With This Tear
Title: With This Tear
Pairing: Eunhae/Haehyuk
Rating: R (NC-17)
Aurthor: eunhee18
Genre: Pure Romance, angst, and drama
Warning(s): Language, nudity, heavy sexual content
Summary: Dealing with love is a hard thing, but not as hard as falling in love. Eunhyuk and Donghae are just two people who fell in love, and now they have to learn to deal with it. Life as they knew it was theirs. It seemed that they had everything. But with Super Junior M getting in the way of many things, their relationship-their love was dwindling. Problems occurred when Donghae wanted to out their love to the public and to their group. Eunhyuk refused, leading to a terrible fight. And what Donghae does next is unexplainable...even to me...
And there he was standing before him; clinching his bags of bought clothes he sweetly smiled. Donghae’s body froze as he felt too nervous to say anything. Leeteuk walked passed them as he headed for the living room to watch television. All the while, the two lovebirds just starred at each other. It was only seconds later when Eunhyuk softly said, “I bought new clothes to wear tonight,”
Donghae grinned lovingly. He then held out his hand towards him, and the other walked to him. Leeteuk watched their hands embrace and he couldn’t help but smile when the door closed behind them. He clinched the remote as his attention veered towards the TV. He then stopped to think for moment. He was struck with worry when he realized that they were alone in his room-not Donghae’s-his.
The door was closed tight and for once they felt alone; even though Lee was sitting in the other room. Donghae sat on his bed as he smiled at Eunhyuk who walked around his side of the room looking at all his stuff. With a grin, he said to him, “I wish we shared a room,” he never stopped gazing upon his things.
Donghae laughed, “I wish that too,” he then gripped Eunhyuk by the waist and pulled him down upon him. Eunhyuk’s soft giggles filled the small room and instantly their lips met. Donghae couldn’t control his smiles as they kissed each other, and neither could Eunhyuk.
“We’re gonna be so alone-just me and you,” said the younger boy when they parted. Their lips touched and their noses lightly rubbed one another. Their eyes never lost contact. “Have you chosen where you want to eat at?” he asked as he trailed his fingers down the side of his lover’s face.
Eunhyuk shyly smiled as chills ran through his body, “I don’t really care,” he told him, “As long as we…” his talking ceased when Donghae pressed his mouth upon his in a luscious kiss. Slowly did they pull away, and with a smile Eunhyuk finished his sentence, “-have a few hours together afterwards,”
Donghae leaned in very close to him, and with his soft whispery breath he uttered, “How about all night long,” there came a big smile that formed slowly upon his face.
Eunhyuk giggled, “Why not…you know, this might be our last chance,” he said as he caressed Donghae’s cheek, “-to really be together,”
Donghae’s smile faded away, “…you really think that?”
Eunhyuk nodded gently as he hated to admit it, “Yeah, I do,”
But his boyfriend disagreed, “I don’t think that,” he then laid down as he kept gazing at his lover, “They say this sub-group won’t last long,” he said, “We won’t be separated for very long,”
Eunhyuk then laid over him. His arm rested across his boyfriend’s chest as he answered softly, “But that won’t change the fact that you’re leaving me next month,”
Donghae ran his fingers through his thick hair. He couldn’t find the words to reply to Eunhyuk’s worrisome comment, but one thing he knew was that nothing could stand between them-not their families, their friends, or their managers. Biting his lower lip in uncertainty of whether to kiss him or tightly embrace him, he then smiled and said, “Let’s forget about all that tonight. Let everybody else worry for a change,”
With a small peck on the cheek, Eunhyuk then got up. “So, what are you wearing? Because there’s one thing I know that really turns me on and that’s how you dress,” he then pulled Donghae to his feet as they began to flirtatiously plan each other’s outfits.
Meanwhile, Jungsu sat on the couch watching an old re-run of Star King laughing at overly used jokes, and hoping to drown out any noises he might accidentally hear coming from the locked room. All of sudden, he heard the front door unlock. His heart skipped a few beats as he felt very nervous as to who it was trying to come through the door. When he said that it was Kangin, he knew there would be trouble. Hoping that Eunhyuk and Donghae would keep their cool in the bedroom, he then happily told him hello.
After popping open a bottle of beer, he then comfortably sat next to his friend. “What’s up?”
But nervously, Jungsu replied, “What are you doing?”
“You sound like you don’t want me here,” Kangin said as he set his cold drink on the coffee table.
Jungsu giggled slightly, “Why would you think that?”
But before the other could answer they were both stopped by loud laughter coming from his room.
“Someone else is here?” Kangin asked.
All Jungsu knew was that his heart stopped, “Um, I guess,” he said nervously.
As the laughter persisted, Kangin quickly said, “It sounds like Eunhyuk and Donghae,” it was more of a grunt.
Lee’s eyes shot towards him, “What do you mean?” he asked.
Kangin took a long sip of his beer, “Nothing, all I said was that it sounds like Eunhyuk and Donghae.” He didn’t linger on the matter, and neither did the leader. He stood to his feet and walked towards the door. Knocking, he then opened it. He saw Donghae lounging on his bed while Eunhyuk tried his new shirts on; he was topless when he walked in.
“Guys, Kangin’s in the living room. Keep it down,” he told him them.
“Tell him to leave,” Donghae replied; his eyes fixed on Eunhyuk’s bear skin.
Jungsu narrowed his eyes, “Sure, Donghae, I’ll just go and tell him to leave because you two want to be alone in my bedroom,” his voice was whispery but it was fierce.
“We’ll be quiet,” Eunhyuk assured the leader and he was then out of sight.
Donghae softly chuckled as he bit his lower lip. He watched his boyfriend pull his shirt over his head, and as the cloth fell over his stomach he then stood to his feet.
“I like that one,” he grinned softly as he approached him. He then ran his hands down the others back as they gazed into the mirror. He then wrapped his arms around his waist and he hugged him from behind. “You always look nice,” he smiled.
Eunhyuk who held onto the other’s hands answered softly, “-thanks,” he felt Donghae’s chin rest lightly on his shoulder. He then smiled greatly, “Stop starring at me,” he shyly said.
“What, I don’t want to stop.” He then tightened his grip and slowly started to sway their bodies from side to side. The older boy giggled when Donghae placed a soft kiss upon his long skinny neck.
“What are you doing?” Eunhyuk asked sweetly. His eyes looked anxious at what his boyfriend planned on doing next.
But all that came from the other boy was a soft faint, “-nothing,” He then loosened his grip and unbuttoned Eunhyuk jeans-slowly and seductively.
The other boy’s heart began to pound. He felt his lover’s fingertips slide over him as he unzipped him. His mouth lusciously moved over his skin. His hands slid up underneath his shirt. Eunhyuk’s head fell back as he loved every minute of Donghae’s endless caress. He felt his hot breath breathing upon his neck, and soon found himself under his spell. “Donghae,” he moaned as he raised his arm up and placed his long hand behind his lover’s head. His eyes rolled, and soon he wanted him. “Donghae, lock the door,” he breathed, but his lover didn’t move. His teeth were now making a red mark on his neck, and he didn’t want to stop.
“Donghae, please,” begged Eunhyuk, but there was still no comply.
Donghae then moved his hands underneath his pleading boyfriend’s pants making him harden, and as he continued to brush over him, Eunhyuk was fed up with the torturous tease.
“I want you…right now,” he moaned and Donghae grinned.
“I thought you wanted to wait for tonight,” his voice was deep.
Eunhyuk grew frustrated, “That was before you stuffed your fucking hands down my pants,”
Donghae laughed. He then stopped and viscously turned his boyfriend around. He slammed his body on the wall and instantly kissed him. Eunhyuk’s leg wrapping around Donghae as the other boy pressed his body hard against him. Their lips almost stung as they kissed each other so roughly. Their arms were tangled into each other as they hurriedly undid their trousers. Donghae picked Eunhyuk up making his legs wrap around his waist. As he began to grind into him, his quivering voice said, “We can do this quick,”
Eunhyuk gripped Donghae by his shirt as he was being constantly pounded into the wall. He looked as though he was hugging him, but he was really hanging tightly to him afraid of falling. He bit his lip as his heart raced and his breathing rose. Everything he thought about enticed even more pleasure- Donghae was sinfully sexy and strong and manly; it was sending him over the edge-but then he remembered about Kangin and Jungsu.
“-Donghae…” he moaned, but not loud enough for the other members could hear them. Donghae pinched his lips together as he refused to moan. When they drew near to the end, Eunhyuk bit down on Donghae’s shoulder; his shirt crunched in his mouth. They came at the same time.
Donghae’s grip on Eunhyuk’s leg eased and he ran his long fingers up his bare skin. Their lips mashed against each other, and before they broke away, he then backed up placing Eunhyuk back on his feet. Their came a loud grunt that escaped from the older boy’s mouth as the shock hurt him.
“Shhh!” Donghae said as he laughed.
Their faces touched as they breathed into one another, “I wish I knew how to refuse you,” Eunhyuk said as he broke the silence.
Donghae smirked, “I’m glad you don’t,” after their last kiss, they then dressed each other. Donghae was slow as Eunhyuk already had his belt buckled. Suddenly, the older dancer pushed him down upon his bed. Donghae laughed loudly as Eunhyuk pulled his pants up. The younger boy smiled when he buttoned and zipped him up. Their lips met in a feverish kiss, and they never let each other go.
