General.
First of all, it's really weird not having Courtney here. She spent most of Spring Break at home, and now she's spending a week in Ireland. I'm so, so happy for her. But it's really weird for me. Two nights ago may just have been the first time I've slept in this apartment by myself. I didn't realize how much I was avoiding doing so until school started again and it was no longer feasible for Blake and me to sleep in the same place. I thought of last semester and how incredibly lonely I was. This is nothing like that, I know, so I'm trying to enjoy it and see it as a growth opportunity.
This is the worst part of the school year: the middle of spring semester. I won't go into all the reasons why because you've all been there and know why. I'm mostly avoiding the panicky feeling I usually get, though perhaps I should panic more after taking a gander at my grades last night. Oh, and I think I forgot to mention this, but Tosca went very well and I've now been signed to do Tales of Hoffman as well. Hoffman goes on...wait for it...in the middle of finals week. Wow. I'm dumb.
I think things returned to some sort of normal state between Blake and me a few weeks ago. Things weren't bad at all, but I think there was a noticeable transition period after I got back from Scotland and school started again. Suffice it to say I'm incredibly happy with him.
And yet, despite it all, something's up. I don't know exactly what it is. I'm overeating again, and that's what's tipping me off. If only I could remember exactly what the therapist said the last time this happened. We'll just see I guess.
Back to, as my cousin put it, "Tunneling toward the light."
This is the worst part of the school year: the middle of spring semester. I won't go into all the reasons why because you've all been there and know why. I'm mostly avoiding the panicky feeling I usually get, though perhaps I should panic more after taking a gander at my grades last night. Oh, and I think I forgot to mention this, but Tosca went very well and I've now been signed to do Tales of Hoffman as well. Hoffman goes on...wait for it...in the middle of finals week. Wow. I'm dumb.
I think things returned to some sort of normal state between Blake and me a few weeks ago. Things weren't bad at all, but I think there was a noticeable transition period after I got back from Scotland and school started again. Suffice it to say I'm incredibly happy with him.
And yet, despite it all, something's up. I don't know exactly what it is. I'm overeating again, and that's what's tipping me off. If only I could remember exactly what the therapist said the last time this happened. We'll just see I guess.
Back to, as my cousin put it, "Tunneling toward the light."