big step
i just removed my match.com profile from the site...i figure i'll no longer need it. at least not for now. the whole thing is still a little crazy/surreal for me. a guy hasn't made me this happy in a looooong time, if ever, really. usually after the initial disclosure of yeah, i like you too, i'm running like hell in the opposite direction. he's too this, or too that i'd say. right now i can't find any true faults, and i don't want to. i want to see him as much as possible...yeah, that's right. so crazy. i really wasn't sure that someone like him existed for me. i always hoped it would, but at times i doubted it. since my track record with boys is pretty bad, esp. after one or two dates and i'm like i need my space, this is an adjustment. but a pretty frickin awesome one i don't mind making. unfortunately, we don't have the same call schedule so he's on tonight and i'm on tomorrow so the next time i'll really see him, besides at work, will be on wed. it's still a bit weird at work, i'm not sure how to act because, well, no one knows except jose and i hate rumors etc. i told him that i might be a little awkward around him for a while, but so far it's been okay. casual really. i'll sort of miss that excitement i'd get when seeing him at work unexpectedly...i still get a little jump but i kinda liked that sort of uncertainty...i think he likes me but does he really? sort of thing. but i'll take this level without a doubt.