When all Hell breaks loose.
So once again i'm at a loss as to what to do but not due to lack of direction, so much shit has hit the fan that i've no control over and so all i truly can do is sit back and try not to panic to much while it runs its course. My father will most likely be going to prison (how amusing a police chief being sent to prison), which means i'll have a mother i don't talk to and a father that i can no longer talk to, house stresses and financial arrangements are in a continual whir around me as i attempt to figure out the proper means of pursueing my finances, and all i really want right now is for Matt to be home, i've not discussed any of the details really w/ my friends of the situation w/ my father or how i feel or any of that and what makes it worse is my parents haven't spoken w/ me either since his plead of guilty. I feel a little too betrayed to be the person to call first as i'd hope i'd hear it from him first rather than the news. SOOOO much shit and nothing i can do to change it. I just want matt home, i need a long good cry in the arms of the man i love because i know he'll probably be the only one who can tear me down and let me just release. But that's two weeks from now and 1200 miles away. So i guess when all Hell breaks loose you're just suppose to smile and pretend it'll be okay.