As this was happening, Jungsu who seemed to be the only one to hear a little something coming from the occupied room looked over Kangin sharply. All the while the younger boy burst in laughter as he was completely into the show he was watching.
“So, what time do you go back to SM?” he asked.
Kangin, who took another long gulp of his drink, answered unhurriedly, “I don’t,”
“So, you’re gonna be here the whole time?”
Kangin stopped and looked towards him, “What is your problem?”
“I don’t have a problem. I’m just simply asking you what your schedule is,” he nervously said.
“For you information, I’m gonna meet some buddies at a bar in an hour. Want to join us?” he then comfortably leaned back into the couch, but Leeteuk shook his head no.
“I’m going to hang around here. Got to keep an eye on a few things,”
Kangin just nodded as he really didn’t comprehend what his friend said to him as he was yet again focused on the TV.
The leader then rose to his feet. He purposefully left Kangin as he was more interested in Eunhyuk and Donghae’s company. He knocked before he walked in. He saw the two boys pull from each other, and he felt kind of bad for barging in on them.
“Sorry, guys,” he said apologetically, “I just couldn’t stand smelling beer at the moment,”
Eunhyuk sat with his legs scrunched up to his chest as Donghae lounged on the other side of the bed. They were both silent, and they clearly didn’t want to be bothered, but Jungsu didn’t leave.
“So, where are you guys going tonight?” he asked as he sat down on his bed.
Donghae shrugged while Eunhyuk answered, “Probably some nearby restaurant,”
There was an awkward silence between them, but Eunhyuk and Donghae’s attention veered away from Jungsu and onto each other. They exchanged smiles. Donghae then pointed at his shoulders, and Eunhyuk crawled behind him and began to massage them. Jungsu just smiled at them not really knowing how to react.
“Why is Kangin here?” Eunhyuk asked as he slowly rubbed his fingers into his boyfriend’s shoulders. Donghae’s eyes looked heavy as he enjoyed the touch.
Jungsu shrugged, “I don’t know. I thought everyone would be gone, but then he showed up,”
Eunhyuk smiled, “Well, you’re doing a good job of keeping him out of here,” he then bent down and whispered in Donghae’s ear asking him if his massage help whatever ache he had, and the other boy nodded. Eunhyuk then hugged him. His arms tightly wrapped around his lover’s neck and he rested in that position for quite a while.
“Well, I’ll leave you alone,” Jungsu said as he stood, but Donghae’s voice filled the air soon after.
“You don’t have to leave,” he grinned gently.
Eunhyuk nodded, “We’re not trying to scare you away,” he said as he lovingly rubbed Donghae’s back.
Jungsu stopped. He turned and looked at them. They were just being themselves, and he had no problem with it-why should he? With a smile, he then sat back down.
“If you don’t mind me asking, when did the two of you really hook up?” he lounged back on his bed.
Donghae smiled and looked at Eunhyuk to tell the story, and he did, “Well, we were always attracted to each other, but it officially started last summer,”
Jungsu didn’t stop with the questions, “So, who asked who?”
Donghae smiled as he remembered such a sweet memory, “We met at Han River,” his eyes turned towards Eunhyuk who shyly smiled back, “and I asked him,” Their hands met in a loving embrace.
Jungsu giggled as he nodded, “So you’ve been secretly together for a year?” he couldn’t believe it.
“Shocked?” Eunhyuk asked.
“Yeah,”
“How did you find out about us?” Donghae’s lover asked.
“Well, I read a text you sent Donghae. I think it was about a couple of months ago.” The leader confessed. “-but I’m happy you both know now,” he smiled.
“I’m really glad you know,” Donghae said, “-because you deserve to know,”
Eunhyuk was quick to contradict, “Well, he doesn’t deserve to know.”
Donghae looked at him, “I think he does. I think they all do,”
Jungsu just starred at them.
“No, they don’t,” Eunhyuk laughed sarcastically.
Donghae then nudged him.
The leader just laughed at them, “It really doesn’t matter,” he said; even though it did, “I’m just happy you guys finally know,”
There was a bit of an odd silence between them-more between Eunhyuk and Donghae. Eunhyuk couldn’t believe his ears, and it upset him that Donghae was still on that matter. But he shrugged it off as he didn’t want to ruin their day.
“Do you realize how excited your fans would be if they knew about you guys?” Jungsu boldly asked.
The thought frightened both of them-Eunhyuk more than Donghae. “I don’t even want to think about that,” Eun replied as he leaned onto his side.
Donghae shook his head as he looked at Jungsu with a slight annoyance. The oldest shrugged, “It’s only the truth.”
Eunhyuk looked down as he fiddled with his fingers. He officially tuned out of the conversation and he didn’t want to be bothered with such a bothersome subject.
Even though Donghae’s views were quite different, he too felt a little uneasy about the thought, “I don’t think I’m ready for them to know.” Eunhyuk thought he was just saying it. “-and I’m not just saying that,” he added ironically.
“Well, whenever you guys do decide to tell everyone, I’ll be right behind you the whole time,” Jungsu smiled. His eyes were true to his word.
Eunhyuk grinned slightly, “You’re a good friend,” he almost felt like crying again, but he forced himself not to.
“It’s no biggie.” Jungsu said feeling modest.
Donghae reached for Eunhyuk’s hand; he squeezed it as he told him, “We should probably get ready for tonight,” he smiled.
Eunhyuk softly gazed into his boyfriend’s eyes; there was hidden excitement behind his them, “-maybe so,”
“I should probably go too. I have to meet with Shindong. We have a lot of stuff to go over.” Jungsu said as he stood to his feet. The other two boys watched him as he walked towards the door. “I’ll see you guys tomorrow,”
“Thanks for everything, Jungsu, it means the whole world to us,” Eunhyuk replied; he gently smiled.
The leader stopped, “That’s what friends do-we stick out for each other,” and he was then gone.
Eunhyuk fell silent, and was a bit startled when Donghae started laughing, “I can’t believe we did it with those two in the other room,” his voice was low and private.
Eunhyuk thought about for a while and suddenly giggled, “Yeah, I can’t believe it either,” he then crawled over his boyfriend, and as he looked down upon him he took in a deep breath. “I love it when you man-handle me like that,”
Donghae bit his lower lip as he felt a bit shy. His cheeks began to burn as he replied, “You know, I wouldn’t mind you taking control every once in a while,”
Eunhyuk took the hint and slid his hands up underneath his lover’s shirt as he caressed his chest. He slowly bent down and softly kissed him. Their lips lightly brushed over each other and moments later they parted. “It’s not like I haven’t before,” Eun smiled.
Donghae giggled softly, “I know that-but because of you my back hurts all the time,” he joked.
Eunhyuk laughed. He collapsed himself over Donghae’s strong chest as he lightly laid his head upon it. Under his ear he heard the sweet song of Donghae’s heartbeat. He smiled as he listened to the endless rhythm.
“I don’t mean to stress you out so much,” he flirtatiously replied as Donghae ran his fingers lightly through his hair.
“You never stress me out. I love loving you,” he sweetly smiled.
Eunhyuk lifted his head as he looked at his lover. He laughed softly, but stood to his feet soon after. “I need a shower. I have to scrub you off of me,” he said evilly.
Donghae copied him and stood also. He hunched over as he pretended that his back bothered him. Eunhyuk laughed loudly and didn’t hesitate to hit his shoulder.
They hugged tightly, “When do you want to go to dinner?” Donghae asked.
“5:00pm,” he answered, “-then we’ll have loads of time afterwards,”
Donghae grinned as he nodded his head. He then looked at his wrist watch, “Okay, that gives us two and a half hours to get ready.” As they let go of each other, Eunhyuk reached for Donghae’s neck and slowly did he place his lips for one more kiss before they parted.
“I love you,” he whispered.
Donghae softly answered back, “I love you too,” and with that they parted.
When Eunhyuk returned to his room, he reached underneath his pillow and pulled out his diary. His pen still in its rightful place he then held it in his hand.
“It’s been a while old friend, and I just have only a few things to tell you today. First off, it’s been a really shitty week. I can’t even explain it properly, but I just can’t believe at how angry I’ve been at Donghae-my Donghae. I know he means well and everything, but I don’t know how else to express how much I don’t want the others to know about us. Every time I think about that morning my insides shake. I don’t ever want to feel that way towards him again.
Huh, okay, enough of the depressing talk. It’s so surreal how Donghae and I have the entire night to ourselves. I just can’t believe it. Jungsu has proven to be the most supportive best friend anybody could ask for. I don’t know how we’d manage without him-how did we before? Anyhow, I must get ready for tonight. I think its funny how I can’t seem to control myself around Donghae. He’s just so damn fine that I melt. We did it in his room today. We’ve never done it his room before, and it was HOT! I hope tonight will be special like it was back at my parents. I’m sure it will be. Wish me luck-because I’m gonna make love to my boyfriend…”
Eunhyuk closed his book and checked the time. He felt as if he were already running late. Getting up from his comfortable bed, he then went into his bathroom and fixed a nice hot shower. As he got all his clothes ready, he then stepped inside.
~
Siwon stretched his back as he stood alone in the elevator. He looked at his watch as he began to feel impatient towards the slow moving machine. Taking in a deep breath, the doors soon opened. Looking down at the floor, he hadn’t noticed a fairly startled boy standing right in front of him.
“Siwon, you scared me,” said Donghae as he held his chest.
