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i learned more about my boyfriend, myself, life, death, love, and (american?) society this weekend than i have in a very long time.
and now i can't turn the music or my brain off, i'm finishing finance homework at 330 am and i don't give a shit about it right now and i don't want to go to balmer tomorrow and i don't want to go to meetings and smile or do anything tomorrow maybe not even work out. i just want to either stay awake and zone out and try to keep up with the marathon going on in my brain writing poetry or something or sleep. preferably sans nightmares. i forgot how often i used to have nightmares. i wonder if i have a nightmare problem. probably not. i am disgustingly normal and i get so sick of it but the alternatives frighten me so then i don't know where to go.
jimmy eat world would come on right now. the middle. hahaha. maybe i should believe in signs.
nap time.
and now i can't turn the music or my brain off, i'm finishing finance homework at 330 am and i don't give a shit about it right now and i don't want to go to balmer tomorrow and i don't want to go to meetings and smile or do anything tomorrow maybe not even work out. i just want to either stay awake and zone out and try to keep up with the marathon going on in my brain writing poetry or something or sleep. preferably sans nightmares. i forgot how often i used to have nightmares. i wonder if i have a nightmare problem. probably not. i am disgustingly normal and i get so sick of it but the alternatives frighten me so then i don't know where to go.
jimmy eat world would come on right now. the middle. hahaha. maybe i should believe in signs.
nap time.