Love me like I Love you 7
Title: Love me like I Love you 7
Pairing: Taecyeon/Wooyoung, Junsu/Junho
Rating: PG-13, M
TaecWoo: Because of dance everything leads to disguising himself as a girl and loosing all his first. Life goes from normal to strange as Wooyoung gains a lover.
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I woke up staring at the door.
It was very quiet, so quiet that I heard the sound of breathing from Taecyeon.
I couldn't move. I laid frozen just staring at the door continuously until there was a knock on the door.
Quickly I got up finally realizing where I was, as if I was just awoken from a trance.
"Hold on..." I groaned out.
My head quickly turned to Taecyeon. He was fast asleep, so close to me that I quickly got up and ran to the door.
"Good Morning."
Taecyeons manager greeted me and I quickly greeted back.
"Is he awake?" he asked.
"No." I said opening the door wider for him to see as I stepped back.
"Can you wake him up and tell him he has a schedule that suddenly came back up because the president says they all need to be on the show. I need to go wake the other two." he said.
"Uhmm..." I said as I watched him quickly leave.
"Wait." I said quietly.
I stood there speechless.
'He's not going to like this.' I thought as I walked back to the bed.
He looked tired even laying there sleeping.
"I don't want to do this....I'm sorry Idol-sshi." I whispered as I gently tapped Taecyeon on the shoulder.
He didn't wake up.
I tried again and he only moved slightly and groaned.
"Hyung? Taecyeon-sshi? Your manager wants me to wake you up." I said.
He didn't say anything.
I gently started shaking his shoulder and finally eyes opened.
"Hey...Good Morning." I said.
Taecyeon closed his eyes once again.
"Hey." I said getting on the bed and leaning down to look at him as I shook his shoulder again.
"I'm sorry but your manager wants me to wake you up." I said.
"Why?"
His voice sounded rough and tired.
"He says you have a schedule that came back up. The president wants all of you to attend now." I said.
Taecyeon groaned and wrapped a blanket around his head.
It took me only a few seconds to realize it was mine.
"Hey. Come on...I know your tired. I'm sorry." I said apologizing as I tried to pull my blanket away.
I leaned closer and sighed.
"Come on." I said.
"I wanted the day for the two of us today." he said.
"Stop that. This is your job. Besides we go to the same school...we have more than enough time to become closer friends." I said.
"I don't want to leave you again." he said.
There was a knock on the door as it quickly opened and the manager walked in.
I quickly pulled back from my closeness to the form of blankets on the bed and quickly got up.
"He sounds tired." I said as the manager walked straight to the curtains and opened them letting the bright light shine in.
I winced and closed my eyes for a few seconds.
"Yah! Get up. You have a schedule!" he yelled as he walked to Taecyeon and pulled the blankets away.
"You promised me I had the day off." Taecyeon said opening his eyes.
"I'm sorry." the manager said as he calmed down and gave me a side glance. "But President-nim wants you all on the show."
I smiled lightly and looked away nervously.
The manager sighed as Taecyeon didn't reply.
"Okay. If you hurry up and get ready then your friend can come." he said.
"What?" I said a bit shocked.
"But that means you two need to hurry and take a shower. Fast! We still have to go get your makeup done." he said as he got up and walked to the door.
"Get up! Nichkhun is done and I'm sure Chansung is almost done." manager-sshi said.
Taecyeon quickly then got up with a little hint of smile on his face.
"Will you come?" he asked me.
"Huh? Oh. If I won't be a bother." I said.
"Good!" He said as he grabbed his towel. "Now didn't I tell you to stop calling me hyung...and now Taecyeon-sshi?" he said smirking.
"Oh....yeah...sorry." I said.
'He sure does look more cheerful and awake then how he looked seconds ago.' I thought.
"Hey."
I snapped from my thoughts and looked at Taecyeon.
"Good Morning Wooyoung. Now get your towel so we can go shower." he said.
I didn't even think but obeyed quickly and grabbed my towel because I was speechless.
I followed him all the way to the bathroom.
He knocked and a towel draped Chanung came walking out of the bathroom.
"Morning you two." he said.
"Morning." I said.
He smiled and quickly headed to his room.
I watched him all the way to his room.
"See something you like?" Taecyeon said as he laughed and pulled me into the bathroom.
My face heated.
"What are you talking about!" I almost yelled out loud.
"Come on." he said as he pulled me into the bathroom.
I paused when I stepped inside and Taecyeon started taking off his cloths.
I stared at him, then turned away, then asked myself why I turned away, so I turned back.
"See something you like?" Taecyeon asked again.
"No. Just a bunch of exercise maniacs." I said.
"That's not cute." Taecyeon said pouting.
I shook my head at his pout.
"You don't like muscles?" he asked.
