your words are deadly weapons, killing me, destorying me.
Soo.. I'm updating.
Things are lame..
I'm having a break from Michael right now because I have to figure out if I'm going to try and forget him or not. Every time I open my mouth about him I hear from everyone "You need to get over him" they don't say it that blunt but that's always what they wind up telling me. I don't get it, I don't know why I have to get over him. I'm just used to holding on, incase anything ever changes.. I don't want to let go.. blah gay. Everything is weird, I'm like having to be a big girl. =(
I want him to just tell me he loves me. Everything he does, everything he says.. his actions just scream that he cares about me. I guess it's just been always like this, I always wonder & wait.. and I am ok with that.. because if I'm waiting that means there's a chance. I don't know know it's confusing what I think.. I just think if I do have to get over him then part of my closure will be to have to know how he feels.. so I can stop thinking "what if"
aldskfj I swear to god I cried all the tears I had last night. I always suspected.. but still to know for sure that he and lindsey.. had sex it's just like.. I don't know how to describe it even.
I was hysterical to put it short. & I feel so very horrible for not letting him enjoy the fact that ..yeah. Instead of being happy he was upset because he upset me. Like he felt guilty or something. I'm going to stop typing now, I
said too much anways. I shouldn't even post this. but I probably will
I feel like Seth Cohan on The OC. gay
Things are lame..
I'm having a break from Michael right now because I have to figure out if I'm going to try and forget him or not. Every time I open my mouth about him I hear from everyone "You need to get over him" they don't say it that blunt but that's always what they wind up telling me. I don't get it, I don't know why I have to get over him. I'm just used to holding on, incase anything ever changes.. I don't want to let go.. blah gay. Everything is weird, I'm like having to be a big girl. =(
I want him to just tell me he loves me. Everything he does, everything he says.. his actions just scream that he cares about me. I guess it's just been always like this, I always wonder & wait.. and I am ok with that.. because if I'm waiting that means there's a chance. I don't know know it's confusing what I think.. I just think if I do have to get over him then part of my closure will be to have to know how he feels.. so I can stop thinking "what if"
aldskfj I swear to god I cried all the tears I had last night. I always suspected.. but still to know for sure that he and lindsey.. had sex it's just like.. I don't know how to describe it even.
I was hysterical to put it short. & I feel so very horrible for not letting him enjoy the fact that ..yeah. Instead of being happy he was upset because he upset me. Like he felt guilty or something. I'm going to stop typing now, I
said too much anways. I shouldn't even post this. but I probably will
I feel like Seth Cohan on The OC. gay