Kinda scary
Who's got a bad case of seniorities and apathy?
*raises hand*
I graduate from college in the spring this year so I guess it's only natural for me to get a little nervous about the future. I mean...all my life I've been a student and now I have to actually go out into the real world? I'm leaving a life that I know and am comfortable with.
I have to be honest...I'm terrified. Yeah I'm excited but still...very very scared. But I guess that's normal...I guess. This is one of those times where I wish I were not the oldest child. I wish I could have had someone to observe. I just wish I had as much confidence in myself as others do in me. My experiences in the Career Center have done a great job in scaring me for the future. I thought I'd at least be able to get an internship. I have an interview on Friday...but even that's shaky because it will require skills other than the ones I was hoping to use. I guess she's unsure if I qualify or not since the position is not one where I'd make an exact fit according to my resume. *sigh* I hope it works out though. That's what I really wanted to do this semester and it'd sure make me feel a lot better. I'd get more out of that then some of the classes I'm currently taking for the sole purpose of staying a full time student. Almost all of my requirements are done...
*sigh*
I guess with all of this "Okay I'm in the real world now" thinking, I guess I've been thinking about getting married more than I used to since it becomes more of a possible reality each day. I shouldn't be uncomfortable with discussing it as I have been. I guess I'm afraid of pushing things too fast...definately don't want to scare him off! XD But I'm in a steady relationship and where that goes is part of the real world too. This is not "legitimizing my existance through the existance of another"...I have self-worth. This is "starting a life together because we've been together for a long time and friends for even longer". Right now I'm not ready...that's a bit obvious. I have to at least prove to myself that I can care of "me" before I can do my part to take care of "us". But I have been thinking about it...a tad more than I was this time last year.
Last night I was seriously starting to consider the possibility of moving out to Pittsburgh if a certain scenario plays out...
*raises hand*
I graduate from college in the spring this year so I guess it's only natural for me to get a little nervous about the future. I mean...all my life I've been a student and now I have to actually go out into the real world? I'm leaving a life that I know and am comfortable with.
I have to be honest...I'm terrified. Yeah I'm excited but still...very very scared. But I guess that's normal...I guess. This is one of those times where I wish I were not the oldest child. I wish I could have had someone to observe. I just wish I had as much confidence in myself as others do in me. My experiences in the Career Center have done a great job in scaring me for the future. I thought I'd at least be able to get an internship. I have an interview on Friday...but even that's shaky because it will require skills other than the ones I was hoping to use. I guess she's unsure if I qualify or not since the position is not one where I'd make an exact fit according to my resume. *sigh* I hope it works out though. That's what I really wanted to do this semester and it'd sure make me feel a lot better. I'd get more out of that then some of the classes I'm currently taking for the sole purpose of staying a full time student. Almost all of my requirements are done...
*sigh*
I guess with all of this "Okay I'm in the real world now" thinking, I guess I've been thinking about getting married more than I used to since it becomes more of a possible reality each day. I shouldn't be uncomfortable with discussing it as I have been. I guess I'm afraid of pushing things too fast...definately don't want to scare him off! XD But I'm in a steady relationship and where that goes is part of the real world too. This is not "legitimizing my existance through the existance of another"...I have self-worth. This is "starting a life together because we've been together for a long time and friends for even longer". Right now I'm not ready...that's a bit obvious. I have to at least prove to myself that I can care of "me" before I can do my part to take care of "us". But I have been thinking about it...a tad more than I was this time last year.
Last night I was seriously starting to consider the possibility of moving out to Pittsburgh if a certain scenario plays out...