now.
She looks as great as the last time I saw her. All smiles. Radiant. When she's happy it makes me happy, too.
I watch as she takes the first sip of coffee, licking foam off her upper lip.
"So today was a good day?", Kaylee grins.
"Yes," I think I am actually purring like a cat, "today was a good day. I don't have the actual papers yet, they are going to send them in the mail. But just the thought that this is all going to be over soon... It is such a relief.
"I actually asked you here today, because I have something to tell you...", she pauses. "You know how for most of the week I talked about asking out this girl, right?"
Like I could have missed that. It's all she talks about, all day, every day. But I am a good friend, so I sigh inward only: "Yes, did you make any progress?"
"Kinda. The girl I want to ask out is... you"
I just stare at her. And blink. And stare.
"Can you say something, please?", Kaylee looks very small right now, "I'm really putting myself out there, you know?"
I force myself to speak: "I feel like.... you missed the boat on that one. I was so completely head over heels into you about half a year ago. But you never made a move. Now we are friends, you know?"
We look at each other across the table and neither knows anything else to say. This is stupid. And just like that I get angry. Why did she have to ruin everything? I was fine with being just friends. Fine with being a virgin. And now she tells me... I could have had it all? I get up so suddenly that my chair flips over.
"I am going to leave", I do not wait for her answer as I turn on my heel.