i itch
I try not worry about things. I try to take it easy and relax, but sometimes I can't help it. Everything I put in the back of my mind all comes back at the end of the day when I try to sleep. I get an attack of anxiety. My mind races and my head is simultaneously filled with thoughts and concerns. I can't sleep. I get insomnia. Even if I can somehow calm my mind down and clear my head, it doesn't matter because I itch. I itch all over my body. Anywhere there is skin I itch. My skin dries out and I itch. It doesn't matter if I scratch. If I try to ignore it. It gets worse. I begin to shake. I itch so bad. My heart rate increases. It's maddening. It doesn't matter if I take a cold shower. I can even rub moisturizer all over my body. I still itch. I'm itching right now. I can't sleep. I have been trying to sleep for several hours now. I just took a shower. I still itch. I have work in an hour and a half. I need to sleep, but I can't. Fuck.