big step
i just removed my match.com profile from the site...i figure i'll no longer need it. at least not for now. the whole thing is still a little crazy/surreal for me. a guy hasn't made me this happy in a looooong time, if ever, really. usually after the initial disclosure of yeah, i like you too, i'm running like hell in the opposite direction. he
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and i'm so very tired right now. very long and busy night on call. they're really working us hard. but only 18 days left! yippee! but that means i've had little time to worry about this guy, but he seems pretty interested in seeing me. when he was on call i had replied to an email he sent and later text paged him, and then last night he texted me twice and sent an email, wants to hang out again. i feel a little more weird today, like is this real? and a little of that usual pressure i feel with guys (like they want to see me a lot but i'm not so sure, and am i really truly attracted to them? you know, that almost smothered feeling), but i think it might be different when i actually do see him. i think it's cause i'm just post-call. and no, i'm not thinking of running...just explaining how i feel. but how could i change in just a few days? probably because i've been so busy with work. hhhmmm. i don't know. but i'm hoping it'll come back because i like the other way better. i.e. wanting to see him, spend time with him, etc. i must say it's also weird because no one really knows. i see him in the lounge every morning and all these people are there and i'm like they have no idea. mostly i don't care what other people think but there is a little tiny bit of me that does. well, that's enough overanalyzing for me. i needs me some sleep.
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