Way back when, lets see... i was in maybe 7th grade (which is about 5 years ago), we went to a counciler as a family. It was such a worthless meeting. that guy, had to of been THE WORST ever... he had horrible listening skills, for he thought my dad's name was something else, he thought my brother had counciling before, he thought so much that just... was not what we was saying. We ended up quitting it cause it was so not worth our time.
The next experience was when my mom took my brother into counciling. Now... i will admit he did need to see a doctor cause he had problems (anger agression hate stuff) but... i wish i could have gone in with my brother, cause it would be my mom and brother who went in. The counciler would ask my brother something, and when my brother responded, saying it was so and so about mom that was the problem, hed turn to my mom and my mom denied it all the way, and said its all him who has the problems (or so i was told). So he got medication (which, again, he did need) but everything was turned against him... and it was never her being wrong, it was him. always him. i wish i was there so i could put my input in, to stand up for my brother...
i think thats the reason why im afraid of counciling. 2 reasons. I am totally against any medication. sure it may help people which is fine, but its not ME who needs it. Whenever im away from her, i am so happy, when im away from this house, i am so happy. i feel like a giant weight is lifted from me, and im free. If im put on medication, all its doing is changing ME. but its not me where the problems come from. its my surroundings. its my mom and the problems she causes. If im on a pill, its not changing her, its changing me. so now life around me is still the same and now i am changed because of a pill, and im suppose to be happy and better about the crap that is still going on around me. its sad, i have a mentality that i would rather be dead then take pills. truely, i am so against it.
second thing that makes me afraid is the situation where my brother had. He was outnumbered, they put him against the wall and it didnt matter, he was always the one at fault. I just... dont want that to happen to me. She has a way of making everyone think shes right, that shes so perfect. Whos a counciler gonna believe, an adult or a child?
Way back when, lets see... i was in maybe 7th grade (which is about 5 years ago), we went to a counciler as a family. It was such a worthless meeting. that guy, had to of been THE WORST ever... he had horrible listening skills, for he thought my dad's name was something else, he thought my brother had counciling before, he thought so much that just... was not what we was saying. We ended up quitting it cause it was so not worth our time.
The next experience was when my mom took my brother into counciling. Now... i will admit he did need to see a doctor cause he had problems (anger agression hate stuff) but... i wish i could have gone in with my brother, cause it would be my mom and brother who went in. The counciler would ask my brother something, and when my brother responded, saying it was so and so about mom that was the problem, hed turn to my mom and my mom denied it all the way, and said its all him who has the problems (or so i was told). So he got medication (which, again, he did need) but everything was turned against him... and it was never her being wrong, it was him. always him. i wish i was there so i could put my input in, to stand up for my brother...
i think thats the reason why im afraid of counciling. 2 reasons. I am totally against any medication. sure it may help people which is fine, but its not ME who needs it. Whenever im away from her, i am so happy, when im away from this house, i am so happy. i feel like a giant weight is lifted from me, and im free. If im put on medication, all its doing is changing ME. but its not me where the problems come from. its my surroundings. its my mom and the problems she causes. If im on a pill, its not changing her, its changing me. so now life around me is still the same and now i am changed because of a pill, and im suppose to be happy and better about the crap that is still going on around me. its sad, i have a mentality that i would rather be dead then take pills. truely, i am so against it.
second thing that makes me afraid is the situation where my brother had. He was outnumbered, they put him against the wall and it didnt matter, he was always the one at fault. I just... dont want that to happen to me. She has a way of making everyone think shes right, that shes so perfect. Whos a counciler gonna believe, an adult or a child?
yeah, id be outnumbered... :(
*hugs* <3333
Matthew
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