Damnit!
God, I am so tired. I think I got like 2 hours of sleep last night. I mean, I went to bed at around twelve thirty and my alarm clock wasn't set to go off until six. I just couldn't sleep. I rolled around for close to four hours wide, wide eyed awake. There was nothing I could do to get settled down to sleep. I couldn't figure out why at first. I mean, for the past week there hasn't really been a change in my stress level, even writing that paper I was still more relaxed than I had been in a while. Then it hit me. Like a brick. And my frustrated sighs turned into the most pathetic whine I have uttered in a long time.
It was so simple it was stupid, and kind of pathetic really. I was sleeping alone. I wasn't sleeping in a room full of people like at Rinna's, or curled around Mike like I'd been for the last week. I know I was saying how happy I was to have solitude but sometimes that's a double edged blade. I liked the security of having Mike there. He was also a handy space heater. :P
I was actually THIS close to phoning and asking him to tuck me in like he does sometimes. It was like two in the morning by this point. The worst part was that he would probably come over if I did ask him. Even after everything I've put him through lately. And thinking that... made it even harder to sleep...
[Mood|
Depressed]
[Music| Rent Soundtrack ~ One Song Glory]
[Location|Now, THERE is a mystery]
It was so simple it was stupid, and kind of pathetic really. I was sleeping alone. I wasn't sleeping in a room full of people like at Rinna's, or curled around Mike like I'd been for the last week. I know I was saying how happy I was to have solitude but sometimes that's a double edged blade. I liked the security of having Mike there. He was also a handy space heater. :P
I was actually THIS close to phoning and asking him to tuck me in like he does sometimes. It was like two in the morning by this point. The worst part was that he would probably come over if I did ask him. Even after everything I've put him through lately. And thinking that... made it even harder to sleep...
[Mood|
Depressed]
[Music| Rent Soundtrack ~ One Song Glory]
[Location|Now, THERE is a mystery]