the last of it
so i just got back my charger from the farm...one of pauls friends just dropped it off...that was the last of the things from his house that i needed...gone just like that no more needing to get a hold of any of them...no more needing to get a hold of his parents...now here i sit by myself...the only one who cant move on...Im scared im really scared...ive seen him...i ve seen his truck driving around like its stalking me...im going crazy and i know i am...its getting to the point where i am thinking of putting myself into the hospital...i slowly realize that suicide is on my mind more and more and for the last 3 nights ive taken more then the actual dosaeges of my pills...alot more...i slept all day today ccause of that....i need a sign....someone just give me something to tell me where do i go from here...