dazed.and.confused.
everyday i find myself sitting in a corner asking myself why. why did this happen? why was such an amazing guy taken away at such a young age? he had so many things going for him. he was so kind and charming, he absolutely adored his kids, he had the most incredable girlfriend, and all was delibrately taken away. for what? i ask myself these questions over and over again as the days continue, and still, i find myself, in my corner, crying my eyes out with no answers.i know it absolutely ridiculous, but sometimes i feel absolutely alone. its when you feel like your standing in the middle of a crowded room, screaming at the top of your lungs, yet no one can hear you. its as if im reaching out for answers, and for some sort of happiness that is completely out of reach and out of my hands.
the month gets better as i await my results from the doctor. ive been doing a lot of research on skin cancer due to this whole process. im not gonna lie, im terrified. i find out what i need to do tuesday.
i feel like my world is slipping through my fingurs. i leave for college this tuesday to embark on a new journey. two weeks ago i would have told the world that i was completely ready to except the challanges set out in front of me, but now, i am starting to doubt myself. in my heart i know i can overcome all obsticles, but at the moment, my mind is telling me something completely different.
slowly my transgressions are coming to bit me in the ass. im attached.
ryan - your in my thoughts and in my prayers. i miss you.
<3 britt
the month gets better as i await my results from the doctor. ive been doing a lot of research on skin cancer due to this whole process. im not gonna lie, im terrified. i find out what i need to do tuesday.
i feel like my world is slipping through my fingurs. i leave for college this tuesday to embark on a new journey. two weeks ago i would have told the world that i was completely ready to except the challanges set out in front of me, but now, i am starting to doubt myself. in my heart i know i can overcome all obsticles, but at the moment, my mind is telling me something completely different.
slowly my transgressions are coming to bit me in the ass. im attached.
ryan - your in my thoughts and in my prayers. i miss you.
<3 britt