With This Tear
Title: With This Tear
Pairing: Eunhae/Haehyuk
Rating: R (NC-17)
Aurthor: eunhee18
Genre: Pure Romance, angst, and drama
Warning(s): Language, nudity, heavy sexual content
Summary: Dealing with love is a hard thing, but not as hard as falling in love. Eunhyuk and Donghae are just two people who fell in love, and now they have to learn to deal with it. Life as they knew it was theirs. It seemed that they had everything. But with Super Junior M getting in the way of many things, their relationship-their love was dwindling. Problems occurred when Donghae wanted to out their love to the public and to their group. Eunhyuk refused, leading to a terrible fight. And what Donghae does next is unexplainable...even to me...
Donghae suddenly jolted as he awoke himself from a horrible dream. His heart was pounding but then relented as he realized it was just a dream. He felt the warmth of Eunhyuk’s body on his, and gently smiled. Looking towards the clock, he saw that it was very late. He was sure that his boyfriend’s parents had came back, and then worried if they saw them lying like they were.
Trying not to wake Eunhyuk up, he slowly rose to his feet. He could hear the slight snoring coming from the other as he walked out the door. There was nothing to be heard. They weren’t back yet. Donghae went downstairs to confirm his theory, and he was right.
Going back up stairs, he then had no desire to return to his slumber. Letting his beloved lover to his sleep, he decided to snoop around. He knew Eunhyuk wrote in his diary a lot, he then wondered if he said anything about him.
He had a little trouble finding it, but he eventually did. He opened it, and saw that it was dated back in 2007. Donghae smiled as he remembered the day he gave him the notebook. As he turned further into the book, a certain passage caught his eye.
“Donghae is so cute. I love it when he laughs and the way he holds my hand. Boy can he be stupid though,” Donghae crossed his eyebrows. He continued reading.
“I mean, just yesterday, he and I were hanging out with a couple of friends, and he just kept saying the dumbest things. He embarrassed me severely.
Of course, that eventually came and gone. My friends told me that he was acting weird, but I told them he was just nervous, and they bought it. After that, we came home. He hugged me like he always does, and told me that he loved me. He made me blush, I hate when he makes me blush; I feel like such a girl when I do. Anyways, he’s leaving tomorrow for China again. I hate Super Junior M. That subgroup has seriously gotten in the way of our time together. He tells me that he’ll call every day. I believe him. I had to help him pack; lazy bastard.”
Donghae closed the book. He was shocked. He had no idea Eunhyuk felt embarrassed by him. He looked at the sleeping boy, and sighed. He stood up to save his diary. He didn’t want to read anymore. He then crawled back beside his lover. He felt his warm body, and snuggled. Looking back at the clock, he figured that if he fell asleep, Eunhyuk’s parents were bound to see them like this. So, instead he woke up his slumbering boyfriend.
“Eunhyuk,” he whispered as he nudged him. There came nothing but a mumble out of the other boy. “Wake up,”
“No, what is it Donghae?” he sounded a bit cranky.
“Nothing,” he answered, “I just thought we could get something to eat,” he sounded sweet. Eunhyuk didn’t answer, nor did he budge. Donghae pushed on his back.
“Donghae,” Eunhyuk raised his voice a little-and so did Donghae.
“Alright, the reason I woke your stupid ass up is because I don’t want your insane mother to see us sleeping together like this,”
Eunhyuk looked at him, “What’s the matter?” he asked as he noticed his tone.
Donghae looked down. “I know what you really think about me,”
Eunhyuk looked at him strangely, “What?”
“You think I embarrass you,” Donghae felt his face burn.
“What are you talking about?”
“I read what you wrote about me, you think I’m stupid and that I fucking embarrass you,”
“You read my diary?” Eunhyuk said loudly. “Donghae, why would you do that? There are things in there I don’t want you to read,”
“Obviously,” said Donghae said.