"What type of question is that?" I asked. "Are you trying to make fun of the way I look?" I asked.
"No. I'm asking if you like....if you have friends who look like exercise maniacs....or do you not like people who look like that." Taecyeon said.
'Ah....he's wondering how I feel about him.'
If I could I would laugh but I didn't.
"I don't hate you." I simply said.
"But you tolerate me." Taecyeon said.
"Your saying it as if I hate you. I don't tolerate you. I want to be here. I want to get to know you. I have friends with muscles okay. Does that answer your question?" I asked.
Taecyeon chuckled and nodded.
I sighed.
"Are you coming in?" he asked.
"No. I'm going to brush my teeth first." I said. "Hurry so I can get in there."
"You don't want to take it with me? I mean....it will be faster." Taecyeon said.
"No pervert. I don't take showers with anyone. I don't even go to public bath anymore." I said.
"Why am I a pervert?" Taecyeon asked.
"Hyung! We don't have much time. Hurry!" I yelled as I quickly left the bathroom to get my brush which I forgot in my bag.
I came back and quickly brushed, then went back into Taecyeons room to find cloths to wear.
I was on my way back to the bathroom with my cloths when Taecyeon came out with a towel around his waist.
"I'll be quick." I said.
"Hey? Which shampoo did you use?" Taecyeon asked as he stopped me by taking hold of my arm.
"Huh?" I said stopping. "Blue one with the ocean on it. Is that bad? Should I haven't?" I asked.
"No. It's good. That's mine." Taecyeon smiled and I nodded.
"See you in a few minutes." I said as I rushed to the bathroom.
Minutes later I was quickly dressed and rushing out the bathroom when I hit something hard and almost fell.
"Ow!" I yelled and groaned as I grabbed my nose.
"Sorry. I should of watched." Taecyeon said as he grabbed my arm and tried to pull it away.
"No, I'm fine." I said as I pulled away from him to try to go to his room. "Are they done?" I asked.
My question wasn't answered but I was suddenly pulled back and turned around.
"Hyung! Hey!" I yelled.
"At least let me see if your hurt!" Taecyeon almost yelled.
I froze.
'What is wrong with him?' I thought.
A hand rubbed against my cheek first, then my nose that hurt a little.
I flinched.
"Are you really okay?" Taecyeon then asked as he looked at me.
"I said I'm fine. Where are the others? If they're done then we should hurry up." I said as I tried to go back into his room.
"Hey."
I was stopped once again as I was pulled back.
"What is it?" I asked as I saw the look on his face.
I couldn't tell what it was but I knew he wasn't happy.
I paused and frowned. "...Hey...what is it?" I asked as I relaxed and payed attention to him clearly.
"I...I want to do something." Taecyeon said.
"Do something?" I asked. "What do you mean? Is this why your not happy? Do you not want to go to the show? Is that it? But your-"
"Listen to me." Taecyeon stopped me from talking.
At that moment, his phone rang.
"Taec...maybe we should head out. I don't want them to be mad at me for keeping you-"
Once again my words were cut short.
Taecyeon stared seriously, hard down at me and I couldn't move as his hand came to my cheek again.
"Can I do it?" he asked.
"What?" I said confused.
"Let me do it and I won't be sad anymore." he said.
"Hyung...I don't know what your talking about." I said.
"Just say yes and we can go."
"But I-"
He cut me off and put another hand on my other cheek as he stared down at me hard.
"We don't have time." he said.
"Well this isn't fair. I don't know what your going to do." I said.
As soon as the words left my mouth, Taecyeons phone began ringing again.
"Pick it up. It might be them." I said as I tried to grab his phone from his pocket.
"Don't do that." he said.
"But we have to go." I said as I tried to pull away seriously.
The other members and the manager will get mad at me and only me if Taecyeon missed the show.
"Just..."
He leaned closer.
"Just....fine! Do whatever you want so we can go!" I almost yelled.
At this point I had a feeling of exactly what he wanted to do.
Why he wanted to, I had no idea but I just wanted to hurry and catch the others before someone came running in.
A heat leaned closer and closer to my face until lips touched mine.
I flinched and closed my eyes.
'Why is he doing this. I'm a guy!' I yelled in my head as I raised my hands and tried to push him away.
"Hyung....hyung....hey...stop..." I got out those few words before my lips were caught again.
This time I really tried to push him away.
He pulled a few inches away with out lips almost touching.
"Open your eyes." he whispered.
I didn't.
Dangerous thoughts went through my mind.
'Is he gay? Does he really like me like that? But I'm a guy? Doesn't he have a girlfriend? Why am I being used like a girl!? Why am letting this happen!' I screamed these thoughts in my head as I tightened my eyes more.
"Who is Kim Junsu?"
