Let it burn...
So me and Zach aren't going out anymore. I don't really know how to feel about it. We were together for 10 months so I dunno. I guess its been a long time coming...not really a long time but I knew it was gonna happen. I don't think me and him were happy...well I knew that I wasn't that happy but I was never sure about him and everytime I asked him if he wanted to take a break he didn't want to and now that I'm gone I guess he thinks its easier to take a break now. He's going through finding himself and maybe I'm doing the same and so I think its better that we stay friends and I know that we will be able to because that's how we started out...as friends. And for the past month or so we've acted like best friends rather than boyfriend girlfriend anyway. But I'm still sad and I miss him alot because we were both in that comfort zone and after you break up you kind of don't know what to do. I haven't been single since the 9th grade so its all really new. So maybe it will be good for me. But like Zach said if during this time we both decide alright...we can't live without each other, then we'll get back together. I think in every relationship people need to split up for awhile and see what's up because otherwise you spend your entire relationship together not knowing what else is out there and not 100% sure that you're with the person your supposed to be with. We've done really good so far so I'm sure this is just a stepping stone....
The thing that bothered me the most was that he said I changed and that I was selfish and I only thought about myself when in our whole relationship I thought of no one but him but he kind of took that back earlier. didn't really mean to say it. i dunno...its sad, but I think its healthy for the both of us. I knew that it would happen this summer...just because all his friends are leaving and he's absolutely horrible at dividing up his time equally.
i was supposed to go to this party tomorrow night and get drunk...well just a little tipsy but so much for that idea because i have to go visit family...oh well. there's always next time, right?
The thing that bothered me the most was that he said I changed and that I was selfish and I only thought about myself when in our whole relationship I thought of no one but him but he kind of took that back earlier. didn't really mean to say it. i dunno...its sad, but I think its healthy for the both of us. I knew that it would happen this summer...just because all his friends are leaving and he's absolutely horrible at dividing up his time equally.
i was supposed to go to this party tomorrow night and get drunk...well just a little tipsy but so much for that idea because i have to go visit family...oh well. there's always next time, right?