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So I find that I'm actually having to resort back to this journal.
Not so much as to update people and so forth, but just so I have someone to talk to.
I'm a little bit lonely to be honest.
Things have been extreamly busy again and stressful since college started. Matt's been busy as well with a ton of classes in order to graduate after the following semester. It doesn't seem like he's moving to Aurburn which is.. for me, I am really glad. It's a good 2 some hours away.. I'd see him in the weekend still, but.. you know. Things happens. West Georgia isn't as far.
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It's funny.. I miss him, but it's not like he's anywhere fasr away. I'm trying my hardest not to call him.. because it's hard to get a hold of him... cause I know he is working a lot. He finds time for me, but it's almonst like he's straining to do so. That and he's usually tired for hypoglcemia, lack of sleep and any other such. It sucks, cause, I'll be honest, I want to blame him sometimes, but.. it's really not his fault.I'm lonely.. I really am. And this is rather superficial comment, but.. I wish he'd compliment me sometimes.. not all the time.. it's just.. when we do go out, I find myself trying to get all pretty-like like most girls would want to be like for their person... but he never really says anything about it. We went out for our 6th month aniv.. and I realyl wanted to look nice.. and I thought I actually did, but.. I don't think I heard a single remark out of him and it made me kind of doubt myself. RIght now, I'm a little at the point where.. I may not care as much anymore. I mean, if aren't getting any response back, then why should I? At the same time I kind of want to say, "if you don't think I look nice, well... at least someone will.. " there's hoping, right? =p
Bleh.. I have so much work to get done. I probably should hop to it.
::glances at the phone:: I wish you'd ring...
Not so much as to update people and so forth, but just so I have someone to talk to.
I'm a little bit lonely to be honest.
Things have been extreamly busy again and stressful since college started. Matt's been busy as well with a ton of classes in order to graduate after the following semester. It doesn't seem like he's moving to Aurburn which is.. for me, I am really glad. It's a good 2 some hours away.. I'd see him in the weekend still, but.. you know. Things happens. West Georgia isn't as far.
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It's funny.. I miss him, but it's not like he's anywhere fasr away. I'm trying my hardest not to call him.. because it's hard to get a hold of him... cause I know he is working a lot. He finds time for me, but it's almonst like he's straining to do so. That and he's usually tired for hypoglcemia, lack of sleep and any other such. It sucks, cause, I'll be honest, I want to blame him sometimes, but.. it's really not his fault.I'm lonely.. I really am. And this is rather superficial comment, but.. I wish he'd compliment me sometimes.. not all the time.. it's just.. when we do go out, I find myself trying to get all pretty-like like most girls would want to be like for their person... but he never really says anything about it. We went out for our 6th month aniv.. and I realyl wanted to look nice.. and I thought I actually did, but.. I don't think I heard a single remark out of him and it made me kind of doubt myself. RIght now, I'm a little at the point where.. I may not care as much anymore. I mean, if aren't getting any response back, then why should I? At the same time I kind of want to say, "if you don't think I look nice, well... at least someone will.. " there's hoping, right? =p
Bleh.. I have so much work to get done. I probably should hop to it.
::glances at the phone:: I wish you'd ring...