made $20 today!
So I haven't found a job....just found out I can donate plasma! Yea I am pretty pumped about it. It's gonna get me some money, not alot but enough to get me back on my feet. AND OF COURSE I am helping to save lives. That is always good to have on your conscience :)
I have started this week off so great actually. Well at least compared to how I started and ended the weekend. I went to church on sunday night and then donating plasma today. And I guess if ya wanna really stretch it out, I drove home for a couple days to see the rents before school starts again and to also keep myself outta trouble ;-)
I can't believe school is starting next week! Summer flew as usual and of course I didnt do HALF of the stuff I intended to. It wasnt really that great of a summer. There were some fun things that happened but definately not to make it a memorable one. Oh wait...k so there are a few situations to make it memorable. Bad memories tho...bad, mean, cruel heartless people :(
So I am about to be one of those people. *Warning* The next paragraph is to obtain information known to most people as something of the following "re-evaluation of myself, things I have realized I need to change, things I do not like about myself, things I do not like people thinking of me or doing to me, the revolution of the year...etc"
Anyways, this always usually comes up when school is starting again. The same old, I intend to study more and try harder to do good in all my classes. I am going to get things done ahead of time and no longer procrastinate. I guess its just cuz most people need a specific event in order to make changes in their lives. Well I would like to really accomplish all of the above things as well as realizing that I am ALOT better then what set myself up for. I need to set some higher standards for myself both for personal goals and for relationships with other people. The best way to describe it really...is I need to put a HUGE filter system up. And only let the really genuinly good people into my life. Both males and females. Of course this is directly mainly towards those homeosapians referred to as "guys". For some reason I have this radar for the really BAD ones. I think I have become superficial on accident cuz all they got goin for them is looks and a lil charm. So I need to stay away from the guy that "looks good" and who "is probably a stud cuz he's always got girls around him" or the ones that got nothing but charm coming outta their ears when I first talk to them. Cuz none of them amount to nothing more then disappointment after disappointment and me making me feel like a fool.
So I deserve a hell of alot better. I might even have to try and create a lil ego about myself just so I can get in the mode that I don't deserve to get plans broken with me, or phone calls not returned or ignored. I don't deserve to be the only option available at 2am or put on the back burner til its convenient for someone else. I don't deserve to go out of the way and put my heart out there for someone else when they could careless whether they show me an ounce of compassion and walk all over me in the mean time. I don't deserve for someone to keep over looking the lil things that upset me and then put me down for being all over their case about shit.
I should make a mantra outta that. Maybe I will work on creating one. If anyone's got any good ones throw them my way. We could make a big "girls fight for whats right mantra"!
OK
Well I can't wait til saturday, for the first football game! I FINALLY will get to tailgate like a REAL college student! So anyone that wants to join in...I can garauntee you an ultimate experience! :)
I have started this week off so great actually. Well at least compared to how I started and ended the weekend. I went to church on sunday night and then donating plasma today. And I guess if ya wanna really stretch it out, I drove home for a couple days to see the rents before school starts again and to also keep myself outta trouble ;-)
I can't believe school is starting next week! Summer flew as usual and of course I didnt do HALF of the stuff I intended to. It wasnt really that great of a summer. There were some fun things that happened but definately not to make it a memorable one. Oh wait...k so there are a few situations to make it memorable. Bad memories tho...bad, mean, cruel heartless people :(
So I am about to be one of those people. *Warning* The next paragraph is to obtain information known to most people as something of the following "re-evaluation of myself, things I have realized I need to change, things I do not like about myself, things I do not like people thinking of me or doing to me, the revolution of the year...etc"
Anyways, this always usually comes up when school is starting again. The same old, I intend to study more and try harder to do good in all my classes. I am going to get things done ahead of time and no longer procrastinate. I guess its just cuz most people need a specific event in order to make changes in their lives. Well I would like to really accomplish all of the above things as well as realizing that I am ALOT better then what set myself up for. I need to set some higher standards for myself both for personal goals and for relationships with other people. The best way to describe it really...is I need to put a HUGE filter system up. And only let the really genuinly good people into my life. Both males and females. Of course this is directly mainly towards those homeosapians referred to as "guys". For some reason I have this radar for the really BAD ones. I think I have become superficial on accident cuz all they got goin for them is looks and a lil charm. So I need to stay away from the guy that "looks good" and who "is probably a stud cuz he's always got girls around him" or the ones that got nothing but charm coming outta their ears when I first talk to them. Cuz none of them amount to nothing more then disappointment after disappointment and me making me feel like a fool.
So I deserve a hell of alot better. I might even have to try and create a lil ego about myself just so I can get in the mode that I don't deserve to get plans broken with me, or phone calls not returned or ignored. I don't deserve to be the only option available at 2am or put on the back burner til its convenient for someone else. I don't deserve to go out of the way and put my heart out there for someone else when they could careless whether they show me an ounce of compassion and walk all over me in the mean time. I don't deserve for someone to keep over looking the lil things that upset me and then put me down for being all over their case about shit.
I should make a mantra outta that. Maybe I will work on creating one. If anyone's got any good ones throw them my way. We could make a big "girls fight for whats right mantra"!
OK
Well I can't wait til saturday, for the first football game! I FINALLY will get to tailgate like a REAL college student! So anyone that wants to join in...I can garauntee you an ultimate experience! :)