The younger boy seemed surprised and sorry at the same time, “Didn’t mean to,” he grinned; but was stopped as he made his way out of the elevator.
“Siwon, I need to talk to you,” said the nervous boy.
“Sure, what is it?” Siwon replied.
“Well, not here.” Donghae took Siwon by the arm and led him back inside the small contraption. He closed the sliding doors as it gave them privacy.
“Wonderful,” Siwon said as he felt like rolling his eyes; he really wanted to get off the stuffy elevator.
“I’m so fucking nervous about tonight,” Donghae began, “I don’t think I like my plan.”
Siwon sharply looked towards him, “What do you mean? That’s a great idea. Why would you think otherwise,” he sounded strict and stern.
Donghae shrugged, “I don’t know. I don’t even think I still know where that place is located.” He pouted quite obviously.
“Uh, okay, then check into a hotel like I suggested,” Siwon was unfortunately not in the mood to talk to anybody let alone to Donghae.
“I told you, Siwon, we can’t do that,”
The other boy quickly said, “Well, then think of something else,”
Donghae saw his impatient attitude and suddenly grew sour, “What the heck is your problem?”
The younger singer tried his best not to show his annoyance, “I’m sorry. I think your idea is the best yet. You guys will be so alone it’ll seem like the two of you are the only people on the planet. You should really stick to it,” he nodded.
Donghae’s face eased as he agreed, “Alright fine,” he then pressed the open button and the doors slid open. Siwon began to walk out, but then stopped and turned to him.
“Don’t fuck this up,” he told him. Donghae was surprised at his choice of words. “-because you’ve been pissing Eunhyuk off a lot lately. Don’t mention a single word about telling the rest of the group.” And he went on his way. Donghae was left standing there-alone with his thoughts. He had earlier hoped that they could come around to discussing the matter, but he knew Siwon was right.
It almost seemed as though the evening came within a blink of an eye. Donghae wore a nice casual button up shirt; its quarter inch sleeves and deep blue color nearly made it seem formal. He looked rushed as he gathered all the necessary things. He had neatly folded on his bed two blankets, a bottle of lube, and a lantern. Stuffing everything in a gym bag, he then headed out of the door. Not wanting Eunhyuk to know he possessed these things, he ran out to his car ahead of time and stuck them in his back seat. It didn’t take him long to meet Eunhyuk at the front door.
“You ready?” he smiled.
Eunhyuk, who almost wore something similar, nodded his head, “Yeah, let’s go,”
The sun was setting ever so slowly as the two lovebirds sat next to one another in the car. The radio was on low, and the air was set to cool. Both of Donghae’s hands gripped the steering wheel. Eunhyuk couldn’t help but smile as they traveled the highway together.
“You look very nice,” complemented the older boy as he looked at his boyfriend’s attire.
Donghae grinned, “Well, you look quite sexy yourself,”
Eunhyuk rubbed his lover’s arm in a caressing way. “You know, I have a feeling that tonight will be pretty damn amazing,”
“-me too,”
The restaurant was not nearly as packed as they both anticipated. The seating host led them straight to a secluded room where they literally had a lot of privacy-the lights were even dim.
“Your waitress will be right with you,” he smiled and then left.
Donghae sat right across from Eunhyuk. Their hands lightly touched as they were completely alone. “Can you believe that there’s no one in this room right now?” Eunhyuk said as he smiled. He really couldn’t believe it.
Donghae giggled at their luck, “Maybe today was meant to be,”
“Maybe,”
Their eyes gently looked into each other’s. It was almost like they could feel their heartbeats beating together as one. Donghae shyly smiled.
He then lowered his head as he was struck with reality, “It feels as if we haven’t been together in a really longtime. I know we did it every now and then, but we haven’t been this alone in forever,”
Eunhyuk gently smiled, “Donghae, I feel the same way,”
“I just want you to know that I’m never going to leave you,” Eunhyuk starred endlessly at him. “I’m the only person for you and you for me.”
“You don’t have to tell me this,” smiled Eun, but Donghae kept on.
“Yes, I do. I don’t ever want to lose you.” As their heated conversation rose to its climax, their waitress came. Ordering their drinks and their food at the same time, they rushed away the skinny girl with the notepad.
“I sometimes feel that saying I love you isn’t enough to make you realize just how much I love you,” Donghae continued. He gripped the other boy’s hand tightly. “-but then I think you already know,” he smiled.
Eunhyuk nodded, “Donghae, I’ve loved since the day I first saw you.”
Donghae nodded, “For some reason, I just needed to let you know,”
“Okay, but let’s talk about each other. What has been on with you?” Eunhyuk playfully.
Donghae blushed as he bit his lower lip, and with a gentle giggle he then answered, “Not much actually. I recently began working on that song I was telling you about,”
“Oh, really, how’s that going?” asked his boyfriend.
“I’m not gonna lie to you-it’s not really going well,”
Eunhyuk laughed.
“Don’t make fun. I’ve never really wrote anything before,”
“How about we write it together?” Eun suggested sweetly as he reached over to caress Donghae’s hand.
“Okay, my turn. What’s new with you?”
Eunhyuk had a hard time answered due to there wasn’t much that was new, “Super Junior H is kicking off quite well.”
“Oh, the other sub-group,”
“Yep, and that’s basically all,” they both laughed together.
When their food came, their chattering ceased a little. Every now and then, they’d converse with each other in between bites. It was only near the end of their meal, when the serious talk began.
“So, where are we gonna go after this?” Eunhyuk asked; his eyes never broke off of Donghae.
The other boy was reluctant to tell him what he had planned, “It’s a surprise,” his breathy voice said.
“C’mon, you can tell me,” Eunhyuk said as he felt too much in the dark.
Donghae shook his head as he grinned, “No, I can’t,”
Their eyes locked. Donghae’s heart began to race as their check was placed upon the table. When the girl walked away, Donghae softly uttered, “If you want we could stay a little longer,”
Eunhyuk nodded slowly, “If it means more time with you; let’s go,”
They both stood and walked out by the registry. They secretly held each other’s hands as they stood in line. Dinner time was nearly over as they walked out of the restaurant. The evening sky shined in purple and red. The stars were nearly out, and the moon was visible. The air was still warm, and it reassured Donghae that his plan will go smoothly. They buckled themselves tightly and they were soon back on the road.
“Um, just a little heads up. It might take us about thirty minutes to get where we’re going,” Donghae mentioned as he turned on the road.
Eunhyuk found his curiosity growing by the minute, “Where exactly are you taking me?” he asked.
Donghae didn’t answer.
“Donghae,” Eunhyuk whined, but it only made his boyfriend laugh.
“What,”
“You know, I really don’t like surprises; especially right now,” he was getting a little frustrated.
“Alright, I’ll tell you,” Donghae said but didn’t continue. He then started laughing as he felt Eunhyuk’s eyes beating down on him.
“You are something else,” Eunhyuk said with a slightly amusing smile.
“I like it when you get all worked up,”
“Oh, I forgot it turns you on,” Eun replied as he remembered their conversation they had the day before.
Donghae laughed yet again, “Yes, it does. I should pull this car over right now and fuck your brains out, but I’m not because I’m a good boyfriend. Good enough to drive you way out to no man’s land just so that we can “make love”,” it was a giant hint.
“So, that’s where you’re taking me?” he asked.
“Yeah,” Donghae looked his way and smiled.
Eunhyuk giggled slightly, “You don’t have to be a jerk about it,” he nudged him a bit.
“I’m not trying to be a jerk,”
“Fuck my brains out? Really,” he laughed.
“I think saying that is hot,” Donghae joked.
“Ugh, of course you do,” he leaned back in his seat. “Now, since I have to wait thirty minutes to touch you-no more talking,” he was playing the game of hard to get, and Donghae-like always-fell for it.
“You don’t mean that,”
He was completely silent.
“Eunhyuk,”
The other boy looked out his window as he tried not to laugh.
“Fine, you want to play this game? You’re topping tonight,”
Eunhyuk turned sharply at him, “You can’t be serious,” he laughed. He saw Donghae nod-he really looked a bit peeved. “Donghae, I’m kidding.” He reached for his hand, “Please don’t ever imply whoever tops as a punishment. It makes me feel icky,”
Donghae grinned, “Yeah, it kind of put me out of it too,”
“It’s been-what-ten minutes?” Eunhyuk said as he looked down at his watch. “Can’t we just do it in the car?”
Donghae shook his head, “Earlier you were against that idea,”
“Well, it was the way you put it that turned me off,”
“How could that possibly turn you off?” Donghae just couldn’t understand.
“It really didn’t,” Eunhyuk confessed.
Donghae looked at him as he hoped he was serious, “You want me to stop this car right now?” he asked.
“Not really. I want the way you planned tonight to go how you want it,” he sweetly smiled.
Donghae grinned, “You’re adorable,”
“Stop it,” Eunhyuk said as he blushed. “Or I’ll make you stop the car,” he giggled.
Donghae thought of something, “What turns you on about me?” he asked randomly.
Eun was sort of embarrassed by the question, but he answered it with no problem, “Lots of things-like when you bight your lower lip while you dance; that sends me over the edge all the time.”
Donghae laughed.
“Um, I think that’s all I should say right now,”
“No, no, keep going,” Donghae said. “What else?”
“Donghae,” he laughed, but the other boy pressured him, “Okay, when you lightly hold my hand.”
