days keep going
Haven't had much time to really do anything lately but tonight I managed to steal a little bit to update the lj. I've finally really realized how important it is to have ideas and dreams to work for, a cause or purpose if you will. For the past few months I've noticed such an incredibly huge difference in my life since I've honestly started looking into moving out, getting a license, and actually going after the things that I want instead of just sitting back and letting go any or all hope. I am still a bit uneasy about my physical condition though, I hope that I heal or overcome any mental apparition of sickness that I may have manifested. I've also noticed that when I'm working tword my dreams and hopes that I honestly have a good time, every time Og, Sean and I have come together to search for apartments and such I have such an incredible experience and laugh more honestly than I have in what seems like ages I truely believe I love those two and do hope we land a decent pad together. I also notice that they seem to have more fun, typically when people come over if we just play games or watch movies or w/e they're more than eager to take off once someone mentions leaving or everyone has the I'm hear and ok but I'm not really having too much fun look going on but when we get together to find a place we usually end up fighting about breaking up to go home or w/e and to me that's really significant. I also can't begin to express how wonderful life has been, Not a day goes by where a thought of her doesn't pass through my head, I am almost worried about annoying her but I can't help myself :) she just makes me want to be a better person and just a thought of spending time with her gives me all the energy in the world again. I feel that some of my friends really need some help though and I actually feel strong enough to maybe help them now I'm just not sure they want my help...anyway felt good to put some things down and I hope everyone has had at least one moment today if only for a split second where they just felt good :)