I wasn't listening at first but quickly caught the name a few seconds later as I opened my eyes.
"Junsu-hyung." I said.
"Who is he to you?" Taecyeon asked.
"Hyung? I've known him since I was young. We've been together for a very long time." I said.
"Together? What is he to you?" Taecyeon asked.
"What do you mean?" I said staring at him.
He stared back.
I caught the anger in his eyes and looked away.
"Look. I don't know why you just did that but you got what you wanted so let me go-"
I didn't finish.
I was pulled forward again. Our lips caught again.
For the third time.
I couldn't let it keep happening. I leaned back and pushed him by the shoulders.
"Hey!" I screamed not bothering about honorifics anymore as I tried to push him away but I was pulled back.
I did it once more and I yelled this time.
"STOP!"
"TAECYEON!"
I didn't want to believe it.
The voices that yelled out Taecyeons name.
The ones I didn't want to see.
The manager and the guy named Nichkhun managed to pull Taecyeon off me.
I stumbled back a little, my body almost slouching on the floor as I covered my face in embarrassment and a little fear.
"It's time to go." the manager said.
"Are you okay?"
I didn't know who he was asking so I didn't pay attention but kept my eyes tightly closed and my face covered.
"It's alright he's out of the room now."
The managers voice flowed through my ears.
"Do you still want to come with us?" he said.
I didn't want to think.
"Y...yes." I said.
"Okay then hurry up. We are a few minutes late." He said.
"I'm sorry." I apologized.
"It didn't look like it was your fault. Now hurry up. I'll wait for you here." he said.
I quickly nodded and ran to Taecyeons room to get my jacket and shoes.
I quickly pulled it on and hurried back to the manager.
"Sorry." I apologized again.
"Your face is still bright red. Try to calm down." he said.
His words didn't make it any better better as I felt my face heat up more.
He sighed and turned to me.
"Hey." he said.
"Yes?" I replied.
"Sometimes Taec does things like kissing members because he's lonely that he doesn't have a girlfriend." he said.
'Oh.......So I was just a backup.....Wait....Why did I even think i was anything else. The guy is the same as me. What am I thinking?' I thought.
It didn't make me feel any better but I at least knew the reason now.
"I'm not the only person?" I asked.
"Of course not. Your not special to him or anything. He's not gay. He likes a girl that won't return his feeling right now so he does things like kissing on the ones close to him." The manager said.
I was glad to hear him say that he was not gay but it made something hurt in me to hear that he did what he did to me to everyone.
This meant it wasn't anything special at all. He didn't want to be friends. He did this to everyone.
"If I were someone else, he would do the same thing. Bring them here and claim to want to be their friend." I said.
Manager-sshi nodded.
"Look. What he did. It can't come out okay?" He said.
"I...I know that. He's a idol." I said.
"So...what happened....it never happend." he said.
I felt something in my chest ache more.
"It...never happened to me." I said.
"Good! It didn't happen at all." he said. "Now lets go."
"I will...leave and try not to talk to him." I said. "I am a bother right. He can't concentrate because of me right?" I asked.
"Not because of you. He just wants a girlfriend." the manager said.
It hurt.
Those words from his mouth hurt.
"Are you ready to go?" He asked.
I nodded and smiled as I followed him all the way to the car outside.
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The silence was unbearable.
Even when we stopped for them to get their make-up done, everyone was silent.
When they came back, everyone was silent.
The car ride to the show they were going to was silent.
I could only look at the ground because the war going on inside of me hurt too.
'I don't want to be here. I'm not supposed to be here.' I thought to myself.
Taecyeon didn't look at me at all when I got in the car, and he hasn't even apologized at all.
'I really am a backup.' I thought.
The ride was a bit long. At least it seemed longer because nobody talked.
What seemed like more than two hours later, we were all getting out of the car and heading to the studio.
I stopped when the three guys walked into their show.
"Manager-sshi." I said to their manager.
"My name is Songgi." the manager stopped and turned to me.
"Ah, Songgi-sshi." I said.
"Hmm?" he said.
"Do you want me to leave today?" I asked.
"What?" he said turning to me. "I didn't say you should leave." he said.
"I know...but...I think I should leave." I said.
"Right now?" he asked.
"While the show is starting." he said.
"You don't want to say bye?" he asked.
I opened my mouth and closed it two times.
"I think I should go. I really don't even know why I can here actually. I want to go home." I said.
"Because I said he does it to everyone?" the manager said.
"No. Not because of that. I just...I just want to go. I want to see my sister and my friends. When I'm here...I don't know anyone. I'm by myself and he has work to do so we can't even try to be friends because he's busy. I don't want to waste his free time because he already looks tired." I said.
"You noticed?" Songgi-sshi asked.
I nodded.
"You really want to go? Not because of what I said?" he asked.