“Just holding your hand can turn you on?” Donghae saw his lover nod. “Wow,”
“Oh and when you look like your confused,” he laughed of shyness. Donghae looked at him, “Oh, that’s it,” he laughed loudly. “You’re making the face,”
Donghae started laughing, “I hope we’re almost there,” there was no doubt that they both started to excite themselves just by thinking about each other. It didn’t take them long before they arrived.
The sun was still setting as they drove deep into the secluded field of wild flowers. Donghae put the car in park, and he reached back for the bag he packed before they’re trip.
“What’s that?” asked his boyfriend.
“Just stuff,” he then stepped out of the vehicle. Eunhyuk did the same.
He watched Donghae unfold the blankets, but the vastness of the area caught more attention, “What is this place?” he asked.
Donghae stood after he was done spreading out the cloth, “My sanctuary, really,”
“Why haven’t you told me about this place before?” asked the older boy.
Donghae shrugged, “Probably because I just remembered about it,” he then sat down. He took of his shoes and set them off to the side. Eunhyuk took his place next to him.
“You really go out of your way sometimes,” he lovingly smiled. “-and I love that about you,”
Their mouths soon met. Slowly did they kiss, and it wasn’t long before Eunhyuk broke away, “I love being here with you,” he told him, “I love you more than anything in this world. I mean, I couldn’t asked for anything better,”
Donghae bit his lower lip, “I love you too. I kinda have a secret that I’ve been meaning to tell you,” he lowered his gaze, “When we first did it at your parent’s house and I told you that I slept with Yunho, that wasn’t true,”
Eunhyuk found this quite odd and shocking, “Well, why did you tell me that you did?”
Donghae felt ashamed, “I don’t know, I didn’t want you to think that I had no experience.”
Eunhyuk moved away from Donghae’s hold, “I don’t understand. It wouldn’t have mattered,”
“You were my first,” Donghae gazed deeply in his eyes, “I’m happy you were,”
It was truly shocking news, but Eunhyuk didn’t care. He felt better that he knew that Donghae was only involved with him, and the world felt right. Donghae took a chance and moved in slowly. Their lips met in a luscious and seductive kiss. He then trailed light kisses down his neck, and in between every touch, he said, “and now I’m gonna make love to you-as if it were-our first time,” he gently pushed his lover down upon his back. The stars up above were bright. Donghae went down on his neck as he kissed him feverishly. His skinny fingers undoing his shirt button by button. Eunhyuk closed his eyes as he felt ready for him.
“…Donghae…” he moaned as he felt his lover trail kisses down his chest and onto his stomach. The other boy suddenly stopped. He sat up over him and began to undo his clothes. Tossing his shirt at the corner of the blanket, he then went down on him again. His skin shined in the dim light their lantern offered. He pulled Eunhyuk’s jeans down to his feet and then he took his own off. He placed himself in between his lover’s legs as their mouths met in a deep kiss. Eunhyuk wrapped his arms around Donghae tightly as they continued this intimate act. As they slowed, Donghae broke away. They were only inches away from each other and with a smile he moved down upon his neck. Eunhyuk grinned at how slow and soft his caress was; it almost sent him over the edge.
“I love you,” Donghae breathed in between kisses. Eunhyuk closed his eyes as his body quivered for pleasure. He bit on his lower lip as he felt Donghae move down. He felt his mouth trail kisses down to his waist, and then he stopped. Looking down at him, he only wondered why he ceased his touches. Donghae suddenly ran his fingers down his left leg. It sent chills through his body when his boyfriend’s soft lips met his inner thigh. Slowly, he kissed him. He ran his palm caressingly up his leg as he kissed his knee. Eunhyuk saw him slowly pull away, and he reacted with a faint moan when Donghae slid both his hand from his legs to his bare chest and then back to his waist. Their bodies met completely as the younger boy nipped at his lover’s collar bone. Eunhyuk wanted to roll his eyes back as he loved every minute of it.
Every movement Donghae made was simply slow and loving. His kisses were deep and flowing, and his hands were gentle and soft. When their bodies connected he was even tenderer. With every push inside him it sent electricity throughout their entire bodies. Donghae’s stomach laid heavily on his lover’s as he pumped deeper and deeper into him. Eunhyuk tightly held onto his boyfriend’s wrists as he opened himself up wider. As their bodies rocked with rhythm their screams of pleasure echoed in the wind. There was no one around them for miles as they made love underneath the starry night.
“Oh! Donghae!” Eunhyuk moaned, “Ah...Donghae!” there was nothing else he wanted to say but his name. His breathing was nearly uncontrollable as his lover pleasured him deeply. Donghae moaned loudly, and his body started to sweat. His arm muscles flexed as they burned of exhaustion.
As they both drew nearer to the end, their screams of ecstasy bellowed in the warm night air. “HUUUHUUUH GOOOOD!” screamed Eunhyuk as he felt himself cum.
“I love you!!” moaned Donghae as their warm liquid splashed into each other. Donghae’s body collapsed over Eunhyuk as they embraced one another tightly. “I love you,” Donghae breathed into his ear as they rested; but he didn’t dare stop there.
His soft lips deeply met Eun’s in feverish kiss. He opened his mouth wide as he dug deep in his. They moaned into each other as they didn’t want to stop. Their bodies turned as their kiss deepened even further. Eunhyuk topped him, and he then pulled away, “…let me…” he breathed. Donghae didn’t utter an answer when his lover went down on him. He could feel his skin redden as Eunhyuk’s teeth nipped at his neck. He ran his fingers through his hair as he hardened with every move Eun’s body would make.
“-I need you,” Donghae pleaded softly, “I want you,”
Eunhyuk grinned slightly as he moved in him. His touch sent Donghae to grunt loudly. He threw his head back; his Adam’s apple rose with his slender neck. The lamp light shined a deep golden as their bodies shined with sweat.
“Oh! Harder!” Donghae moaned loudly as he squinted his eyes in pleasure. Eunhyuk obeyed as he also quickened his speed. As their bodies re-entered one another their loud love cries once again filled the air.
It was absolutely uncontrollable what Donghae moaned, “OOOH! HA-HARDEER! HYUKJAE! I LOVE YOU!” all the while, Eunhyuk can’t seem to catch his breath. As he jammed himself harder, deeper and faster into his lover, they both viscously came-riding out their orgasm.
Eunhyuk laid his head upon Donghae’s chest as they breathed heavily. Their hearts raced with goodness and their bodies eased away from the aftershocks. “I love you so much,” Eunhyuk said as his voice was soft and breathy.
“I love you too,” Donghae held tightly to his lover, and it wasn’t long before they lay side by side. Eunhyuk’s back was turned towards his boyfriend. Donghae’s strong arm held tightly to his waist as they rested. The younger boy propped his head up with his elbow as he smiled sweetly down at Eun.
Their bodies still shimmered with sweat, and slowly did Donghae’s fingers lightly caress Eunhyuk’s arm, “Making love to you has to be the most enjoyable aspect in our relationship,” he softly said.
Eunhyuk smiled as he giggled, “I can’t disagree,” he felt Donghae place a soft kiss on his shoulder. He turned his head and their eyes let. “-but that’s not the only enjoyable part in our relationship,”
Donghae slowly moved down and kissed him. Only a second flew by when they parted, “-Well, I think the best part about this relationship-is how much I get to love you,” his deep boyish voice played like violins in Eunhyuk’s ears. He moved down and placed his lips softly upon his once again only to break away moments after, “-I’m so happy I get to hold you,” he placed a soft kiss on his shoulder, “touch you,” again he kissed him, “and most of all-I get to kiss you,”
Eunhyuk was a sucker for Donghae’s romantic ways, and it didn’t take them long to passionately embrace each other in a warm and wet kiss. Breaking away softly, Eunhyuk’s voice broke the whispery silence, “Make love to me one more time,” their eyes stayed locked in one another before Donghae did what he was asked.
It was loud love cries that endlessly filled the night air. They literally felt as though they were the only people left on the planet, and nothing could stop them. Donghae gave himself to Eunhyuk over and over again. They made love well into the night-they went until they couldn’t go no more.
When Donghae pulled himself out of Eunhyuk for the last time, he lay next to him. His face dripped with sweat as did Eunhyuk’s.
“We better head back,” Donghae dared to say.
Eunhyuk grabbed for his hand as he caught his breath, “Let’s stay,”
Donghae stopped and looked at him. With a sweet smile, he then grabbed the second blanket and wrapped it around each other. Lying on his back, Eunhyuk placed his head upon his chest. As Donghae breathed, the other boys head would rise and fall with him.
“I don’t ever want to forget tonight,” he softly uttered. Donghae smiled at him.
“We won’t,” he said.
“I love you,” Eunhyuk mentioned; it will never end-he will never stop saying those words.
Donghae answered back in a sleepily voice, “I love you too, Eunhyuk. I’ll always love you,”
Their eyes closed as they both drifted off into sleep. The stars up above them shined and sparkled. It felt like time stood still and that eternity was upon them. Never once did they not think that living such a life where they could be normal around their surroundings and make love well into the night without having to quiet their pleasure filled screams could very well be possible, yet the reality seemed so hard to obtain. Donghae softly placed his hand over Eunhyuk’s. Their bare bodies warmed each other’s as they slept peacefully in the illuminated darkness of the starry night.
