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The day has finally come where I said "Go get em!!" To Molly Sue and she shocks me by bringing me a small bunny squirming slowly upside down in her mouth, shakes it some more and it's shiny eyes stare finally unmoving and I pick it up by the tiny soft gray feet, walk with it to the coyote territory and toss it under a tree, so at least it won't go wasted : maybe it will feed a family of hawks.
Sometime yesterday, despite time changes and opening another day in row, my energy was strong, I tried my damned to make connections with people without alcohol or bonfires.
Last night I took a break from my new best friends: flash cards; Billy & I made Mahi Mahi and rice and grilled vegetables in curry sauce, and white wine, all deals stolen from Trader Joe's~ AFterwards I didn't want the day to be over. I should have been knocked over tired but I couldn't control myself, I tried and tried seducing Billy but he was tired from surfing and diving all weekend, so I took off running around the cult-a-sac again. I only did it for about 20 minutes this time, the wine and fish kind of gave me a side ache. Still I tried seducing BIlly, it finally worked, and if Simon wasn't out all night I would have slept like a rock past my normal 3:30 a.m. alarm time. I had a nightmare about my dad, that his job was making him suicidal and he up and quit and changed his life 180 degrees. But a lovely gift that I had off work this morning and was able to rest my legs and my ever sore breathing muscles.
Now back to homework: bones and muscles and the placements of organs I get but microscopic things and the invisible lives of neurons make no sense to me. Give me a topic about comparing some esoteric thing to a garden or a piece of stone, but, this... and the only drawings I do these days are coloring the Anatomy coloring book aside from my squigglies...(I think I am going to use colored pencils nest instead of paint since it is so expensive) Tomorrow is the lab test, I'll have to concentrate above the dead kitty again. But after that bunny an hour ago I think I'm warmed up :/
Sometime yesterday, despite time changes and opening another day in row, my energy was strong, I tried my damned to make connections with people without alcohol or bonfires.
Last night I took a break from my new best friends: flash cards; Billy & I made Mahi Mahi and rice and grilled vegetables in curry sauce, and white wine, all deals stolen from Trader Joe's~ AFterwards I didn't want the day to be over. I should have been knocked over tired but I couldn't control myself, I tried and tried seducing Billy but he was tired from surfing and diving all weekend, so I took off running around the cult-a-sac again. I only did it for about 20 minutes this time, the wine and fish kind of gave me a side ache. Still I tried seducing BIlly, it finally worked, and if Simon wasn't out all night I would have slept like a rock past my normal 3:30 a.m. alarm time. I had a nightmare about my dad, that his job was making him suicidal and he up and quit and changed his life 180 degrees. But a lovely gift that I had off work this morning and was able to rest my legs and my ever sore breathing muscles.
Now back to homework: bones and muscles and the placements of organs I get but microscopic things and the invisible lives of neurons make no sense to me. Give me a topic about comparing some esoteric thing to a garden or a piece of stone, but, this... and the only drawings I do these days are coloring the Anatomy coloring book aside from my squigglies...(I think I am going to use colored pencils nest instead of paint since it is so expensive) Tomorrow is the lab test, I'll have to concentrate above the dead kitty again. But after that bunny an hour ago I think I'm warmed up :/