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things seem ok. i always get a little paranoid when things seem ok. the medication is going well as it doesn't hurt my tummy too much and it whittles a little of the apathy away. the dr's office called to cancel my follow-up appointment so i guess i have to reschedule that. haven't really had a migraine since the one when i got back from vacation. still haven't sorted through all the stuff that came from a-chan's place. went to the gym with cody last night, we rowed for a while and then played with a little weight. it was really just to get us back into the swing of it. we're going to try to go 3 times a week, so we'll see how that works out. still pretty torn up inside, but i'm trying not to admit it to myself. i find that i am upset with myself for still loving her, but i guess that will fade with time . . . at least that's what everyone says.
work is ok for now. i'm going to be teaching an interesting lab this quarter, so we'll see how that goes. a lot of labview and playing with stuff. research slogs on slowly, but it looks like i might be going back to being the only one on otft's soon. i hope orb gets to work on photovoltaics, since that's what he really wants to do. i don't really care what i do, so long as i can graduate. it's amazing, but the meds took away a lot of apathy in my life, but none away from how i feel about work. i'm in the wrong place, and i know it. but i think i'm going to stick it out, even if it is just for a master's. i'm not going to take the qual this quarter, i just can't get ready in time. i made it through 3 chapters and could answer questions, but i just don't have enough confidence in my knowledge. 4 vapor deps to do today. i'm almost through 2 of them and it isn't even lunchtime yet. wow, i guess i did get here early.
"it's only forever. not long at all"
work is ok for now. i'm going to be teaching an interesting lab this quarter, so we'll see how that goes. a lot of labview and playing with stuff. research slogs on slowly, but it looks like i might be going back to being the only one on otft's soon. i hope orb gets to work on photovoltaics, since that's what he really wants to do. i don't really care what i do, so long as i can graduate. it's amazing, but the meds took away a lot of apathy in my life, but none away from how i feel about work. i'm in the wrong place, and i know it. but i think i'm going to stick it out, even if it is just for a master's. i'm not going to take the qual this quarter, i just can't get ready in time. i made it through 3 chapters and could answer questions, but i just don't have enough confidence in my knowledge. 4 vapor deps to do today. i'm almost through 2 of them and it isn't even lunchtime yet. wow, i guess i did get here early.
"it's only forever. not long at all"