"Maybe a little because of what you said.....Truthfully...I thought I was special. Even though I hated him taking my first kiss like that, I was better off knowing he missed me. After hearing he does this to a lot of other people because he wants a girlfriend....I know that I'm just a bac-"
"The show is about to start."
I stopped as someone came up to Songgi-sshi and started talking to him.
I looked away and sighed.
"I have to go call the boys. Stay here. I'll be back." Songgi-sshi said.
I nodded and watched as he left.
The silence as I stood there started to become uncomfortable and I was almost about to leave when Songgi-sshi and the guys came back.
"They said it will be three hours." Chansung said.
I didn't know he was speaking to me until he said my name.
I lifted my head.
"So it will take a while. Do you want to go back home?" he asked me.
Chansung. Not Taecyeon.
Chansung.
'So your not talking to me when your the one that kissed me again.' I thought.
I released a sigh and nodded as I looked at Songgi-sshi.
"I'll see you guys sometime." I said.
"Wait for me in my room."
I stopped at the sound of Taecyeons voice but didn't turn around to him or say anything.
"Five minutes!" someone shouted.
"You guys go!" Songgi-sshi yelled.
The guys hurried and left.
"Your really not going to tell him your going home?" Songgi-sshi asked.
"Why? He obviously didn't want to talk to me after he did that in the dorm." I said.
"I'm not going to wait. Nichkhun-sshi already doesn't want me to be here and I just really miss Busan." I said.
"Busan takes more than three hours to get to. I have to be here to drop them off at the studio for practice after the show." Songgi-sshi said.
"Drive me halfway. I have some money to take a bus back home." I said.
"I can't do that. What if you get lost? You know how mad he will be?" Songgi-sshi said.
'Why would he be mad if I'm just a backup.' I thought. 'Why does it bother me so much?'
I sighed.
"I won't. I at least know my way to Busan." I said. "It's my birthplace." I said.
Songgi-sshi looked at me hard.
"Please." I said.
He sighed and nodded okay. "I can't force you to stay. he said.
I smiled and waited for him to go tell someone something.
I hurried straight to the van as we walked out of the large building.
The ride back to the dorm seemed shorter and even more quieter.
We both got out and I hurried inside the building.
Both because it was cold and I wanted to hurry and leave.
When Songgi-sshi opened the door, I hurried and took my shoes off as I walked to Taecyeons room and began throwing everything I owned in my bag.
I didn't look at the door once but I sensed Songgi-sshi standing there.
I sighed and closed both my bags as I stood up and walked to Taecyeons desk.
I looked at the money in my hand and put it on his desk, then grabbed a pen and paper and wrote a small note.
'I will pay you the rest later. I'm sorry.' I wrote.
"Are you sure about this?" Songgi-sshi asked.
I didn't reply him but sighed.
"Can I call my sister?" I asked.
"Yeah." he said.
I walked out of Taecyeons room with my bags and headed to the phone.
I needed someone to pick me up from wherever Songgi-sshi would drop me off because truthfully I didn't have money.
It was on Taecyeons desk now.
The phone rang once, then again and again, but no one picked up.
I hung up and tried again, and then again.
"What is she doing?" I whispered to myself.
"You don't have money to take you all the way home right?"
I ignored Songgi-sshi and picked up the phone again.
"It's alright. I'll give you some money." he said.
'I don't want to owe anyone money.' I thought.
I tried Soyoung again but she didn't pick up.
"What's going on?" I whispered. "I hope everything's okay."
"Is something wrong?" Songgi-sshi asked.
"My sister isn't picking up." I said as I picked up the phone again.
'Junsu hyung.' I thought as I dialed the number.
It rang only twice before I heard his voice.
"Wooyoung! I've been trying to get a hold of you! Soyoung is in the hospital." he said.
My whole body froze.
I didn't say anything.
"Where are you?" he screamed.
I couldn't talk.
"Hey." Songgi-sshi said.
"Youngie! Calm down and tell me where you are!" Junsu hyung almost shouted.
"T...tell him where you will drop me off. I have to go now." I said as I pushed the phone towards Songgi-sshi and grabbed my bags.
I waited until the manager told him where he would drop me off.
"He said he's coming now. Is there something wrong?" Songgi-sshi asked.
"Take me now please." I said.
Songgi-sshi nodded and followed me to the door.
I hurried to the van without turning back.
"Look...what I said earlier about him just looking for a girlfriend. That may be true but maybe I was lying about the kissing everyone part. He doesn't kiss everyone he meets. Your the only fan who he's done this to. It made me worried and I think you were-"
"Songgi-sshi, I'm sorry but can we please just hurry and go." I said.
He didn't say anything but started the car and we headed out of the parking lot.
"Are you going to tell me what's wrong?" he asked.
