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I hate this thing sometimes. Its caused me more problems in the past couple of months than remedied things thereputically. Basically Live Journal has just given me something to do. Thats it. I am tired of all this drama. Its not even good drama. Its so stupid. Now, sending people to prison and getting busted?This is much more telling drama than catty fighting over differences in philosophy, fashion, and reasonablitiy.
Call me when someone is dying, going to prison, bleeding, etc. Hard lines are only hard when you can see past the screen of your own personal struggle. Spend more time living and less time bitching. I am not a mouthpiece for complaining at this point. Why do you people not understand this? I am a normal fucking guy, who is not too bright, and not too stupid. I do speech and debate, I have given alot for it, and it has given back to me. No one will see what I see through my eyes. I have been trying to construct my world through communication for like 4 years now, and I am almost done.
I have taken some cheap blows, been dealt some stupid shit, and had to affirm the feelings of people I care deeply about at very difficult times. The gravity of language expressed interpersonally is creating a barrier to being an easy-going person, and enriching the life of the person I love. Which is what I need right now. I will not choose between two options, I will choose to not choose in this case. And choosing to write this song:
"Spotlight"
Sleepless nights, they are testin' you again.
Weeping for this lonly hour in a world without real friends
swimming in despair, I write these words I sing:
I know hate, I know love, I know pain, I know loss, I
know I know I know I know nothing.
I have been through these pains, and
I keep on smiling and living honeslty just the same.
Shes Been
Numb to the world,
two stepping the hard line
in a suit of lead
they call disicpline.
standing on her own in the spotlight,
what she wants is what she wants-
how to get it will break a man to tears.
Call me when someone is dying, going to prison, bleeding, etc. Hard lines are only hard when you can see past the screen of your own personal struggle. Spend more time living and less time bitching. I am not a mouthpiece for complaining at this point. Why do you people not understand this? I am a normal fucking guy, who is not too bright, and not too stupid. I do speech and debate, I have given alot for it, and it has given back to me. No one will see what I see through my eyes. I have been trying to construct my world through communication for like 4 years now, and I am almost done.
I have taken some cheap blows, been dealt some stupid shit, and had to affirm the feelings of people I care deeply about at very difficult times. The gravity of language expressed interpersonally is creating a barrier to being an easy-going person, and enriching the life of the person I love. Which is what I need right now. I will not choose between two options, I will choose to not choose in this case. And choosing to write this song:
"Spotlight"
Sleepless nights, they are testin' you again.
Weeping for this lonly hour in a world without real friends
swimming in despair, I write these words I sing:
I know hate, I know love, I know pain, I know loss, I
know I know I know I know nothing.
I have been through these pains, and
I keep on smiling and living honeslty just the same.
Shes Been
Numb to the world,
two stepping the hard line
in a suit of lead
they call disicpline.
standing on her own in the spotlight,
what she wants is what she wants-
how to get it will break a man to tears.