Enter the Voice of Justice!

[ereblog]

Hmm. Well.

This one’s a little odd. You see, I camped VE last night again. I was alone, it popped pretty late at night, I killed it with no TH and got not drop. No drop. No pin. So I log out there at the camp site and go to bed. This afternoon, I’m about ready to give it another go when I see my character is naked instead of wearing the dancer AF I

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[kindred_tari]

This comment got long, I apologize. My fingers got away from me...

I've had a similar experience involving logging in to find myself with shiny new items and I can understand completely on your on-the-fence feelings.

My social LS is home to a very small, very tightly-knit group. It gets to the point where we almost function as one unit when it comes to our willingness to go out of our way to acquire a piece of gear for someone else. Once upon a time we were mistaken for RMT, minus the Johnny AH gear. This makes sense of course, considering we always level in statics and strengthening one member directly affects everyone's EXP per hour and ability to function more efficiently in lowman, but I have to say that I am spoiled rotten by some of the things some of them have done for me.

When I first went away to college, I was unable to play for about 4 months due to the workload and my inability to balance game life, real life, and school life. It was during this time that a friend who has way too much patience with me logged in to play me in Dynamis and it was because of him that I acquired not only my Duelist's Tabard, but also the Chapeau. Before I formally returned to the game, I remember walking into a room one day on a break and seeing my boyfriend PLing himself with my character. I remember being in shock, and then going through a period where I felt I hadn't really earned the pieces, even though I had been in that LS attending Dynamis for over 2 years and had rightfully earned my priority lot by an enormously discouraging margin to the RDMs behind me. There is a part of me that still feels sour about the whole thing but I was hugely thankful to him for doing it.

On another occasion, this same friend and my boyfriend hung out with me in the Maze for over a week camping Argus. I passed out early one night due to lack of sleep and I woke up the next morning wearing an Amulet. Of course, I had helped acquire the previous 4 Argus drops pre/post the R/EX update, but it was very touching to know they would put that kind of effort in for me. While I'm not a big advocate of karma, I do believe that people are more likely to help you out if you help them out. Right now I'm (not so) secretly working on my DNC friend's Nyzul WS latent. He's stuck on floor 40 with a pretty daunting 3,250 points and a level 2 self-SC, so I sneak on his character late at night and burn off 300-500 points when I can. It's a pretty big deal to him and it's not like I log in with the express purpose of holding it over his head in the future, or expect something in return. We're just friends, and that's what friends do.

I really don't think that Brimah helping you out on something that has obviously been bothering you (and believe me I know the pain of that awful fly) is "emo-ing out of the real problem". You didn't specifically sit there and say "Get this for me or I'm not playing anymore nyah" and then log out in a huff. And I'm sure he only did it because he considered you valuable enough of a friend to want to do it, which probably means you have done selfless things for him somewhere in the past. Now, if it happened constantly to the point where someone else might as well be playing your character, then I think that would be a good example of "emo-ing out of the problem".

I could, of course, be reading this all wrong, and you could in fact be very justified in your emo tag, but I think you're just being hard on yourself. Either way, I am glad the obstacle is over with, because I seriously believe that no NM or piece of gear is worth quitting the game over. There are zillions of other reasons to quit, but those are just not two of them.

And all of a sudden I've written a book. That's a very bad habit of mine. I'm sorry, Ere, I hadn't written a comment in months and I guess it all just exploded out. Anyways, congratulations on your new pin, it's very shiny, and I wish you the best in your future adventures. :)

[ereblog]

Maybe I am just beating myself up a lil. I do tend to over-analyze the situation. I consider it one of my strengths, but it also is a thing of weakness as it can paralyze me with the details. The whole Voice of Justice thing was sort of my other half of the thought process; just being happy for what happened. Although honestly that whole bit was mostly because I thought it would be funny to write and couldn't help myself.

Don't trust the tags too much. I mean, I made a seerrkkeettt tag for cryin' out loud.

Thanks for the comment though, long or otherwise. It's always interesting hearing other people's views and experiences on the same sort of stuff I'm going through.