Holy Crap
I've decided to start posting here again. I set up an anonymous blog on blogspot, but I've decided I rather like people reading all the intimate details of my life and commenting. Not that anybody really comments on my blog anymore. I guess all of this proves that I'm not as close with my friends as I should be, since none of them care enough to really read this, let alone comment. *Sigh*
It's been 6 months since I last posted here. The biggest change that has happened I guess is that Nathan and I are engaged. Weird, right? It's been more than a week since he asked, and it still feels kind of weird. I think it would be weirder if I was wearing my ring, but it's still at the jeweler's getting resized, so I still have a couple more days before I start doing double takes at the rock on my finger. I'm not joking about the rock, either.
I certainly hope that those of you reading this (if anybody reads this) who know me, or have known me, are realizing just how strange it is for ME to be saying these things. I'm sure most of you know that I always claimed not to be the marrying kind. God knows marriage was certainly never one of my goals. You've probably also heard me say that if I ever did get engaged, it would be for me, and I would definitely not need anything so flashy as an engagement ring. Well, in case you were wondering I still feel that way. I was happy with Nathan just the way we were, and I really didn't need or expect anything else. So when he did propose to me, there was no question that it was a surprise.
So if we were happy the way we were, and I had no ambition to get married, why are we engaged?
Pretty simple, actually. I asked him why he asked me in the first place. He didn't know. He says that it popped into his head, and it was all he could think about for a few months. All he could really say was that he didn't want things to stay the same, he didn't want to call me his girlfriend anymore. He just wants to marry me. I said yes because I couldn't say no. I know that sounds strange, but I can explain. I love Nathan very much, and I would have stayed just the way we were forever. If I really thought about it, I would tell you that my goal for Nathan and I was for us to stay together forever. So if I was going to stay with him forever anyway, and I'm indifferent about the idea of marriage...why not? It's important to him, and I have no strong feelings one way or the other, so I gave him what he wanted. And I've gotta tell you, now that I've said yes, I'm happy about it. I'm excited for everyone to know that we're going to be together forever. Crazy, right?
As far as the ring goes, I never cared about that, and I was surprised he gave me one, especially one so nice. He was nervous about giving it to me, because he knew I always said I wasn't a big fan of diamonds and didn't understand the need for flashy engagement rings. But he wanted to give it to me, and he wants to see me wear it. It's really beautiful, and if it makes him happy to see me wear compressed coal on my finger, I will do it.
I think what I've learned from this experience is that I will do anything for Nathan. Really. Anything. And I have the rest of my life to prove that to him. Fantastic.
It's been 6 months since I last posted here. The biggest change that has happened I guess is that Nathan and I are engaged. Weird, right? It's been more than a week since he asked, and it still feels kind of weird. I think it would be weirder if I was wearing my ring, but it's still at the jeweler's getting resized, so I still have a couple more days before I start doing double takes at the rock on my finger. I'm not joking about the rock, either.
I certainly hope that those of you reading this (if anybody reads this) who know me, or have known me, are realizing just how strange it is for ME to be saying these things. I'm sure most of you know that I always claimed not to be the marrying kind. God knows marriage was certainly never one of my goals. You've probably also heard me say that if I ever did get engaged, it would be for me, and I would definitely not need anything so flashy as an engagement ring. Well, in case you were wondering I still feel that way. I was happy with Nathan just the way we were, and I really didn't need or expect anything else. So when he did propose to me, there was no question that it was a surprise.
So if we were happy the way we were, and I had no ambition to get married, why are we engaged?
Pretty simple, actually. I asked him why he asked me in the first place. He didn't know. He says that it popped into his head, and it was all he could think about for a few months. All he could really say was that he didn't want things to stay the same, he didn't want to call me his girlfriend anymore. He just wants to marry me. I said yes because I couldn't say no. I know that sounds strange, but I can explain. I love Nathan very much, and I would have stayed just the way we were forever. If I really thought about it, I would tell you that my goal for Nathan and I was for us to stay together forever. So if I was going to stay with him forever anyway, and I'm indifferent about the idea of marriage...why not? It's important to him, and I have no strong feelings one way or the other, so I gave him what he wanted. And I've gotta tell you, now that I've said yes, I'm happy about it. I'm excited for everyone to know that we're going to be together forever. Crazy, right?
As far as the ring goes, I never cared about that, and I was surprised he gave me one, especially one so nice. He was nervous about giving it to me, because he knew I always said I wasn't a big fan of diamonds and didn't understand the need for flashy engagement rings. But he wanted to give it to me, and he wants to see me wear it. It's really beautiful, and if it makes him happy to see me wear compressed coal on my finger, I will do it.
I think what I've learned from this experience is that I will do anything for Nathan. Really. Anything. And I have the rest of my life to prove that to him. Fantastic.