I need a hobby
So today was uneventful. Cleaned the kitchen for 5 bucks to get cigarettes. Other than that, I've been sitting around doing nothing. My dad got me sick. And it's pissing me off because nothing is making me feel better. My eyes hurt, but even closing my eyes and resting them doesn't help...they still hurt. I need to get a job so that I can buy things. Mainly musical instruments so that I can finally start making music without having to resort to a program with fake sounds. I mean, I can make really cool music, and I have been, but it's missing that kick. You can tell if something is made by a human or if it's made by a machine, and this is neither. It sounds like it could be played in an elevator, but too dark to be able to. Kind of like an inbetween. I mean, I kind of want that...but I want other sounds too. I want people to get used to one side of the spectrum, and then in the same song, it goes over to the other side of the spectrum. Kind of hard to do without instruments. I can't put emotion into it.
I plan on this album to be fucking amazing. I want it to be the hallmark of the millennium. Kind of like Dark Side of the Moon to the 70's. I want it to be kind of the savior of music. I'm sick of hearing music now-a-days because it is so fucking bland and uncreative. It's just sound. And it all sounds the same to me. I know that even if I save music, all that will happen is that everyone will rush to sound like me. But at least that will open it up for the next band to come in in the next decade with something amazing. So far it's going great. I've got the structure set up and the idea of how it will be. I just want to try and write it to allow it all to fall into place. It's like writing a book, in fact, I'm actually calling the different parts of the album "Chapters."
But the first step is getting a steady income. Which is hard because I'm picky and there are no jobs that suit me besides a musical one. I have too many problems with authority figures to have a boss. I have too many problems with society to try and fit in. I have to many problems with people to try and help any type of customer. So I'm kind of in a rut. I need money to get the job I want, and I need the job I want in order to get money.
College is going fine, but that won't help me get a "career" until five years from now. But at least I can put down that I'm a college student on applications. People seem to like college students. I just need to go out and apply for jobs. Blah...I hate doing that.
Anyway, I was writing cause I was bored. I doubt anyone really reads this, but whatever.
I plan on this album to be fucking amazing. I want it to be the hallmark of the millennium. Kind of like Dark Side of the Moon to the 70's. I want it to be kind of the savior of music. I'm sick of hearing music now-a-days because it is so fucking bland and uncreative. It's just sound. And it all sounds the same to me. I know that even if I save music, all that will happen is that everyone will rush to sound like me. But at least that will open it up for the next band to come in in the next decade with something amazing. So far it's going great. I've got the structure set up and the idea of how it will be. I just want to try and write it to allow it all to fall into place. It's like writing a book, in fact, I'm actually calling the different parts of the album "Chapters."
But the first step is getting a steady income. Which is hard because I'm picky and there are no jobs that suit me besides a musical one. I have too many problems with authority figures to have a boss. I have too many problems with society to try and fit in. I have to many problems with people to try and help any type of customer. So I'm kind of in a rut. I need money to get the job I want, and I need the job I want in order to get money.
College is going fine, but that won't help me get a "career" until five years from now. But at least I can put down that I'm a college student on applications. People seem to like college students. I just need to go out and apply for jobs. Blah...I hate doing that.
Anyway, I was writing cause I was bored. I doubt anyone really reads this, but whatever.