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I am neglecting my cat so much at the moment. I keep forgetting to buy her food, and, despite the fact that I am moving her to an entirely new location tonight, still forgot to buy her food and fresh litter. It is just too mesmerising, walking down sunny Newtown streets in the evening - I forget all kinds of things in the face of hedges and sunshine.
So now I need to trek back out to buy cat-things, I shouldn't have turned on my computer and sat down on the bed. The moment I realised, I should have just turned on my heel and walked back out the door. The thought of getting up and leaving to go buy, and then carry, heavy stuff is just too much right now. However, writing an eljay entry is not.
So tonight I am moving for the third time in less than two months. I feel so itinerant at the moment, but milk crates are my friends. I am moving in with my friend Catherine, to a nice apartment with lots of artwork on the walls and the best cd collection ever, and a balcony with a couch on it overlooking the anzac bridge. These are all pros. Here are some other pros: No mosquitos or other bitey insects, or even just the freakishly large non-bitey ones that lurk near the ceiling. No crazy housemates. Catherine is far from crazy - and also, will be away for the next three weeks. Leading to another pro: My own space. This will be the first time I have lived alone, completely alone, for longer than 24 hours in longer than I can remember - probably since the time, back when I lived at home, that my parents and sister left for the bach a week before me because I was waiting in Dunedin for someone to fly into the country. I remember that I spent Christmas alone that year, too. I had chinese takeaways for Christmas dinner. Okay, more pros. A desk. Somewhere to hang my clothes. A couch. A proper kitchen with proper kitchen-y stuff. A fridge full of food. I cannot tell you how much I have missed all of these things.
I wonder how much it will take getting used to, living alone. It is probably actually a really good experiment. I know I will love it initially, but if I still love it after a couple of weeks maybe that is still an option for me for next year. I am grateful for the opportunity to test it out. I love that all of my time will be my own.
So now I need to trek back out to buy cat-things, I shouldn't have turned on my computer and sat down on the bed. The moment I realised, I should have just turned on my heel and walked back out the door. The thought of getting up and leaving to go buy, and then carry, heavy stuff is just too much right now. However, writing an eljay entry is not.
So tonight I am moving for the third time in less than two months. I feel so itinerant at the moment, but milk crates are my friends. I am moving in with my friend Catherine, to a nice apartment with lots of artwork on the walls and the best cd collection ever, and a balcony with a couch on it overlooking the anzac bridge. These are all pros. Here are some other pros: No mosquitos or other bitey insects, or even just the freakishly large non-bitey ones that lurk near the ceiling. No crazy housemates. Catherine is far from crazy - and also, will be away for the next three weeks. Leading to another pro: My own space. This will be the first time I have lived alone, completely alone, for longer than 24 hours in longer than I can remember - probably since the time, back when I lived at home, that my parents and sister left for the bach a week before me because I was waiting in Dunedin for someone to fly into the country. I remember that I spent Christmas alone that year, too. I had chinese takeaways for Christmas dinner. Okay, more pros. A desk. Somewhere to hang my clothes. A couch. A proper kitchen with proper kitchen-y stuff. A fridge full of food. I cannot tell you how much I have missed all of these things.
I wonder how much it will take getting used to, living alone. It is probably actually a really good experiment. I know I will love it initially, but if I still love it after a couple of weeks maybe that is still an option for me for next year. I am grateful for the opportunity to test it out. I love that all of my time will be my own.