Too Much!
So much has been going on these past few days! From Tuesday night until Sunday night I stayed at my sister, Brandy's house. It was okay for the most part. Friday night we had our own little party because Eric kept Skyler for me and that was awesome. I'll admit I'm a little too friendly with alcohol sometimes but hey who doesn't like to just let loose from time to time? The only bad part about being there is that my ex-boyfriend is my brother-in-laws nephew (wow that's kind of confusing) and he's staying with them right now. I figured I would be there and we would talk, hang out, be friends and that would be it. Well, I figured wrong! He kept talking about how he wants to be with me again even if I have a baby now and how I "broke his heart" and stuff. Grr!! I mean, I would have felt bad when he said about breaking his heart but it was totally his fault that we broke up in the first place. He cheated on me and never even told me! I had to find out from other people about all that. So yeah, then he kept trying to kiss me and touch me and shit! I'm willing to be his friend but nothing more. As long as I have a chance with Eric I don't want any other man in my life. Speaking of Eric... Things with him and I are going pretty rough too. We're taking a break from our relationship to just sort out our differences and all of that. I mean, we've never really done that before. It's always just been, forgive and forget. A break is probably the best thing right now though. Skyler doesn't need to be around the fighting and all of that. So hopefully we can work something out. I'm sure we can. I mean, we made it this far through some really, really bad times and our love for each other is only stronger so one more ocean to cross shouldn't be too bad. Either way I just want things to be the best for Skyler. Eric and I both know how it is to only have one parent around at a time and we both agree it sucked. And I don't know about him but I swore to myself that I would never purposely do that to my child. When I got pregnant I knew I was in this for the long haul and I'm not willing to give that all up now. Oh my goodness! The stress these days is overwelming! All that's left for me to do is try my hardest and fight it out...
On a lighter note.. I had fun trying to help Brea pick out baby names tonight. hehe. I'm a baby name fanatic! But I should be getting my fanatic butt away from this computer. School is going to come way too early tomorrow....
On a lighter note.. I had fun trying to help Brea pick out baby names tonight. hehe. I'm a baby name fanatic! But I should be getting my fanatic butt away from this computer. School is going to come way too early tomorrow....