A/N: Sorry this took so long guys, but I was hit with a lot of writers block over the passed five days. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this bit of entertainment lol, the next part should be up soon ^_^
Pairing: Eunhae/Haehyuk
Rating: R (NC-17)
Aurthor: eunhee18
Genre: Pure Romance, angst, and drama
Warning(s): Language, nudity, heavy sexual content
Summary: Dealing with love is a hard thing, but not as hard as falling in love. Eunhyuk and Donghae are just two people who fell in love, and now they have to learn to deal with it. Life as they knew it was theirs. It seemed that they had everything. But with Super Junior M getting in the way of many things, their relationship-their love was dwindling. Problems occurred when Donghae wanted to out their love to the public and to their group. Eunhyuk refused, leading to a terrible fight. And what Donghae does next is unexplainable...even to me...
And there he was standing before him; clinching his bags of bought clothes he sweetly smiled. Donghae’s body froze as he felt too nervous to say anything. Leeteuk walked passed them as he headed for the living room to watch television. All the while, the two lovebirds just starred at each other. It was only seconds later when Eunhyuk softly said, “I bought new clothes to wear tonight,”
Donghae grinned lovingly. He then held out his hand towards him, and the other walked to him. Leeteuk watched their hands embrace and he couldn’t help but smile when the door closed behind them. He clinched the remote as his attention veered towards the TV. He then stopped to think for moment. He was struck with worry when he realized that they were alone in his room-not Donghae’s-his.
The door was closed tight and for once they felt alone; even though Lee was sitting in the other room. Donghae sat on his bed as he smiled at Eunhyuk who walked around his side of the room looking at all his stuff. With a grin, he said to him, “I wish we shared a room,” he never stopped gazing upon his things.
Donghae laughed, “I wish that too,” he then gripped Eunhyuk by the waist and pulled him down upon him. Eunhyuk’s soft giggles filled the small room and instantly their lips met. Donghae couldn’t control his smiles as they kissed each other, and neither could Eunhyuk.
“We’re gonna be so alone-just me and you,” said the younger boy when they parted. Their lips touched and their noses lightly rubbed one another. Their eyes never lost contact. “Have you chosen where you want to eat at?” he asked as he trailed his fingers down the side of his lover’s face.
Eunhyuk shyly smiled as chills ran through his body, “I don’t really care,” he told him, “As long as we…” his talking ceased when Donghae pressed his mouth upon his in a luscious kiss. Slowly did they pull away, and with a smile Eunhyuk finished his sentence, “-have a few hours together afterwards,”
Donghae leaned in very close to him, and with his soft whispery breath he uttered, “How about all night long,” there came a big smile that formed slowly upon his face.
Eunhyuk giggled, “Why not…you know, this might be our last chance,” he said as he caressed Donghae’s cheek, “-to really be together,”
Donghae’s smile faded away, “…you really think that?”
Eunhyuk nodded gently as he hated to admit it, “Yeah, I do,”
But his boyfriend disagreed, “I don’t think that,” he then laid down as he kept gazing at his lover, “They say this sub-group won’t last long,” he said, “We won’t be separated for very long,”
Eunhyuk then laid over him. His arm rested across his boyfriend’s chest as he answered softly, “But that won’t change the fact that you’re leaving me next month,”
Donghae ran his fingers through his thick hair. He couldn’t find the words to reply to Eunhyuk’s worrisome comment, but one thing he knew was that nothing could stand between them-not their families, their friends, or their managers. Biting his lower lip in uncertainty of whether to kiss him or tightly embrace him, he then smiled and said, “Let’s forget about all that tonight. Let everybody else worry for a change,”
With a small peck on the cheek, Eunhyuk then got up. “So, what are you wearing? Because there’s one thing I know that really turns me on and that’s how you dress,” he then pulled Donghae to his feet as they began to flirtatiously plan each other’s outfits.
Meanwhile, Jungsu sat on the couch watching an old re-run of Star King laughing at overly used jokes, and hoping to drown out any noises he might accidentally hear coming from the locked room. All of sudden, he heard the front door unlock. His heart skipped a few beats as he felt very nervous as to who it was trying to come through the door. When he said that it was Kangin, he knew there would be trouble. Hoping that Eunhyuk and Donghae would keep their cool in the bedroom, he then happily told him hello.
After popping open a bottle of beer, he then comfortably sat next to his friend. “What’s up?”
But nervously, Jungsu replied, “What are you doing?”
“You sound like you don’t want me here,” Kangin said as he set his cold drink on the coffee table.
Jungsu giggled slightly, “Why would you think that?”
But before the other could answer they were both stopped by loud laughter coming from his room.
“Someone else is here?” Kangin asked.
All Jungsu knew was that his heart stopped, “Um, I guess,” he said nervously.
As the laughter persisted, Kangin quickly said, “It sounds like Eunhyuk and Donghae,” it was more of a grunt.
Lee’s eyes shot towards him, “What do you mean?” he asked.
Kangin took a long sip of his beer, “Nothing, all I said was that it sounds like Eunhyuk and Donghae.” He didn’t linger on the matter, and neither did the leader. He stood to his feet and walked towards the door. Knocking, he then opened it. He saw Donghae lounging on his bed while Eunhyuk tried his new shirts on; he was topless when he walked in.
“Guys, Kangin’s in the living room. Keep it down,” he told him them.
“Tell him to leave,” Donghae replied; his eyes fixed on Eunhyuk’s bear skin.
Jungsu narrowed his eyes, “Sure, Donghae, I’ll just go and tell him to leave because you two want to be alone in my bedroom,” his voice was whispery but it was fierce.
“We’ll be quiet,” Eunhyuk assured the leader and he was then out of sight.
Donghae softly chuckled as he bit his lower lip. He watched his boyfriend pull his shirt over his head, and as the cloth fell over his stomach he then stood to his feet.
“I like that one,” he grinned softly as he approached him. He then ran his hands down the others back as they gazed into the mirror. He then wrapped his arms around his waist and he hugged him from behind. “You always look nice,” he smiled.
Eunhyuk who held onto the other’s hands answered softly, “-thanks,” he felt Donghae’s chin rest lightly on his shoulder. He then smiled greatly, “Stop starring at me,” he shyly said.
“What, I don’t want to stop.” He then tightened his grip and slowly started to sway their bodies from side to side. The older boy giggled when Donghae placed a soft kiss upon his long skinny neck.
“What are you doing?” Eunhyuk asked sweetly. His eyes looked anxious at what his boyfriend planned on doing next.
But all that came from the other boy was a soft faint, “-nothing,” He then loosened his grip and unbuttoned Eunhyuk jeans-slowly and seductively.
The other boy’s heart began to pound. He felt his lover’s fingertips slide over him as he unzipped him. His mouth lusciously moved over his skin. His hands slid up underneath his shirt. Eunhyuk’s head fell back as he loved every minute of Donghae’s endless caress. He felt his hot breath breathing upon his neck, and soon found himself under his spell. “Donghae,” he moaned as he raised his arm up and placed his long hand behind his lover’s head. His eyes rolled, and soon he wanted him. “Donghae, lock the door,” he breathed, but his lover didn’t move. His teeth were now making a red mark on his neck, and he didn’t want to stop.
“Donghae, please,” begged Eunhyuk, but there was still no comply.
Donghae then moved his hands underneath his pleading boyfriend’s pants making him harden, and as he continued to brush over him, Eunhyuk was fed up with the torturous tease.
“I want you…right now,” he moaned and Donghae grinned.
“I thought you wanted to wait for tonight,” his voice was deep.
Eunhyuk grew frustrated, “That was before you stuffed your fucking hands down my pants,”
Donghae laughed. He then stopped and viscously turned his boyfriend around. He slammed his body on the wall and instantly kissed him. Eunhyuk’s leg wrapping around Donghae as the other boy pressed his body hard against him. Their lips almost stung as they kissed each other so roughly. Their arms were tangled into each other as they hurriedly undid their trousers. Donghae picked Eunhyuk up making his legs wrap around his waist. As he began to grind into him, his quivering voice said, “We can do this quick,”
Eunhyuk gripped Donghae by his shirt as he was being constantly pounded into the wall. He looked as though he was hugging him, but he was really hanging tightly to him afraid of falling. He bit his lip as his heart raced and his breathing rose. Everything he thought about enticed even more pleasure- Donghae was sinfully sexy and strong and manly; it was sending him over the edge-but then he remembered about Kangin and Jungsu.
“-Donghae…” he moaned, but not loud enough for the other members could hear them. Donghae pinched his lips together as he refused to moan. When they drew near to the end, Eunhyuk bit down on Donghae’s shoulder; his shirt crunched in his mouth. They came at the same time.
Donghae’s grip on Eunhyuk’s leg eased and he ran his long fingers up his bare skin. Their lips mashed against each other, and before they broke away, he then backed up placing Eunhyuk back on his feet. Their came a loud grunt that escaped from the older boy’s mouth as the shock hurt him.
“Shhh!” Donghae said as he laughed.
Their faces touched as they breathed into one another, “I wish I knew how to refuse you,” Eunhyuk said as he broke the silence.
Donghae smirked, “I’m glad you don’t,” after their last kiss, they then dressed each other. Donghae was slow as Eunhyuk already had his belt buckled. Suddenly, the older dancer pushed him down upon his bed. Donghae laughed loudly as Eunhyuk pulled his pants up. The younger boy smiled when he buttoned and zipped him up. Their lips met in a feverish kiss, and they never let each other go.