"I'm sorry but no. I just need to hurry home.' I said.
Thoughts of Soyoung ran through my mind quick with thoughts of my parents.
I wanted to cry but I promised myself not to cry.
The ride was silent and I liked it that way. It took a long time to get to the station that Songgi-sshi talked about.
"Want me to wait?" he asked.
"No." I said. "Go."
He waited for a little bit but finally said goodbye and left.
I sat silently looking at every car to see if it was Junsu. I could say another long hour passed before I saw the dark blue car pull up.
I hurriedly picked up my bags and ran to the car.
I didn't bother dumping my bags in the back but brought it with me in the front.
"What happened!?" I yelled, forgetting honorifics.
The feeling inside me didn't make me think at all.
"I didn't know. I just heard that she is in the hospital. I tried your place and no one is there. Where have you been?" he asked. "I called some number that Soyoung gave me when I came back and some guy picked up."
"I'm sorry hyung but please take me to my sister." I said.
"I didn't ask the hospital. We will have to go by her work." he said.
"Just please go." I said looking away.
"Woo? Are you okay?" he asked.
"Just...just please go." I said.
My voice sounded hoarse and I willed myself not to cry as I yelled to myself that she was okay in my mind.
"What happened?" I said again.
"I don't think I should tell you." he said.
I didn't say anything for a long time.
We stopped at a light and I turned to Junsu hyung.
"Ac...Accident?" I spoke up.
Junsu hyung sighed and I knew my answer.
"Hurry hyung please." I said.
The rest of our ride was silent all the way to Soyoungs work place.
I waited in the car as Junsu hyug went in and then hurried back out.
"They said it was an accident but it might not be her." he said
"The hospital?" I asked.
"We're going there now." he said.
I nodded.
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I hurried out of the car when we got to the hospital.
"Room 65." Junsu hyung yelled after me.
"Room 65 please." I said as I got to the front entrance.
The all too familiar feeling from three years ago rose up.
The all too familiar heart breaking feeling.
I rushed up stairs, forgetting the elevator.
We took the elevator that night.
The stairs seemed to go slower...but I liked the slowness.
I found myself slowing down.
We went as fast as we could that night.
I stopped and slowly walked to the door.
"Room 65....Room 65...." I repeated to myself over and over.
Their room number was Room 100.
'Room 65....Room 100....Room 65...' The thought went through my head as I found the room number.
I stopped at the door.
I couldn't move.
My mind went blank at that instance.
"The door Wooyoung."
I felt Junsu hyung besides me.
"Woo? Are you okay?"
I didn't say anything.
It was the question I hated most hearing.
"Woo? Remember it might not be her." he said.
I snapped from my trance and put my hand on the knob.
"Ready." I said as I turned to him and smiled.
"Are you?" Junsu hyung asked.
"Stop that." is what I said before turning the knob and opening the door.
I closed my eyes.
"Wooyoung!"
Soyoungs voice passed my ears and I opened my eyes.
She stood up from her seat in a chair besides a bed.
I stared at her as she gave me a tight hug.
"What's wrong? Why are you back early?" she asked me.
I stood frozen.
Sudden flashbacks zoomed past my eyes in my head.
"Wooyoung?"
Only the sound of my name from Soyoungs mouth made me snap out of it.
I wanted to cry. I needed to cry.
Not in front of her.
Not in front of Junsu-hyung, but I needed to cry.
"It's not me Woo. Don't worry. It's one of my friends. He's still in a coma." she said.
I nodded and hugged her back tightly.
"Can I sleep?" I asked her.
"Yeah. Let's go home." she said.
I watched her walk to the person on the hospital bed.
I looked away.
"I'll be back tomorrow." she said.
I didn't look at anyone, only the white shiny floor.
"I'll take him home Junsu. Thanks for brining him." Soyoung said.
"Thanks." I heard myself say.
"He's out of it again. Why was he all the way towards Seoul?" Junsu hyung asked.
"I'll tell you later." Soyoung said as she pulled me by the hand out of the hospital room. We walked out of the building and I shivered at the cold.
"Let's hurry." Soyoung said as she rushed me to the car.
"His stuff." I heard Junsu hyung say as the back door opened.
"Thanks." Soyoung said.
The ride was silent.
I preferred it that way.
I mentally thanked Soyoung for not asking any questions.
When the car stopped and the engine shut off, Soyoung and I sat in the car silently.
"I'm sorry I didn't pick up your calls. That's why your here right? Or did something happen?" she asked.
"Can I....get my stuff...tomorrow?" I asked.
A short silence passed.
"Yeah." Soyoung said. "Sure Wooyoung. Want me to leave?" she asked as if she knew I wanted to cry.
I shrugged and got out of the car.
"Have your key?" she asked before I could close the door.
