karma.

[erheartsyou]

let's see.. the past two weeks i've accomplished to fuck up one of the most important relationships in my life. nothing at all seems to work. i've cried to him, begged him, left him alone, kissed his ass, apologized out my ass. everything. and nothing can fix what i've fucked up. i know i don't deserve another chance, and considering what i did, i deserve what i'm getting. hell, i probably deserve a lot worse than what i'm getting. i mean jordan doesn't have to be as nice as he's being to me. i know this is hard on him, too. it all just sounds so familar, though...

oh, and another thing i've learned. when it rains, it pours. yeah, thanks guys.