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I find myself logging onto live journal just so I can read my friends enteries and I never usually update mine. Well what can I say, I have an uneventful life. If I had a job I might be so freakin excited I would write about it everyday!!! I have come to the conclusion that I will just go to Biolife twice a week and sit in a chair with a needle stuck in me for an hour and get paid $20 and THAT will be my job. :( Nooooooooo that is so not what I want. Jokingly Kelly asked me if I wanted to be a bar back at Frankie V's where she works and I was like um yea sure!!! She was like oh ok well I will ask. I will take anything right now and plus I can always work my way to a server or bartender I am sure. At the game on saturday this guy was giving out cards for a new bar thats opening downtown and I asked if they were hiring and he said yea to go to the website and apply so I did and you have to email your resume. Ooh resume stuff is so time consuming. I have to first find out where it is saved and where that disk is located??? I wish that someone would hire me sooooooon or I might be spending my days at mcdonalds....and then I will just shoot myself.
Ah classes...yea I guess I got a few of those. Well between volleyball, swimming, tennis and conditioning and flexibility, I am gonna be one helluva hot chick ;-) My body is gonna hate me in a few weeks but oh well I need the pain. I have like 3 other REAL classes too so it should be a fairly productive semester. Seeings how its my LAST ONE, I need to really get focused and find a career path and consider taking a stroll down it.
Attending another wedding this weekend. My dear Joy has been taken hold by the evil love bug and has decided to tie the knot. Its so bittersweet for me. You can't help but feel you are sort of losing a friend when they get married. I know it should REALLY be like you are gaining another one but I don't know Ryan really at all and thats kinda hard. But it should be a fun wedding, Angie is coming up for it too and its gonna be small I believe so I feel special enough to be a part of her day.
I really am sticking to this new out look on life. Well not really all of life but just a small part of my life. I feel like I really know what it is I am looking for in someone and I don't have to settle for someone thats just kinda sorta it. I may be single and haven't even had a real date in AGES but I am not lonely. and I think thats an important distinction to make. I think one of the things that has really helped me is the fact that my past is not something I look at as regretful or hurtful. Break ups are bad and hurtful, there is no other way to put it and I have held alot of resentment from a few of my break ups but just recently I have actually started talking to my exes again and its great. Its hard to really explain and this is mostly being written so I can SEE what I am feeling...but I feel like there is a friendship there again and we don't have to look at each other as THE ex or someone I dated once. I feel like I am atually STephenie to these guys and they have a lil respect for me again. I dunno maybe we are all growing up and seeing that the past is the past and ya can't really help what happened. There is a reason why people are put into our lives....some of the reasons we can't always figure out. and sometimes we have really bad fall outs with people and never talk again or sometimes we eventually cross paths and start up a NEW friendship.Thats how I choose to see it. So even tho nothing more may come out of these new encounters but being able to talk like civil people, than thats fine with me. Anyways...thats kinda hard to understand for someone that really has no idea what the hell I am talking about. but that was just for me to kinda put things out there for me to figure out. But thanks for reading and caring :)
Summer is ending and my tan is gone. This makes me really sad...I think since I am sitting at my parents house right now and no one is home, I might head to the tanner. A pasty pale face is not a pretty face :)
Ah classes...yea I guess I got a few of those. Well between volleyball, swimming, tennis and conditioning and flexibility, I am gonna be one helluva hot chick ;-) My body is gonna hate me in a few weeks but oh well I need the pain. I have like 3 other REAL classes too so it should be a fairly productive semester. Seeings how its my LAST ONE, I need to really get focused and find a career path and consider taking a stroll down it.
Attending another wedding this weekend. My dear Joy has been taken hold by the evil love bug and has decided to tie the knot. Its so bittersweet for me. You can't help but feel you are sort of losing a friend when they get married. I know it should REALLY be like you are gaining another one but I don't know Ryan really at all and thats kinda hard. But it should be a fun wedding, Angie is coming up for it too and its gonna be small I believe so I feel special enough to be a part of her day.
I really am sticking to this new out look on life. Well not really all of life but just a small part of my life. I feel like I really know what it is I am looking for in someone and I don't have to settle for someone thats just kinda sorta it. I may be single and haven't even had a real date in AGES but I am not lonely. and I think thats an important distinction to make. I think one of the things that has really helped me is the fact that my past is not something I look at as regretful or hurtful. Break ups are bad and hurtful, there is no other way to put it and I have held alot of resentment from a few of my break ups but just recently I have actually started talking to my exes again and its great. Its hard to really explain and this is mostly being written so I can SEE what I am feeling...but I feel like there is a friendship there again and we don't have to look at each other as THE ex or someone I dated once. I feel like I am atually STephenie to these guys and they have a lil respect for me again. I dunno maybe we are all growing up and seeing that the past is the past and ya can't really help what happened. There is a reason why people are put into our lives....some of the reasons we can't always figure out. and sometimes we have really bad fall outs with people and never talk again or sometimes we eventually cross paths and start up a NEW friendship.Thats how I choose to see it. So even tho nothing more may come out of these new encounters but being able to talk like civil people, than thats fine with me. Anyways...thats kinda hard to understand for someone that really has no idea what the hell I am talking about. but that was just for me to kinda put things out there for me to figure out. But thanks for reading and caring :)
Summer is ending and my tan is gone. This makes me really sad...I think since I am sitting at my parents house right now and no one is home, I might head to the tanner. A pasty pale face is not a pretty face :)