As this was happening, Jungsu who seemed to be the only one to hear a little something coming from the occupied room looked over Kangin sharply. All the while the younger boy burst in laughter as he was completely into the show he was watching.
“So, what time do you go back to SM?” he asked.
Kangin, who took another long gulp of his drink, answered unhurriedly, “I don’t,”
“So, you’re gonna be here the whole time?”
Kangin stopped and looked towards him, “What is your problem?”
“I don’t have a problem. I’m just simply asking you what your schedule is,” he nervously said.
“For you information, I’m gonna meet some buddies at a bar in an hour. Want to join us?” he then comfortably leaned back into the couch, but Leeteuk shook his head no.
“I’m going to hang around here. Got to keep an eye on a few things,”
Kangin just nodded as he really didn’t comprehend what his friend said to him as he was yet again focused on the TV.
The leader then rose to his feet. He purposefully left Kangin as he was more interested in Eunhyuk and Donghae’s company. He knocked before he walked in. He saw the two boys pull from each other, and he felt kind of bad for barging in on them.
“Sorry, guys,” he said apologetically, “I just couldn’t stand smelling beer at the moment,”
Eunhyuk sat with his legs scrunched up to his chest as Donghae lounged on the other side of the bed. They were both silent, and they clearly didn’t want to be bothered, but Jungsu didn’t leave.
“So, where are you guys going tonight?” he asked as he sat down on his bed.
Donghae shrugged while Eunhyuk answered, “Probably some nearby restaurant,”
There was an awkward silence between them, but Eunhyuk and Donghae’s attention veered away from Jungsu and onto each other. They exchanged smiles. Donghae then pointed at his shoulders, and Eunhyuk crawled behind him and began to massage them. Jungsu just smiled at them not really knowing how to react.
“Why is Kangin here?” Eunhyuk asked as he slowly rubbed his fingers into his boyfriend’s shoulders. Donghae’s eyes looked heavy as he enjoyed the touch.
Jungsu shrugged, “I don’t know. I thought everyone would be gone, but then he showed up,”
Eunhyuk smiled, “Well, you’re doing a good job of keeping him out of here,” he then bent down and whispered in Donghae’s ear asking him if his massage help whatever ache he had, and the other boy nodded. Eunhyuk then hugged him. His arms tightly wrapped around his lover’s neck and he rested in that position for quite a while.
“Well, I’ll leave you alone,” Jungsu said as he stood, but Donghae’s voice filled the air soon after.
“You don’t have to leave,” he grinned gently.
Eunhyuk nodded, “We’re not trying to scare you away,” he said as he lovingly rubbed Donghae’s back.
Jungsu stopped. He turned and looked at them. They were just being themselves, and he had no problem with it-why should he? With a smile, he then sat back down.
“If you don’t mind me asking, when did the two of you really hook up?” he lounged back on his bed.
Donghae smiled and looked at Eunhyuk to tell the story, and he did, “Well, we were always attracted to each other, but it officially started last summer,”
Jungsu didn’t stop with the questions, “So, who asked who?”
Donghae smiled as he remembered such a sweet memory, “We met at Han River,” his eyes turned towards Eunhyuk who shyly smiled back, “and I asked him,” Their hands met in a loving embrace.
Jungsu giggled as he nodded, “So you’ve been secretly together for a year?” he couldn’t believe it.
“Shocked?” Eunhyuk asked.
“Yeah,”
“How did you find out about us?” Donghae’s lover asked.
“Well, I read a text you sent Donghae. I think it was about a couple of months ago.” The leader confessed. “-but I’m happy you both know now,” he smiled.
“I’m really glad you know,” Donghae said, “-because you deserve to know,”
Eunhyuk was quick to contradict, “Well, he doesn’t deserve to know.”
Donghae looked at him, “I think he does. I think they all do,”
Jungsu just starred at them.
“No, they don’t,” Eunhyuk laughed sarcastically.
Donghae then nudged him.
The leader just laughed at them, “It really doesn’t matter,” he said; even though it did, “I’m just happy you guys finally know,”
There was a bit of an odd silence between them-more between Eunhyuk and Donghae. Eunhyuk couldn’t believe his ears, and it upset him that Donghae was still on that matter. But he shrugged it off as he didn’t want to ruin their day.
“Do you realize how excited your fans would be if they knew about you guys?” Jungsu boldly asked.
The thought frightened both of them-Eunhyuk more than Donghae. “I don’t even want to think about that,” Eun replied as he leaned onto his side.
Donghae shook his head as he looked at Jungsu with a slight annoyance. The oldest shrugged, “It’s only the truth.”
Eunhyuk looked down as he fiddled with his fingers. He officially tuned out of the conversation and he didn’t want to be bothered with such a bothersome subject.
Even though Donghae’s views were quite different, he too felt a little uneasy about the thought, “I don’t think I’m ready for them to know.” Eunhyuk thought he was just saying it. “-and I’m not just saying that,” he added ironically.
“Well, whenever you guys do decide to tell everyone, I’ll be right behind you the whole time,” Jungsu smiled. His eyes were true to his word.
Eunhyuk grinned slightly, “You’re a good friend,” he almost felt like crying again, but he forced himself not to.
“It’s no biggie.” Jungsu said feeling modest.
Donghae reached for Eunhyuk’s hand; he squeezed it as he told him, “We should probably get ready for tonight,” he smiled.
Eunhyuk softly gazed into his boyfriend’s eyes; there was hidden excitement behind his them, “-maybe so,”
“I should probably go too. I have to meet with Shindong. We have a lot of stuff to go over.” Jungsu said as he stood to his feet. The other two boys watched him as he walked towards the door. “I’ll see you guys tomorrow,”
“Thanks for everything, Jungsu, it means the whole world to us,” Eunhyuk replied; he gently smiled.
The leader stopped, “That’s what friends do-we stick out for each other,” and he was then gone.
Eunhyuk fell silent, and was a bit startled when Donghae started laughing, “I can’t believe we did it with those two in the other room,” his voice was low and private.
Eunhyuk thought about for a while and suddenly giggled, “Yeah, I can’t believe it either,” he then crawled over his boyfriend, and as he looked down upon him he took in a deep breath. “I love it when you man-handle me like that,”
Donghae bit his lower lip as he felt a bit shy. His cheeks began to burn as he replied, “You know, I wouldn’t mind you taking control every once in a while,”
Eunhyuk took the hint and slid his hands up underneath his lover’s shirt as he caressed his chest. He slowly bent down and softly kissed him. Their lips lightly brushed over each other and moments later they parted. “It’s not like I haven’t before,” Eun smiled.
Donghae giggled softly, “I know that-but because of you my back hurts all the time,” he joked.
Eunhyuk laughed. He collapsed himself over Donghae’s strong chest as he lightly laid his head upon it. Under his ear he heard the sweet song of Donghae’s heartbeat. He smiled as he listened to the endless rhythm.
“I don’t mean to stress you out so much,” he flirtatiously replied as Donghae ran his fingers lightly through his hair.
“You never stress me out. I love loving you,” he sweetly smiled.
Eunhyuk lifted his head as he looked at his lover. He laughed softly, but stood to his feet soon after. “I need a shower. I have to scrub you off of me,” he said evilly.
Donghae copied him and stood also. He hunched over as he pretended that his back bothered him. Eunhyuk laughed loudly and didn’t hesitate to hit his shoulder.
They hugged tightly, “When do you want to go to dinner?” Donghae asked.
“5:00pm,” he answered, “-then we’ll have loads of time afterwards,”
Donghae grinned as he nodded his head. He then looked at his wrist watch, “Okay, that gives us two and a half hours to get ready.” As they let go of each other, Eunhyuk reached for Donghae’s neck and slowly did he place his lips for one more kiss before they parted.
“I love you,” he whispered.
Donghae softly answered back, “I love you too,” and with that they parted.
When Eunhyuk returned to his room, he reached underneath his pillow and pulled out his diary. His pen still in its rightful place he then held it in his hand.
“It’s been a while old friend, and I just have only a few things to tell you today. First off, it’s been a really shitty week. I can’t even explain it properly, but I just can’t believe at how angry I’ve been at Donghae-my Donghae. I know he means well and everything, but I don’t know how else to express how much I don’t want the others to know about us. Every time I think about that morning my insides shake. I don’t ever want to feel that way towards him again.
Huh, okay, enough of the depressing talk. It’s so surreal how Donghae and I have the entire night to ourselves. I just can’t believe it. Jungsu has proven to be the most supportive best friend anybody could ask for. I don’t know how we’d manage without him-how did we before? Anyhow, I must get ready for tonight. I think its funny how I can’t seem to control myself around Donghae. He’s just so damn fine that I melt. We did it in his room today. We’ve never done it his room before, and it was HOT! I hope tonight will be special like it was back at my parents. I’m sure it will be. Wish me luck-because I’m gonna make love to my boyfriend…”
Eunhyuk closed his book and checked the time. He felt as if he were already running late. Getting up from his comfortable bed, he then went into his bathroom and fixed a nice hot shower. As he got all his clothes ready, he then stepped inside.
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Siwon stretched his back as he stood alone in the elevator. He looked at his watch as he began to feel impatient towards the slow moving machine. Taking in a deep breath, the doors soon opened. Looking down at the floor, he hadn’t noticed a fairly startled boy standing right in front of him.
“Siwon, you scared me,” said Donghae as he held his chest.
