worrying
i had this vision of which classes i would take this quarter. ultimately, my dream schedule got shut down. frustrated panic came before anything else. i worried about how this quarter and next would play out. i scrambled to find other options of how to rearrange my schedule. then i clarified my priorities and thought realistically of the time constraints different scenarios of classes would pose. after fighting with advisers and jumping through hoops, i finally found a way to fix my schedule to be what i so fervently desired only hours earlier. but by then i had been forced to acknowledge new possibilities of how to complete my degree. now i have the option of getting what i originally wanted, but have decided on a different schedule. and now i feel like an idiot for spending those hours of my life angry and upset.
here is a trivial example that i am trying to learn from. things have not, do not, and will not always work out how i imagine. just because i have something set in my mind as to what should happen does not necessarily mean it is best for me. i need to worry less (or not at all) and remember that things generally things work out for the best. instead of crying and shutting down, i need to look at other possibilites and consider whether or not what i originally had in mind is what i still want in light of those options. and then i need to make the best out of whatever happens.
i would like to apply this process to many areas of my life in the future. it is scary, for a planner and a worrier such as my self, when things don't work out as planned. but i think things generally work out alright.
today's diet throughout an afternoon of television and sports: chips, cheezits, coke, bean dip, champagne + orange juice, pizza. YEAH. it's cool, i worked out three times this week.
i am really terrified that in the past four years i have not actually been taught how to write or think critically. i have no real way of knowing whether or not these skills(?) have improved since high school. that is quite depressing and a little nerve racking.
here is a trivial example that i am trying to learn from. things have not, do not, and will not always work out how i imagine. just because i have something set in my mind as to what should happen does not necessarily mean it is best for me. i need to worry less (or not at all) and remember that things generally things work out for the best. instead of crying and shutting down, i need to look at other possibilites and consider whether or not what i originally had in mind is what i still want in light of those options. and then i need to make the best out of whatever happens.
i would like to apply this process to many areas of my life in the future. it is scary, for a planner and a worrier such as my self, when things don't work out as planned. but i think things generally work out alright.
today's diet throughout an afternoon of television and sports: chips, cheezits, coke, bean dip, champagne + orange juice, pizza. YEAH. it's cool, i worked out three times this week.
i am really terrified that in the past four years i have not actually been taught how to write or think critically. i have no real way of knowing whether or not these skills(?) have improved since high school. that is quite depressing and a little nerve racking.