Happyness takes a backseat turn for the worst
*sigh*
I'm gonna make this quick... or try to. my dad let me on his computer... and i wanted to update.
today was... so bad. i just... had a bad day. Started by not being able to find a parking spot, and ended up being 15 minutes late for Sociology. Then my soc class is 5 minutes apart of my chemistry class... and my counciler upon sign up said the classes are really close to each other. well she was wrong. They are like near opposite ends.... so i asked my soc teacher if i can leave 5 minutes early to make it to class...
the chem im in is an advanced kinda one. There was prerequired things you needed. and i didnt have any prerequisites to it, they let me in and never made me take a placement test. i never had chem before.
and the teacher made us take a mini test to see where we are in the class, what we know/remember.
Most of it i didn't know... and as i left that class, i hung my head low, felt depressed, upset at myself. i was one of the last ones to finish, and had to of been the worst one. i felt so much like a loser... i just wanted today to end. so bad. or like... my life to end. just... so badly wanted it all to be over with. :(((
then my lab class for chem is like 40 minutes after my chem class... and like, i needed to have goggles and a chem lab coat. so i had to get them, and by the time i went, got extra money, and got to the store, i made it back to the chem lab late... and it was just awful. :((
So i arrived back to class late... and on my way there, knowing i was late again, i just... wished i had a heart attack... or anything. i was just... so miserable.... :((((((((
i ended up making it home at 4:45, and had to get the house cleaned for my mom's friend. i had to take my computer and everything out of my room for her to sleep in my room... and i finished just as she arrived... chores and cleaning and all...
ugh... i am just so tired of it all... seriously. talk about a 180 on my mood... :(((
I miss everyone... so badly... i need to talk to you guys but i cant... i just cant and i hate this.
i just wanna cry... :((
A sad and lonesome...
Matthew