wtf
what the fuck am i doing to myself? i need to stop, but i can't. clearly this is a very cryptic message, but thats how i want it to be. i just needed to send it out to the cosmos...so there is it. i just don't know anymore. i'm scared. i'm leaving bellingham forever in less than 2 months. i graduate from college in 42 days...where has teh time gone? so much has happened just in this year alone, and the worst part of it is that if i could go back and do it all again, i wouldn't. there is so much that i regret from this year, which sucks cause i hate regretting stuff. and then there is stuff that i'm told i should regret of feel guilty/sorry for that i just don't. what does that mean? am i just fucked up? i don't know...i just don't know anymore...