I shook my head no.
"Here!"'she tossed me our apartment key and started the engine.
"I'll go back to work now. See you tomorrow morning. You don't have to go to school." she said.
I didn't say anything but nodded and headed straight inside the building.
I didn't even reach our door before I started stumbling.
I clumsily opened our door and stumbled all the way until I hit our couch and laid there.
My eyes stayed dry.
I just let the old memories pass by mind and I found myself smiling.
Smiling at ummas face and her cooking, Appas yelling and constant bickering with me.
The things I used to hate but now miss.
"I want to cry." I whispered to myself as I stared at the ceiling.
I didn't know how long I laid there but the sound of banging jerked me from my thoughts.
I laid there as the banging continued and then silenced to a dull knock.
No one spoke for a while until the knocking became so dull I could barely hear it.
The phone started ringing then.
I flinched but didn't move.
'How about if its Soyoung? You have her key.' I thought.
'.....But I can't get up.....'
I fought with myself in my head for a long time as whoever was at the door continued knocking.
Finally after the knocking stopped, the person talked.
"Wooyoung. Open the door."
Taecyeons voice made me snap from it all.
"We need to talk." he said.
My eyes widened as memories went away and the event from earlier in the morning passed my mind.
Slowly I got up and walked to the door.
I stood for a few seconds before opening it.
A long moment of silence passed as I looked at his shoes.
---Then I let it all out.
First my nose itched.
Then my eyes stung....before I knew it, the shoes started becoming blurry and the first tear dropped.
I was pulled into a hug.
A hug so tight that I couldn't breath but I didn't care.
The sound of a door closing hit my ears as I cried.
"Why....don't cry....Wooyoung ....don't cry I'm sorry." Taecyeon kept repeating as we stood there and I clutched onto his jacket for as if I would die that second.
I didn't know what I was doing, I was blinded by my tears and trying to keep my voice down.
I didn't know Taecyeon had walked us all the way to the couch.
I didn't know that I now almost laid on him as he sat down.
I continued trying to silently keep my voice down as the tears ran down my face.
It seemed like a long silence of my embarrassing sniffling before I could finally stop.
"I...I thought she was the one....I thought she died...just like my parents...I thought she left me." I said.
Taecyeon didn't say anything and I continued on, happy he just kept silent.
I was finally about to tell someone how I felt that night.
Why Taecyeon? A stranger? I don't know, but I cried in front of him.
"That night when we found out the news, my heart stopped. I cried only that night and told myself never to cry again. I couldn't let anyone in. I couldn't think. There's a pain I've held inside my heart for a long time. Why am I telling you?" I stopped myself with a question to myself.
"I can't." I said as I tried to get up.
Taecyeon stopped me by pulling me back down on his chest.
"Stop!" I yelled.
"Calm down...now let me tell you something...I need you to know how I feel." Taecyeon said.
I froze as I remembered earlier this morning and the kiss that was not an accident.
"No." I said pulling away.
I got up and rushed to my room.
I didn't get a chance to close the door as a foot stopped me and my arm was grabbed.
"Let go." I said angrily as I tried to pull away.
Taecyeon didn't let go but pulled me backwards.
I was pushed all the way back until I hit my bed and two hands hit both sides of the bed around my head.
Taecyeon stared down at me.
I closed my eyes.
"Stop." I said.
"I need to tell you." he said.
"No." I said.
"I didn't know what this feeling was at first..." he started.
"Stop." I said.
"....But I think I know now....or at least understand wh-"
"Don't tell me this. I don't want to hear it." I said as I tried to get up, my eyes still closed tight.
"....I understand why now Wooyoung...why I chased after you....I'm confused but I understand...I never chase after a fan or strangers....but I wanted to see you again." he said.
I didn't say anything but tried again to get up when I was pushed down this time.
My eyes opened and my body frozen.
Taecyeon leaned down closer to me.
He only got out the word "I" before I covered his mouth.
We both stared down at each other.
"Your an idol." I said.
He shrugged as if to say he didn't care.
"I'm a boy." I said.
He nodded.
I paused and lowered my eyebrows in confusion hoping he didn't hit me for my last question.
"Are you....gay?" I asked.
Taecyeon shook his head no.
"But...." I said.
My hand was taken away from his lips.
"I think I like you. Only you." Taecyeon said.
I stared at him, unable to blink or respond.
He still held my hand and I just stared at him.
"It's weird." he said.
I nodded.
We both stared at each other for a long time before Taecyeon fell on top of me and wrapped his arms around me into a hug.
"Just for a while." he said.
'But your heavy.' I thought as I stared at the ceiling for a long time.
So many thoughts rushed through my head, I couldn't concentrate or keep track.
Sad, happy, confused, and angry filled thoughts.
It took me a long time to talk.
