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so i went to chicago this past weekend to see my new school's open house. it made me feel so good about going there, everyone was so nice and it was awesome how they were surprised how fast i was accepted. the school is definitely good and i'm a little overwhelmed by how busy chicago is and how big it is. it's not cool feeling like a teeny tiny ant on a whole city block. at least the train has a stop right in front of the school, so that part should be easy, as long as i don't forget what stop i'm supposed to get off at. i was a little surprised that i didn't see any guys that i'm attracted to yet. we went to the hotel lounge or bar or whatever and there wasn't anyone that i would want to talk to. i'm also a little yikes about how i'm gonna get home from chicago for my breaks, since animals aren't allowed on amtrak and greyhound. It looks like I won't be coming home much, just every 3 or 6 months on my 2 to 3 week breaks between quarters. that makes me feel a little scared, that i'm not able to just up and drive home if i want. i'm stuck, unless i want to leave my cat there and take the train or bus by myself. which isn't appealing at all, how can i leave my little baby. my mom wants me to consider leaving him here in midland, but if i can't bring my car and i can't bring my cat, what else do i have to not make me so lonely. my mom wants me to try and find a roommate so i can get a really nice 2 bedroom appartment. i don't know how keen i am on that idea. i think that i would want a guy to be my roommate so i could feel a little safer as opposed to 2 girls living by themselves. I'd rather just live by myself, i don't want to worry about hearing someone else getting it on or moving things how i don't like them. i'm super picky about that stuff. at least i definitely don't have a guy at all to worry about leaving here, things are definitely working out as planned. i just hope that it stays that way, i don't want to get caught up in someone like i've done before and only focus on him. somehow i doubt that i will even get a boyfriend when i move. i'll probably end up hanging out with all guys, but just as people to go out with and do things. no boyfriend types....i think i've forgotten what boyfriend types are anymore, everyone i thought had good character has shattered it by cheating on their girlfriend and not telling her, sleeping with like everyone, doing so many drugs or being drunks and the list goes on....i guess it's awesome that i can be such a bitch sometimes and not even pay attention to guys, but i do get nice perks....like getting an extra free long sleeve t-shirt from my new school from some guy that went and found the last one they had and gave one only to me because i asked where i could get a iadt chicago sweatshirt. shit like that really makes my day...i bet if i was super ugly, that never would have happened. it makes me happy. hopefully i can keep that going when i get there too....i could have so many more benefits!!