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Well, I went in for my post abortion checkup yesterday and it was sort of.....odd. After waiting naked from the waist down for about twenty minutes, he came in, asked about bleeding and how I was recovering. I said it was fine, light bleeding, stopped after about two weeks. Then he asked if I was on any birth control and I told him I was getting an IUD in december. He got kind of odd about that and told me "Well, you're not an ideal candidate, but it's every womans decision" Then he just did the manual exam, told me everything was alright and walked out. Like he was offended that I was getting and IUD. It was really bizarre. As he was walking out though, I saw the ultrasound of my pregnancy in my folder. I just sat there in shock for a minute and then got dressed. It was just too much to handle at that point and I went home and cried on Brian's shoulder for about an hour. I just couldn't take it anymore. For some reason, seeing that ultrasound made all the things I had been thinking during the pregnancy that much worse. I don't know why it got to me so much, but I just had to let everything out and now I feel a bit better, but I"m still kind of out of it.