"I'm not....your ideal type." I said as I remembered a show that Soyoung was watching about 2PM and their ideal types of girls.
"I only say that on shows." Taecyeon said.
"This isn't going to work." I said.
"But we can try." Taecyeon said. "Give me a chance." he continued.
"Your an idol." I said once again.
"I know that." Taecyeon said with an almost angry filled voice.
I got irritated and snapped.
"Don't be mad at me. How about your parents? Your mom? She wants grand kids. She wants to see you with a pretty girl not a ugly boy. And what about you? You said you always wanted kids on shows. Soyoung says you always say this. Why are you chasing after me. Have you even thought about my feelings? Soyoung wants grandchildren too...What am going to tell her if this happens? This...what is this even? Two guys can not do this. It's impossible...and Soyoung...she's my noona... She also likes you so much hyung....she likes you so much..." I finished silently with my eyes closed tight.
His hug became tighter.
"Don't squeeze." I coffed out.
"Give me a chance." Taecyeon simply said. "Just give me a chance. Try to give us a try." he continued saying.
I didn't reply.
He said it again.
"L...just let me think about this." I said. "I don't know...I don't know right now." I said as I tightened my fist and eyes.
Taecyeon didn't say anything.
We laid in complete silence and even though it was uncomfortable for him to be lying on top of me, I found myself falling asleep.
Too tired to think about anything anymore.
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"Woo? Are you awake?"
The sound of Soyoungs voice made my eyes open quick as if I wasn't sleeping at all.
I groaned and rolled over to my side.
"Morning...sorry for waking you. I'm just telling you I left you some food on the table for you and some medicine if your still having your headache." she said.
"Headache?" I groaned in confusion.
"Taecyeon oppa said you had a headache so I left you some medicine to take on the table after you eat. Make sure you get some rest too okay?"
I turned around and matched eyes with my sister.
She smiled and walked closer to me. She stared down at me from the side of the bed.
I pulled the blankets more over top of me but our eyes still met.
"Where is he?" I finally asked, breaking the silence.
"He went to school. Don't worry he will get the notes and work for you. He wants me to tell you that he has to go back to Seoul after school so you might not see him today." Soyoung said.
I didn't say anything or make any movement as I looked away.
I didn't realize it before Soyoung put a hand on my forehead and rubbed my hair.
"You okay?" she asked.
I nodded.
"Sure?" she asked again.
I nodded again.
"Know that I'm always here. You always have me. I won't leave you okay? Don't think I will go away that easy." Soyoung said.
We caught eyes for a few seconds before I looked away quickly and nodded.
She waited a few more minutes before getting up and sighing.
"I'll see you later okay?" she said.
"Okay..." I replied.
I watched her walk to the door and stop.
Soyoung stood there for a few moments before turning to look at me.
"You cried." she said.
I froze.
She smiled and nodded.
"Just know I'm here." she said as she turned around and finally left.
My door closed and I sighed and shuffled on the bed as I wiped at my face.
'What the heck! I cried! In front of him! Wait...He...He said he likes me...'
I felt my face become hot as I grabbed at my hair and thrashed on the bed.
"He's crazy. I'm a boy." I said to myself as I sighed and stared up at the wall.
It took me a long time to get myself up and get ready.
I quickly for no reason rushed to the bathroom and took a shower and fixed my face and brushed my teeth.
I smiled at the food that Soyoung left me, and then I noticed the letter on top of it and frowned.
A sigh escaped my mouth as I walked up to the food.
'Should I read the letter first or eat?' I thought to myself.
I ended up sighing as I put the letter down and and focused on the food.
I ate it slow...just because I didn't want to focus on the letter and what he wrote inside the letter.
I finished fast though because I was hungry.
"I guess I shou-"
I didn't finish as the phone rang and I rushed up to it, glad something distracted me from the letter.
'Who writes letters anymore anyway?' I thought as I picked up the phone without looking at who was calling.
"Hello?"
"Your awake?"
I paused at the sound of the familiar voice.
"H...hyung." I said becoming a little flustered.
A sigh rushed through my ears and I frowned.
"I mean....Taecyeon....Taec." I said.
"It's okay. You can call me whatever you want." Taecyeon said.
I didn't say anything.
"Are you feeling better?" Did you take the medicine Soyoung left you?" he asked.
"Not yet. I don't have a headache anymore." I said.
"You should still take it." Taecyeon said.
I sighed. "Okay." I said.
There was a short silence.
I couldn't stand it.
"Well I have to-"
"Have you thought about it?"
I stopped myself from talking and my body froze.
There was longer silence this time.
"Wooyoung? I'm sorry I'm forcing you right? You don't have to tell me right now....but....at least tell me if you will let me try." Taecyeon said.
"Ahh...."
