Trying to learn how to feel again..
I wonder if it was a survival skill while I was in Oregon to really feel like I needed to be an asshole... Maybe it was the fact that I was constantly bored and lonely, and seemingly ALWAYS in a state of depression. Maybe it was the fact that there were about 200 extremely pompous, immature little twits running around all over the place, without a way to find time by myself or to even get away from it. At any rate, it's FINALLY over now, and I'm moving on.
Now, I know it was on the news, but I found out because my mom actually sent me a link to it. I think it's REALLY fucked up that the media doesn't bother asking an athlete her permission to broadcast her health record across the world. It's an extremely debasing way of finding out that you're "different", and I'm sure anyone who's been reading my journals here all along knows EXACTLY what I mean and how it is to find out in such public ways. If someone has a medical condition that makes them produce more testosterone but their body can't use it, then there's no competitive advantage, and therefore is NOBODY'S FUCKING BUSINESS!!!!!
In other news, I have discovered a few things...
1. That it was really weird to find out that when I decided not to focus so much on the ladies, suddenly more are starting to flirt with me than ever.
2. That it's more effective and better received when I tell a woman I have "interests" in about my being intersexed right after I'm sure she's attracted to me.
3. That everyone always has a negative opinion, and those who decide to voice it in your general direction have given up their chance to understand how awesome you really are.
Now, I know it was on the news, but I found out because my mom actually sent me a link to it. I think it's REALLY fucked up that the media doesn't bother asking an athlete her permission to broadcast her health record across the world. It's an extremely debasing way of finding out that you're "different", and I'm sure anyone who's been reading my journals here all along knows EXACTLY what I mean and how it is to find out in such public ways. If someone has a medical condition that makes them produce more testosterone but their body can't use it, then there's no competitive advantage, and therefore is NOBODY'S FUCKING BUSINESS!!!!!
In other news, I have discovered a few things...
1. That it was really weird to find out that when I decided not to focus so much on the ladies, suddenly more are starting to flirt with me than ever.
2. That it's more effective and better received when I tell a woman I have "interests" in about my being intersexed right after I'm sure she's attracted to me.
3. That everyone always has a negative opinion, and those who decide to voice it in your general direction have given up their chance to understand how awesome you really are.