The younger boy seemed surprised and sorry at the same time, “Didn’t mean to,” he grinned; but was stopped as he made his way out of the elevator.
“Siwon, I need to talk to you,” said the nervous boy.
“Sure, what is it?” Siwon replied.
“Well, not here.” Donghae took Siwon by the arm and led him back inside the small contraption. He closed the sliding doors as it gave them privacy.
“Wonderful,” Siwon said as he felt like rolling his eyes; he really wanted to get off the stuffy elevator.
“I’m so fucking nervous about tonight,” Donghae began, “I don’t think I like my plan.”
Siwon sharply looked towards him, “What do you mean? That’s a great idea. Why would you think otherwise,” he sounded strict and stern.
Donghae shrugged, “I don’t know. I don’t even think I still know where that place is located.” He pouted quite obviously.
“Uh, okay, then check into a hotel like I suggested,” Siwon was unfortunately not in the mood to talk to anybody let alone to Donghae.
“I told you, Siwon, we can’t do that,”
The other boy quickly said, “Well, then think of something else,”
Donghae saw his impatient attitude and suddenly grew sour, “What the heck is your problem?”
The younger singer tried his best not to show his annoyance, “I’m sorry. I think your idea is the best yet. You guys will be so alone it’ll seem like the two of you are the only people on the planet. You should really stick to it,” he nodded.
Donghae’s face eased as he agreed, “Alright fine,” he then pressed the open button and the doors slid open. Siwon began to walk out, but then stopped and turned to him.
“Don’t fuck this up,” he told him. Donghae was surprised at his choice of words. “-because you’ve been pissing Eunhyuk off a lot lately. Don’t mention a single word about telling the rest of the group.” And he went on his way. Donghae was left standing there-alone with his thoughts. He had earlier hoped that they could come around to discussing the matter, but he knew Siwon was right.
It almost seemed as though the evening came within a blink of an eye. Donghae wore a nice casual button up shirt; its quarter inch sleeves and deep blue color nearly made it seem formal. He looked rushed as he gathered all the necessary things. He had neatly folded on his bed two blankets, a bottle of lube, and a lantern. Stuffing everything in a gym bag, he then headed out of the door. Not wanting Eunhyuk to know he possessed these things, he ran out to his car ahead of time and stuck them in his back seat. It didn’t take him long to meet Eunhyuk at the front door.
“You ready?” he smiled.
Eunhyuk, who almost wore something similar, nodded his head, “Yeah, let’s go,”
The sun was setting ever so slowly as the two lovebirds sat next to one another in the car. The radio was on low, and the air was set to cool. Both of Donghae’s hands gripped the steering wheel. Eunhyuk couldn’t help but smile as they traveled the highway together.
“You look very nice,” complemented the older boy as he looked at his boyfriend’s attire.
Donghae grinned, “Well, you look quite sexy yourself,”
Eunhyuk rubbed his lover’s arm in a caressing way. “You know, I have a feeling that tonight will be pretty damn amazing,”
“-me too,”
The restaurant was not nearly as packed as they both anticipated. The seating host led them straight to a secluded room where they literally had a lot of privacy-the lights were even dim.
“Your waitress will be right with you,” he smiled and then left.
Donghae sat right across from Eunhyuk. Their hands lightly touched as they were completely alone. “Can you believe that there’s no one in this room right now?” Eunhyuk said as he smiled. He really couldn’t believe it.
Donghae giggled at their luck, “Maybe today was meant to be,”
“Maybe,”
Their eyes gently looked into each other’s. It was almost like they could feel their heartbeats beating together as one. Donghae shyly smiled.
He then lowered his head as he was struck with reality, “It feels as if we haven’t been together in a really longtime. I know we did it every now and then, but we haven’t been this alone in forever,”
Eunhyuk gently smiled, “Donghae, I feel the same way,”
“I just want you to know that I’m never going to leave you,” Eunhyuk starred endlessly at him. “I’m the only person for you and you for me.”
“You don’t have to tell me this,” smiled Eun, but Donghae kept on.
“Yes, I do. I don’t ever want to lose you.” As their heated conversation rose to its climax, their waitress came. Ordering their drinks and their food at the same time, they rushed away the skinny girl with the notepad.
“I sometimes feel that saying I love you isn’t enough to make you realize just how much I love you,” Donghae continued. He gripped the other boy’s hand tightly. “-but then I think you already know,” he smiled.
Eunhyuk nodded, “Donghae, I’ve loved since the day I first saw you.”
Donghae nodded, “For some reason, I just needed to let you know,”
“Okay, but let’s talk about each other. What has been on with you?” Eunhyuk playfully.
Donghae blushed as he bit his lower lip, and with a gentle giggle he then answered, “Not much actually. I recently began working on that song I was telling you about,”
“Oh, really, how’s that going?” asked his boyfriend.
“I’m not gonna lie to you-it’s not really going well,”
Eunhyuk laughed.
“Don’t make fun. I’ve never really wrote anything before,”
“How about we write it together?” Eun suggested sweetly as he reached over to caress Donghae’s hand.
“Okay, my turn. What’s new with you?”
Eunhyuk had a hard time answered due to there wasn’t much that was new, “Super Junior H is kicking off quite well.”
“Oh, the other sub-group,”
“Yep, and that’s basically all,” they both laughed together.
When their food came, their chattering ceased a little. Every now and then, they’d converse with each other in between bites. It was only near the end of their meal, when the serious talk began.
“So, where are we gonna go after this?” Eunhyuk asked; his eyes never broke off of Donghae.
The other boy was reluctant to tell him what he had planned, “It’s a surprise,” his breathy voice said.
“C’mon, you can tell me,” Eunhyuk said as he felt too much in the dark.
Donghae shook his head as he grinned, “No, I can’t,”
Their eyes locked. Donghae’s heart began to race as their check was placed upon the table. When the girl walked away, Donghae softly uttered, “If you want we could stay a little longer,”
Eunhyuk nodded slowly, “If it means more time with you; let’s go,”
They both stood and walked out by the registry. They secretly held each other’s hands as they stood in line. Dinner time was nearly over as they walked out of the restaurant. The evening sky shined in purple and red. The stars were nearly out, and the moon was visible. The air was still warm, and it reassured Donghae that his plan will go smoothly. They buckled themselves tightly and they were soon back on the road.
“Um, just a little heads up. It might take us about thirty minutes to get where we’re going,” Donghae mentioned as he turned on the road.
Eunhyuk found his curiosity growing by the minute, “Where exactly are you taking me?” he asked.
Donghae didn’t answer.
“Donghae,” Eunhyuk whined, but it only made his boyfriend laugh.
“What,”
“You know, I really don’t like surprises; especially right now,” he was getting a little frustrated.
“Alright, I’ll tell you,” Donghae said but didn’t continue. He then started laughing as he felt Eunhyuk’s eyes beating down on him.
“You are something else,” Eunhyuk said with a slightly amusing smile.
“I like it when you get all worked up,”
“Oh, I forgot it turns you on,” Eun replied as he remembered their conversation they had the day before.
Donghae laughed yet again, “Yes, it does. I should pull this car over right now and fuck your brains out, but I’m not because I’m a good boyfriend. Good enough to drive you way out to no man’s land just so that we can “make love”,” it was a giant hint.
“So, that’s where you’re taking me?” he asked.
“Yeah,” Donghae looked his way and smiled.
Eunhyuk giggled slightly, “You don’t have to be a jerk about it,” he nudged him a bit.
“I’m not trying to be a jerk,”
“Fuck my brains out? Really,” he laughed.
“I think saying that is hot,” Donghae joked.
“Ugh, of course you do,” he leaned back in his seat. “Now, since I have to wait thirty minutes to touch you-no more talking,” he was playing the game of hard to get, and Donghae-like always-fell for it.
“You don’t mean that,”
He was completely silent.
“Eunhyuk,”
The other boy looked out his window as he tried not to laugh.
“Fine, you want to play this game? You’re topping tonight,”
Eunhyuk turned sharply at him, “You can’t be serious,” he laughed. He saw Donghae nod-he really looked a bit peeved. “Donghae, I’m kidding.” He reached for his hand, “Please don’t ever imply whoever tops as a punishment. It makes me feel icky,”
Donghae grinned, “Yeah, it kind of put me out of it too,”
“It’s been-what-ten minutes?” Eunhyuk said as he looked down at his watch. “Can’t we just do it in the car?”
Donghae shook his head, “Earlier you were against that idea,”
“Well, it was the way you put it that turned me off,”
“How could that possibly turn you off?” Donghae just couldn’t understand.
“It really didn’t,” Eunhyuk confessed.
Donghae looked at him as he hoped he was serious, “You want me to stop this car right now?” he asked.
“Not really. I want the way you planned tonight to go how you want it,” he sweetly smiled.
Donghae grinned, “You’re adorable,”
“Stop it,” Eunhyuk said as he blushed. “Or I’ll make you stop the car,” he giggled.
Donghae thought of something, “What turns you on about me?” he asked randomly.
Eun was sort of embarrassed by the question, but he answered it with no problem, “Lots of things-like when you bight your lower lip while you dance; that sends me over the edge all the time.”
Donghae laughed.
“Um, I think that’s all I should say right now,”
“No, no, keep going,” Donghae said. “What else?”
“Donghae,” he laughed, but the other boy pressured him, “Okay, when you lightly hold my hand.”
