Euthanasia
I had to euthanize my cat back in December 06, it was quite a painful process. This was the first time I actually withness death of a living creature live.
To this date I still do not understand why my cat condition deteriorated so quickly. The vet at the university veterinary teaching hospital found a bunch of debris inside her ears and I was told she either had a very severe infection or brain cancer. Without a MRI they would not be able to determine the exact cause. I unfortunately could not afford another $2000 vet bill after already spent $1500 on her. I'm surprised that my regular vet did not diagnose the problem initially.
The vet at the univeristy decided to go ahead and treat her condition presumptively as ear infection. Two week passed but she was still very sick. I spoon fed her baby food initially and she was able to eat a jar once a day, but as her condition got worse, she would not eat at all. I felt so bad when I got home one night to find out that she could not even get to her litterbox (it was nearly right next to her bed) and urinated onto her bed directly. This is when I decided to tell myself "that's it".
I am not sure whether I made a right decision for her. Her autopsy report did not find cancer, and the vet concluded that it was most likely a very severe infection. If I had given her another week to live, would she had recover? I'm not too sure. I'm glad that she passed away peacefully though.
I remembered I felt tear coming out from my eyes as my vet gave her the euthanasia shot. It took just about 20 seconds and she was gone. It was the most peaceful process ever. I never thought a living creature could die so quickly and so peacefully. I felt bad having to make the decision though, who am I to make a decision whether something should live or die? I really wish animal would speak and let their owner know how they feel sometimes..
Sometimes I wonder why is it illegal to euthanize a human being. What is the difference? Why are all the religous asshole like to keep people alive when they're obviously suffering? It's not like we are killing terminally ill people against their will. If people don't want to suffer and just want to die, why not let them?
I would agree perhaps we probably need to put some sort of system in place for euthanasia though, such as psychological counseling just to make sure that people really understand what they're doing to themselves. Think about all the financial and emotional burden on their families, in my honest opinion, it is just cruel to keep people from sufferng against their will.