Answers and mental illness
I think the psychiatrist may have figured out could be wrong with me.
I'm taking lamictal now, which is a medicine that stabilizes mood and is prescribed for bipolar disorder 2 and seizures.
Although in my case, it isn't for seizures.
It would make sense, since I'd only write in this journal during certain times... as a hypomanic or a depressive. The depressive often took over for months, sometimes 4-6 months at a time. The hypomanic and the depressive both aren't me. Honestly, right now, i'm incredibly anxious so I'm erring on the manic side of the spectrum. I'm crying, too. I'm starting to become more aware of a brain disease.
could this be the key that unlocks my brain so i can actually function and become a person? i can only find out. i'm currently undergoing treatment and regularly speaking with the psychiatrist; i have an appointment next month.
I got diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, and was given antidepressants, so it might explain why I went out and did dangerous things over time.. because they would cycle me into a hypomanic. So, unfortunately, I thought it was a good idea to meet up with men at 2am in dark, empty parks where someone can kill me easily. Also, I tried to kill myself pretty often. I dont' really want to tell people this but I've probably attempted suicide like 5 or 6 times in the past couple of years but each time it was far too painful for me to put the razor back in
I'm taking lamictal now, which is a medicine that stabilizes mood and is prescribed for bipolar disorder 2 and seizures.
Although in my case, it isn't for seizures.
It would make sense, since I'd only write in this journal during certain times... as a hypomanic or a depressive. The depressive often took over for months, sometimes 4-6 months at a time. The hypomanic and the depressive both aren't me. Honestly, right now, i'm incredibly anxious so I'm erring on the manic side of the spectrum. I'm crying, too. I'm starting to become more aware of a brain disease.
could this be the key that unlocks my brain so i can actually function and become a person? i can only find out. i'm currently undergoing treatment and regularly speaking with the psychiatrist; i have an appointment next month.
I got diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, and was given antidepressants, so it might explain why I went out and did dangerous things over time.. because they would cycle me into a hypomanic. So, unfortunately, I thought it was a good idea to meet up with men at 2am in dark, empty parks where someone can kill me easily. Also, I tried to kill myself pretty often. I dont' really want to tell people this but I've probably attempted suicide like 5 or 6 times in the past couple of years but each time it was far too painful for me to put the razor back in