I waited a few more seconds before continuing.
"Let you try?" I said confused.
"To make you like me." he said.
I lowered my eyebrows in frustration.
"I told you that I already liked you....really how many times are you going to ask me if I hate you? I don't hate you. I.....I cried in front of you....I've only cried in front of my parents." I said.
There was a long silence.
"I want to make you fall in love with me." Taecyeon said.
My heart stopped beating.
I didn't say anything.
"Woo?" Taecyeon said.
I didn't say anything.
"Hey Wooyoung..." Taecyeon said.
I didn't say anything again.
"Baby."
I jumped and yelled at him.
"I'm not your....baby...stop...don't say that! That's embarrassing! Why are you saying embarrassing things. Are you drunk!" I said
A laugh rushed through my ears from the other side of the phone.
"It's not funny." I said as I felt my face heat up quick.
I lowered myself to the floor and clutched my face.
A silence of only Taecyeon laughing passed.
After a while he stopped.
"Are you done?" I asked annoyed.
"I want to see you."
I paused at those few words.
I didn't know how to respond but I wanted to sound cool and not embarrassed.
"Then why don't you?" I said trying to stay calm.
"Will you let me see you?" Taecyeon asked.
It caught me off guard.
"Uh...ummm..." My cool side left me for a second.
"Why wouldn't I let you see me?" I asked.
"Your not afraid that I will touch you?" Taecyeon asked.
I lowered my eyebrows in confusion.
"Why would I be afraid?" I asked.
"Because I like you Wooyoung." Taecyeon said.
My face quickly heated up as I clutched at my face again.
"I'm not afraid of you. We are both guys." I said.
"Really?" Taecyeon said.
"I'm not." I said.
"Open the door."
"What?" I said without thinking as I got up.
"Open the door." Taecyeon said again.
"Why?" I asked as I walked towards the door.
I was replied with the dial tone.
'He hung up on me.' I thought angrily as I rushed to the door.
Without thinking I opened the door quick.
Two arms grabbed me and pulled me into a hug.
It took me exactly a minute to realize who was hugging me tight.
I was about to talk when I flinched and tried to pull away.
A cold hand was crawling up my shirt. I felt it all the way to my waist before I pulled away.
I could feel the heat on my face as I pulled back and stared up at him with a hand covering the right side of my face.
"Your afraid." Taecyeon said as he walked in and closed the door.
I stepped back and didn't reply.
My face still felt hot and I knew my cheeks were red.
"Pervert." I whispered.
"Am I?" Taecyeon said laughing.
I glared at him and walked to my couch as I sat down and sighed.
"What are you doing here?" I asked.
"Can't I come see you?" Taecyeon asked.
The couch lowered beside me but I didn't turn to look at him.
"I thought you had practice."
"It was cancelled." Taecyeon said.
"Shouldn't you go back to see your family if you have a day off?" I asked.
"I want to see you." Taecyeon said.
I froze and moved away as I laid on the handle of the couch. I lifted my legs onto the couch and wrapped my arms around them as I looked up at him with my head on my knees.
"I...I said...I don't know." I said as I looked away.
"You said to give you time." Taecyeon said.
I looked to him.
"I haven't had enough time." I said lowering my eyebrows.
"Can't I just come see you though? We are still friends aren't we?" Taecyeon asked.
"Yes." I said shaking my head. "I'm sorry."
Taecyeon laughed and scooted close to me.
"You know...I didn't have anything to eat since school let out." he said.
"Huh? Your hungry? I don't know if there's anything at home...I can't really cook." I said as I got up to go to the kitchen.
Taecyeon followed me.
"We have rice....the only thing I'm capable of is ramen." I said frowning.
"That's good." Taecyeon said.
I nodded and turned around to begin.
"But if we're going to be together we should both learn shouldn't we?"
I paused at what he said.
'Together.' I thought.
"I can learn." I simply said as I continued.
"I'm glad you said that." Taecyeon said.
I turned to him confused and he lifted his hands and shook his head.
"Nothing." he said smiling. "Need help?"
"No. I'm fine."
'Please sit....I can't look at your face without my face heating up.' I thought.
"Alright. Tell me if you need help though and make sure to take that medicine. If you feel dizzy then tell me." Taecyeon said.
"You sound like Soyoung." I said underneath my breath.
"Because she cares about you. This is how I show that I care about you too." Taecyeon said.
I didn't say anything but of course my face felt hot as I started on the ramen.
A few minutes later I had two bowls of rice and ramen with some kimchi I found in the fridge.
"Thank you honey." Taecyeon said.
I couldn't stop my hand from hitting him.
Taecyeon just laughed and told me to sit.
I sighed and sat on the opposite side of him at the table.
We ate in silence.
'What exactly are we doing?' I thought.
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