said.
"I want to." I said.
"Are you sure Wooyoung?" Mrs. Lee asked.
"I missed too many days." I said as I lifted myself up. "I never miss school."
Both of them didn't say anything.
I caught Junhos stare and wondered when he arrived.
"Hey." he said.
"Hi." I said as I put on my shoes and jacket.
"We just need to wait for the paper." Soyoung said.
"I'm hungry." I said. "We should hurry and get home."
"We can stop by somewhere to eat. Then we can stop by to get your medicine." Mrs. Lee said.
I didn't say anything.
"You said your hungry." Junho said.
I sighed and walked up to him.
"Alright. Only if you want to." I said to Junho.
What I do...to Mrs. Lee
I don't mean it...I just can't have to many people to care about.
A few minutes later and Mrs. Lee talked to the doctor and we were on our way out.
We stopped at a BBQ place.
"So? What's going on?" Junho suddenly asked when Soyoung and Mrs. Lee went to the bathroom.
"With what?" I replied.
"You know." Junho said.
I sighed.
"He said he likes me." I simply said.
Junho didn't say anything for a little bit.
I didn't say anything either.
"Then why are you two fighting? You hugged Junsu hyung back there." Junho said.
"What fight? He just has problems. He's weird as it is." I simply said.
Junho was about to say something else when Soyoung returned with Mrs. Lee.
We ate in silence, except for a few questions directed at me from Mrs. Lee.
I did my best and replied her without sounding negative.
An hour later and Soyoung and I were back at our apartment.
"So your going tomorrow?" Soyoung asked.
I took off my jacket.
"Yeah." I said.
"Then take your medicine and go take a shower before you go to sleep." she said.
"I was going to do that anyway." I said.
Soyoung scowled.
"Yah!" she screamed.
I laughed and ran quickly to my room.
"It's been a while."
I turned to the door to find her staring at me.
"Since I heard you laugh." she said.
I frowned and then smiled.
"Everyone's acting as if I changed." I said.
"You've been frowning more I guess." Soyoung said.
"I haven't." I said.
"But your trying your best with Mrs. Lee and I appreciate that." Soyoung said.
I didn't say anything as I got up and walked past her to the bathroom.
Twenty long minutes in the shower later and I was out and freshly dressed in pajamas.
I said good night to Soyoung and was just about to go into my room when the phone rang.
"Can you get it please? I'm going to shower." Soyoung said.
I sighed and wondered who was calling so late in the night.
"Hello?" I said through the receiver.
"Wooyoung."
'Taecyeon hyung.' I thought.
"Hyung...do you know what time it is?" I almost yelled at him.
"I'm sorry. It's been really busy for me but I needed to call you." he said.
I paused. "Why?" I asked after a few moments.
"I heard you went to doctor and I just wanted to make sure your okay." he said.
I sighed.
"I'm fine. Everybody's making such a big deal out of a simple cold." I said.
There was a few moments of silence on the other line.
"That's good." Taecyeon said.
I lowered my eyebrows and brushed a hand through my hair.
"Is that all?" I asked.
"....want to see you..."
It was quick and I barely heard it.
I didn't know what to reply to it.
"I have to take my medicine and go to sleep. Its late."I said.
There was a short silence.
"I'm coming back to school tomorrow." I said.
"I want-"
"Who are you talking to. You need to get some sleep."
Soyoung frowned at me as she walked up to me with a towel in her wet hair.
"I-"
The speed dial suddenly started and I frowned.
"Who is it?" Soyoung asked.
I lifted the phone off my ear and sighed.
"No one." I said as I put the phone down and headed to my room.
"Wait! Take your medicine." Soyoung shouted.
I sighed and went back to the kitchen to take my medicine before I headed straight into my room and on my bed.
For the whole night I tried my hardest to keep thoughts of Taecyeon out of my head.
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