“Just holding your hand can turn you on?” Donghae saw his lover nod. “Wow,”
“Oh and when you look like your confused,” he laughed of shyness. Donghae looked at him, “Oh, that’s it,” he laughed loudly. “You’re making the face,”
Donghae started laughing, “I hope we’re almost there,” there was no doubt that they both started to excite themselves just by thinking about each other. It didn’t take them long before they arrived.
The sun was still setting as they drove deep into the secluded field of wild flowers. Donghae put the car in park, and he reached back for the bag he packed before they’re trip.
“What’s that?” asked his boyfriend.
“Just stuff,” he then stepped out of the vehicle. Eunhyuk did the same.
He watched Donghae unfold the blankets, but the vastness of the area caught more attention, “What is this place?” he asked.
Donghae stood after he was done spreading out the cloth, “My sanctuary, really,”
“Why haven’t you told me about this place before?” asked the older boy.
Donghae shrugged, “Probably because I just remembered about it,” he then sat down. He took of his shoes and set them off to the side. Eunhyuk took his place next to him.
“You really go out of your way sometimes,” he lovingly smiled. “-and I love that about you,”
Their mouths soon met. Slowly did they kiss, and it wasn’t long before Eunhyuk broke away, “I love being here with you,” he told him, “I love you more than anything in this world. I mean, I couldn’t asked for anything better,”
Donghae bit his lower lip, “I love you too. I kinda have a secret that I’ve been meaning to tell you,” he lowered his gaze, “When we first did it at your parent’s house and I told you that I slept with Yunho, that wasn’t true,”
Eunhyuk found this quite odd and shocking, “Well, why did you tell me that you did?”
Donghae felt ashamed, “I don’t know, I didn’t want you to think that I had no experience.”
Eunhyuk moved away from Donghae’s hold, “I don’t understand. It wouldn’t have mattered,”
“You were my first,” Donghae gazed deeply in his eyes, “I’m happy you were,”
It was truly shocking news, but Eunhyuk didn’t care. He felt better that he knew that Donghae was only involved with him, and the world felt right. Donghae took a chance and moved in slowly. Their lips met in a luscious and seductive kiss. He then trailed light kisses down his neck, and in between every touch, he said, “and now I’m gonna make love to you-as if it were-our first time,” he gently pushed his lover down upon his back. The stars up above were bright. Donghae went down on his neck as he kissed him feverishly. His skinny fingers undoing his shirt button by button. Eunhyuk closed his eyes as he felt ready for him.
“…Donghae…” he moaned as he felt his lover trail kisses down his chest and onto his stomach. The other boy suddenly stopped. He sat up over him and began to undo his clothes. Tossing his shirt at the corner of the blanket, he then went down on him again. His skin shined in the dim light their lantern offered. He pulled Eunhyuk’s jeans down to his feet and then he took his own off. He placed himself in between his lover’s legs as their mouths met in a deep kiss. Eunhyuk wrapped his arms around Donghae tightly as they continued this intimate act. As they slowed, Donghae broke away. They were only inches away from each other and with a smile he moved down upon his neck. Eunhyuk grinned at how slow and soft his caress was; it almost sent him over the edge.
“I love you,” Donghae breathed in between kisses. Eunhyuk closed his eyes as his body quivered for pleasure. He bit on his lower lip as he felt Donghae move down. He felt his mouth trail kisses down to his waist, and then he stopped. Looking down at him, he only wondered why he ceased his touches. Donghae suddenly ran his fingers down his left leg. It sent chills through his body when his boyfriend’s soft lips met his inner thigh. Slowly, he kissed him. He ran his palm caressingly up his leg as he kissed his knee. Eunhyuk saw him slowly pull away, and he reacted with a faint moan when Donghae slid both his hand from his legs to his bare chest and then back to his waist. Their bodies met completely as the younger boy nipped at his lover’s collar bone. Eunhyuk wanted to roll his eyes back as he loved every minute of it.
Every movement Donghae made was simply slow and loving. His kisses were deep and flowing, and his hands were gentle and soft. When their bodies connected he was even tenderer. With every push inside him it sent electricity throughout their entire bodies. Donghae’s stomach laid heavily on his lover’s as he pumped deeper and deeper into him. Eunhyuk tightly held onto his boyfriend’s wrists as he opened himself up wider. As their bodies rocked with rhythm their screams of pleasure echoed in the wind. There was no one around them for miles as they made love underneath the starry night.
“Oh! Donghae!” Eunhyuk moaned, “Ah...Donghae!” there was nothing else he wanted to say but his name. His breathing was nearly uncontrollable as his lover pleasured him deeply. Donghae moaned loudly, and his body started to sweat. His arm muscles flexed as they burned of exhaustion.
As they both drew nearer to the end, their screams of ecstasy bellowed in the warm night air. “HUUUHUUUH GOOOOD!” screamed Eunhyuk as he felt himself cum.
“I love you!!” moaned Donghae as their warm liquid splashed into each other. Donghae’s body collapsed over Eunhyuk as they embraced one another tightly. “I love you,” Donghae breathed into his ear as they rested; but he didn’t dare stop there.
His soft lips deeply met Eun’s in feverish kiss. He opened his mouth wide as he dug deep in his. They moaned into each other as they didn’t want to stop. Their bodies turned as their kiss deepened even further. Eunhyuk topped him, and he then pulled away, “…let me…” he breathed. Donghae didn’t utter an answer when his lover went down on him. He could feel his skin redden as Eunhyuk’s teeth nipped at his neck. He ran his fingers through his hair as he hardened with every move Eun’s body would make.
“-I need you,” Donghae pleaded softly, “I want you,”
Eunhyuk grinned slightly as he moved in him. His touch sent Donghae to grunt loudly. He threw his head back; his Adam’s apple rose with his slender neck. The lamp light shined a deep golden as their bodies shined with sweat.
“Oh! Harder!” Donghae moaned loudly as he squinted his eyes in pleasure. Eunhyuk obeyed as he also quickened his speed. As their bodies re-entered one another their loud love cries once again filled the air.
It was absolutely uncontrollable what Donghae moaned, “OOOH! HA-HARDEER! HYUKJAE! I LOVE YOU!” all the while, Eunhyuk can’t seem to catch his breath. As he jammed himself harder, deeper and faster into his lover, they both viscously came-riding out their orgasm.
Eunhyuk laid his head upon Donghae’s chest as they breathed heavily. Their hearts raced with goodness and their bodies eased away from the aftershocks. “I love you so much,” Eunhyuk said as his voice was soft and breathy.
“I love you too,” Donghae held tightly to his lover, and it wasn’t long before they lay side by side. Eunhyuk’s back was turned towards his boyfriend. Donghae’s strong arm held tightly to his waist as they rested. The younger boy propped his head up with his elbow as he smiled sweetly down at Eun.
Their bodies still shimmered with sweat, and slowly did Donghae’s fingers lightly caress Eunhyuk’s arm, “Making love to you has to be the most enjoyable aspect in our relationship,” he softly said.
Eunhyuk smiled as he giggled, “I can’t disagree,” he felt Donghae place a soft kiss on his shoulder. He turned his head and their eyes let. “-but that’s not the only enjoyable part in our relationship,”
Donghae slowly moved down and kissed him. Only a second flew by when they parted, “-Well, I think the best part about this relationship-is how much I get to love you,” his deep boyish voice played like violins in Eunhyuk’s ears. He moved down and placed his lips softly upon his once again only to break away moments after, “-I’m so happy I get to hold you,” he placed a soft kiss on his shoulder, “touch you,” again he kissed him, “and most of all-I get to kiss you,”
Eunhyuk was a sucker for Donghae’s romantic ways, and it didn’t take them long to passionately embrace each other in a warm and wet kiss. Breaking away softly, Eunhyuk’s voice broke the whispery silence, “Make love to me one more time,” their eyes stayed locked in one another before Donghae did what he was asked.
It was loud love cries that endlessly filled the night air. They literally felt as though they were the only people left on the planet, and nothing could stop them. Donghae gave himself to Eunhyuk over and over again. They made love well into the night-they went until they couldn’t go no more.
When Donghae pulled himself out of Eunhyuk for the last time, he lay next to him. His face dripped with sweat as did Eunhyuk’s.
“We better head back,” Donghae dared to say.
Eunhyuk grabbed for his hand as he caught his breath, “Let’s stay,”
Donghae stopped and looked at him. With a sweet smile, he then grabbed the second blanket and wrapped it around each other. Lying on his back, Eunhyuk placed his head upon his chest. As Donghae breathed, the other boys head would rise and fall with him.
“I don’t ever want to forget tonight,” he softly uttered. Donghae smiled at him.
“We won’t,” he said.
“I love you,” Eunhyuk mentioned; it will never end-he will never stop saying those words.
Donghae answered back in a sleepily voice, “I love you too, Eunhyuk. I’ll always love you,”
Their eyes closed as they both drifted off into sleep. The stars up above them shined and sparkled. It felt like time stood still and that eternity was upon them. Never once did they not think that living such a life where they could be normal around their surroundings and make love well into the night without having to quiet their pleasure filled screams could very well be possible, yet the reality seemed so hard to obtain. Donghae softly placed his hand over Eunhyuk’s. Their bare bodies warmed each other’s as they slept peacefully in the illuminated darkness of the starry night.
A/N: Sorry this took so long guys, but I was hit with a lot of writers block over the passed five days. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this bit of entertainment lol, the next part should be up soon ^_^