“God, I didn’t say you embarrass me. I don’t think that,” Eunhyuk put his hand onto Donghae’s cheek. “I hate when you get angry. We’re alone together in a big house, why would you pick a fight?”
Donghae felt the softness of Eunhyuk’s hand under his, “I’m sorry, I just…let’s go eat something,”
The lights were all turned on as they made their way to the kitchen. Eunhyuk borrowed one of Donghae’s shirts, and their bare feet walked on the cold floor. They didn’t talk much. Donghae looked in the fridge, but sighed deeply as he saw nothing he wanted to nibble on.
“Did my mom call?” asked the 22 year old.
Donghae looked his way and shook his head.
“Its not like them to stay out this late,”
“Consider us lucky,” said Donghae. “They probably got stuck in traffic, giving us sweet awesome time together,”
Eunhyuk laughed. “Yeah, but that won’t stop me from worrying about my parents.”
Donghae walked over to him, and hugged him. He gave him a soft kiss upon his forehead and smiled. “I had a lot of fun,”
Eunhyuk giggled, “So did I,”
“When do you think we’ll be together again like this?” his voice calm and deep.
The other shrugged, “I’m not sure-we leave tomorrow,” he lowered his eyes.
Donghae sighed.
“What?” Eunhyuk asked.
“Nothing,” the other laughed, “I’m just really gonna miss this,”
“Who says it has to end now,” said the older boy as Donghae leaned his head resting it upon his. He smiled.
Donghae’s hands slid down to Eunhyuk’s waist. His warm breath tickled the tip of the other’s nose. Soon, his voice cracked into words.
“Just in case your parents come back let’s hide in the back room,” his voice was quiet, “So that they can’t see us, so that they can’t find us,”
Eunhyuk grinned slightly, “I have a better place we could go,” he told him.
“-Where?”
Taking his hand, Eunhyuk then rose to his feet, “I’ll show you,” they then made their way to the back yard. Donghae had found his boyfriend’s tone of voice to be so very different. His heart raced as it excited him.
With nothing but trees that surrounded them, they fled far away from the house. “Eunhyuk,” called Donghae as he ran to keep up with him. “Where are we going?” he asked.
“Shut up,” the other snapped. They finally came to a complete stop. Donghae could tell which direction would take them back to the house, and saw that the only light that shined was the moonlight.
Eunhyuk turned around. He saw the confusion within his lover’s eyes, not exactly surprised, and walked towards him. He pressed their lips together in a slow but deep kiss. He broke away, “Oh, Donghae,” he breathed, “I love you so much,” he slurred.
Their bodies pressed hard together. “What are we going to do?” Donghae asked, “Make love underneath the stars?”
Eunhyuk whispered back, “Yes,”
He kissed him. Eunhyuk pulled Donghae’s body onto the ground. He lay himself over him, and with a smile he gently removed his shirt. Donghae’s warm skin shined in the moon light. Then, he slid his hands down. They ran underneath the only piece of clothing that separated them from each other. He pulled them off.
They kissed. They kissed for a long time. Eunhyuk wanted to feel every inch of his lover’s body. His hands trailed down and up. He moved his light fingers down Donghae’s leg giving him chills. Soon, he was bare as well. Eunhyuk moved himself in place making the other jump at the sudden contact. They giggled into one another.
There was no doubt that the older boy was good at what he was doing. Donghae’s screams filled the fresh night air, and they echoed into the dark. Giving each other the most pleasurable pleasure, they both came at the same time. Their breathing was uncontrollable. Donghae wrapped his arms around the other’s neck, “Hyukjae,” he called to him. The fresh grass tickled his skin. The moon was brighter than ever. “Let’s stay here,” he said still feeling ecstasy throughout his body.
Eunhyuk nodded to him. He rested his head on Donghae’s chest. He heard his heart beating quickly, and smiled. It was music to his ears, and he never wanted it to end. They held tightly together, and never did they let go…