Jul 19, 2009 02:31
There is so much on my mind. What strange lives we lead. I thank everything I believe in for good people, and especially those whom I have wronged, yet still understand and appreciate me for who I am. I know I have grown and changed so much in such a short period of time, and yet I am still stuck on the same things. Why am I so afraid to move forward? Why do I insist on learning lessons the hard way? The problem reeks of the qualities of apathy, but I know that is not me.
A good friend once said, "If you're not learning, there is no point in living."
Method Man once said, "If you don't stand for nothing, you'll fall for anything."
The ups and downs, the joys and sorrows of existing. I praise every little thing that lifts me with joy, and I understand the complexities of everything that fills my head with spite.
Short term negativity often overcomes the deep hearted, sincere feelings of gratitude to everything I have and all the resources that have been provided for me. I regret that I have misused my opportunities and taken my privileges for granted. Oh, How naive I have been and how naive I remain!
What is the next step?
I suppose time will tell.