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Dream: I am flipping through a hardcover book of photos throughout time, I come across some of the Santa Barbara Mission back in it's day, I am suddenly inside the photo. I feel Like I am in the early 1800's I am surprised to be walking down the isle inside the church. I lady's hands are tugging on my veil, it smells like a window screen against my nose, I feel claustrophobic and stop. People stare, why did she stop? And I take it all in, the gold light, the brown robed Father at the head of the church, and the lavish Catholic things around with the candles, and the plain pews and the people in old time clothes, most of them Spanish. I cold see my Spanish groom waiting for me at the corner of the alter. I was annoyed the veil obstructed my view otherwise, because it was very very beautiful. THere was light shining on the father and the altar from a side door near the front. I had the feeling it was morning. I looked down at my modest bouquet and realized how gaudy my dress was, there was heavy white lace up my neck and down to my arms, I was covered in the stuff and I felt dorky but realized how funny different styles were back then. I looked back at the groom, I did not like him and felt sick to my stomach and wanted out but felt pushed to marry. Then when I approached the altar, the light shined not on the Father anymore but on an open casket with an old white corpse glowing in the light, I was curious, and amazed at the time the corpse was hanging out on shameless display for people to pay respects, The same lady who was tugging at my veil saw I was watching it and all these arms came from behind me and grabbed me back, putting layers of sunglasses on my head so I couldn't see and I was being pulled backwards, and then I woke up and Billy was turning off the alarm and Molly was yawning.

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A customer asked me if I missed my dreadlocks. I don't know how he knew I was even thinking about them lately, but I do, and specifically this set



I will continue with these things just after christmas, I'll give my family some nice cleancut holiday photos and then proceed.

Cory wants them, she has black curly hair and pale green eyes, it'll look better on her. If we can help each other that would be good.

Turns out I'm good at drawing! I decided to keep using my right hand.

Tonight: Billy's dad and cousin's girls visit;
Tomorrow: a wedding with Rob I think in Capitola;
Sunday Morning we drive to San Francisco to watch Billy's mom complete the 3 day walk for Breast Cancer Awareness;
Monday we drive home, and I have class at 2;
Monday I open,
Wednesday I have class all day.
Thursday I have a long day at work,
Friday we drive all the way home;
Saturday is Cameron's wedding (I can get drunk and dance instead of just watching!);
Sunday we drive all the way home....

After my following wedding We go camping for a week down at Refugio