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cody is moveing to florida sometime this week.
he told me thursday that he talked to his mom and friend ryan and they really want him to move down there asap. so he is leaving as soon as he buys a truck or rents one to move all his shit down there.
fun stuff for me!
so i have a bf for about the next week or less. when ever he leaves i guess i am single so start lineing up guys :)
i am so depressed just typeing this!
ever since he told me on thursday i have felt like shit.
well part of the reason i have felt like shit(well mostly the reason) is because i drank wayyy to much on thursday night and then again on saturday night i drank wayyyy to much. oh and then i started my peroid. so lots of fun stuff going on for kathleen. woo hoo for me.
i know it has hit me that he is leaveing but it hasnt fully hit me yet.
i know that when i go over to kates and he isnt there and his bedroom is empty i am probably going to freak out. i am thinking that i should just stay away from the house for a little while.
i almost wish that we didnt have a good relationship because then this would be so much easier. but noooo we have a great relationship, we get along, we have fun, we are just great. i would so love to just say fuck you CTU and ride down there with him and live there. but i cant do that. i just have to wait it out and see what happens.
my mom and grandma saltarelli both told me that when they met my dad and grandpa they saw each other, liked each other then didnt see each other for a year or so befor ethey started dateing again. so maybe that is what will happen with cody and i. probably not but a girl can dream and get depressed about it cant she??!!
i am just waiting for us to get in a fight or something before he leaves. because that is what happens when someone you care about leaves, it is easier to say good bye if you ar emad at them.
i keep telling my self that he relaly does care about me and really does want to be with me, but then i talk to kate or christina and they tell me that he might not really care about me that much. that it was just a convience for him. (well i think that last part) i mean i am always the one to come over to his house have sex with him, he didnt have to take me out or buy me anything, hell he didnt even have a job for most of the time we were dateing! i had other guys that i was seeing and relaly didnt need cody. it was convient and nice and we did click right away but it was deffantly easier and convient for him.
AHHHH so many things are going through my head and i cant put the thoughts together to make any since!
i was sitting in the garage with him today and just looking at him, wanting to say something to him but i didnt know what to say. i just sat there and stared at him then at the floor then out at the road! i know that i had something to say but my head was just soo aaaaahhhhhhh that i couldnt put the thoughts together to say something to him. i am just going to hav efun with him for the next couple days and then leave it up to him to call me. or at least i am goin to try and not call him. he will be really busy working and getting back together with all his "girls" that he hasnt "seen" in almost a year. so he will be haveing fun and not even thinking twice about me. now i just have to stop thinking about him! good luck with that! yep this sucks......
he told me thursday that he talked to his mom and friend ryan and they really want him to move down there asap. so he is leaving as soon as he buys a truck or rents one to move all his shit down there.
fun stuff for me!
so i have a bf for about the next week or less. when ever he leaves i guess i am single so start lineing up guys :)
i am so depressed just typeing this!
ever since he told me on thursday i have felt like shit.
well part of the reason i have felt like shit(well mostly the reason) is because i drank wayyy to much on thursday night and then again on saturday night i drank wayyyy to much. oh and then i started my peroid. so lots of fun stuff going on for kathleen. woo hoo for me.
i know it has hit me that he is leaveing but it hasnt fully hit me yet.
i know that when i go over to kates and he isnt there and his bedroom is empty i am probably going to freak out. i am thinking that i should just stay away from the house for a little while.
i almost wish that we didnt have a good relationship because then this would be so much easier. but noooo we have a great relationship, we get along, we have fun, we are just great. i would so love to just say fuck you CTU and ride down there with him and live there. but i cant do that. i just have to wait it out and see what happens.
my mom and grandma saltarelli both told me that when they met my dad and grandpa they saw each other, liked each other then didnt see each other for a year or so befor ethey started dateing again. so maybe that is what will happen with cody and i. probably not but a girl can dream and get depressed about it cant she??!!
i am just waiting for us to get in a fight or something before he leaves. because that is what happens when someone you care about leaves, it is easier to say good bye if you ar emad at them.
i keep telling my self that he relaly does care about me and really does want to be with me, but then i talk to kate or christina and they tell me that he might not really care about me that much. that it was just a convience for him. (well i think that last part) i mean i am always the one to come over to his house have sex with him, he didnt have to take me out or buy me anything, hell he didnt even have a job for most of the time we were dateing! i had other guys that i was seeing and relaly didnt need cody. it was convient and nice and we did click right away but it was deffantly easier and convient for him.
AHHHH so many things are going through my head and i cant put the thoughts together to make any since!
i was sitting in the garage with him today and just looking at him, wanting to say something to him but i didnt know what to say. i just sat there and stared at him then at the floor then out at the road! i know that i had something to say but my head was just soo aaaaahhhhhhh that i couldnt put the thoughts together to say something to him. i am just going to hav efun with him for the next couple days and then leave it up to him to call me. or at least i am goin to try and not call him. he will be really busy working and getting back together with all his "girls" that he hasnt "seen" in almost a year. so he will be haveing fun and not even thinking twice about me. now i just have to stop thinking about him! good luck with that! yep this sucks......