woo hoo
woo hoo cody is gone cody is gone!
woo hoo the week from hell is almost over!
i am compeatly numb to the world right now.
you could slap me across the face and call me a fucking bitch and i would be like.... ok, shit happens.
it happens to me because i think that people are good when i know they arent.
i am sooo tired.
but i am talking to james and kate said she is going to call me back in a little bit because she has to stay up to change over pauls laundry!
blaaaaaaaaaaaa
tomorrow is another day and all will be better....
well i really dont know how much worse it can get so i guess that either it will be the same or slightly better because i at least woke up...
although i dont know how good it would be if i woke up...
i think it would just be better if i turned off my phone and locked the door and hid away from the world for a while.
wouldnt that be great if you could do that....
just run away and hide for like a week from the world???
i know i would love it.
well i am goign to try and not let this situation bring me down.
i am going to try and move on as fast as possable and not let someone being an asshole effect my life anymore then he already has.
i am a good person and i dont deserve to be treated like shit.
i deserve to be treated the way i treat people.
DONT FUCK WITH MY MIND.
just tell me how you feel, if you hate me or something tell me.
if you want to just fuck me then fine! tell me!
but dont fucking pretend that you like me and bull shit me so you can fuck me!
tell me the fucking truth! i can handle the fucking truth as long as you dont fucking hid it from me.
you know i am a good person but you still do the same shit to me!!!
you know i would do anything and i have done a lot of shit for you but you still decied to fuck some hoes behind my back and then fucking get pissed when you get cought!!!!!!!!
you fucked up! deal with it and fucking move on.
if you want one last fuck just tell me.
dont make false promises and bull shit me some more. you know that you are goign to be hurting me! you know exactly what you are doing to me and yet you still do it. do you have no fucking heart?? no soul???
your fucking problem is that you cant feel pain.
you dont knwo what you are doing to me! if you knew what it felt like when someone fucks with your mind and heart then you probably wouldnt do this same things.... wait what am i talking about.. yeah you would ... you would just do it more to prove that you have the power over someone. you are just as bad as someone that beats a woman! it hurts just as much, it might not leave marks that are visable to the eye. but it leaves a lot of marks that are visable to her!!
you are a fuckign ass hole and you will probably end up lonely and old and have no one that will truely love you besides your mom. if you mom knew what you did she would probably kick your fucking ass!
you have no respect for yourself!
i feel sorry for you in a way. because you really dont have any feelings.
you dont know what it is to like let alone love.
you can never feel true pain or pleasure.
you must just be numb all the time.
and i feel sorry for you, because if you cant feel pain or pleasure you have not really lived.
so you would feel the same way that i am feeling right now, numb, all the time!
wow i dont know how someone could live like that.
well i am going to try and be strong and just move on with my life and try and not let this ass hole fuck with my head anymore then he already has.
i am a good person and i deffantly deserve better, much better!
i deserve to be happy!
woo hoo the week from hell is almost over!
i am compeatly numb to the world right now.
you could slap me across the face and call me a fucking bitch and i would be like.... ok, shit happens.
it happens to me because i think that people are good when i know they arent.
i am sooo tired.
but i am talking to james and kate said she is going to call me back in a little bit because she has to stay up to change over pauls laundry!
blaaaaaaaaaaaa
tomorrow is another day and all will be better....
well i really dont know how much worse it can get so i guess that either it will be the same or slightly better because i at least woke up...
although i dont know how good it would be if i woke up...
i think it would just be better if i turned off my phone and locked the door and hid away from the world for a while.
wouldnt that be great if you could do that....
just run away and hide for like a week from the world???
i know i would love it.
well i am goign to try and not let this situation bring me down.
i am going to try and move on as fast as possable and not let someone being an asshole effect my life anymore then he already has.
i am a good person and i dont deserve to be treated like shit.
i deserve to be treated the way i treat people.
DONT FUCK WITH MY MIND.
just tell me how you feel, if you hate me or something tell me.
if you want to just fuck me then fine! tell me!
but dont fucking pretend that you like me and bull shit me so you can fuck me!
tell me the fucking truth! i can handle the fucking truth as long as you dont fucking hid it from me.
you know i am a good person but you still do the same shit to me!!!
you know i would do anything and i have done a lot of shit for you but you still decied to fuck some hoes behind my back and then fucking get pissed when you get cought!!!!!!!!
you fucked up! deal with it and fucking move on.
if you want one last fuck just tell me.
dont make false promises and bull shit me some more. you know that you are goign to be hurting me! you know exactly what you are doing to me and yet you still do it. do you have no fucking heart?? no soul???
your fucking problem is that you cant feel pain.
you dont knwo what you are doing to me! if you knew what it felt like when someone fucks with your mind and heart then you probably wouldnt do this same things.... wait what am i talking about.. yeah you would ... you would just do it more to prove that you have the power over someone. you are just as bad as someone that beats a woman! it hurts just as much, it might not leave marks that are visable to the eye. but it leaves a lot of marks that are visable to her!!
you are a fuckign ass hole and you will probably end up lonely and old and have no one that will truely love you besides your mom. if you mom knew what you did she would probably kick your fucking ass!
you have no respect for yourself!
i feel sorry for you in a way. because you really dont have any feelings.
you dont know what it is to like let alone love.
you can never feel true pain or pleasure.
you must just be numb all the time.
and i feel sorry for you, because if you cant feel pain or pleasure you have not really lived.
so you would feel the same way that i am feeling right now, numb, all the time!
wow i dont know how someone could live like that.
well i am going to try and be strong and just move on with my life and try and not let this ass hole fuck with my head anymore then he already has.
i am a good person and i deffantly deserve better, much better!
i deserve to be happy!