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Wow... talk about it being forever...
Things are crazy right now... i havent been on livejournal if forever because i realized it was hindering my attempt at "recovery" if its ever really possible to recover from this nonsense. I've gained weight -- which i keep telling myself is a good thing (everyone else says so) I'm not gonna mention exact numbers... so i dont get caught up in it. My bmi is still "underweight" although I'm no longer at an "anorexic" weight. (Which some of or most of you did not know I got down to) ....
I'm still struggling a lot with purging. I go through phases. Its all parallel with my depression unfortunately. I'm on a bunch of new meds though and things are going pretty well.
New news.... i'm moving out!!!! With Rich ! YAY!!! It's official now. We are gonna do it. Things have been crazy for us but we both realized how much we really are in love and can't let go so easily. He said if his life was straight right now and if he had more $$ he would definitely be giving me a diamond! WOW right?! It's only been a year though, so i dont mind waiting at all!
I quit my waitressing job becasue i was getting harrassed by some guy that works there... and the place was outta control with drugs... everyone was on some sort of drug all the time... it was awful, i didnt feel as though i needed to be around all that shit. SO I got a new job! lol at my favorite place on earth.... STARBUCKS! WOOT! :) im working on getting an evening job as well... to make a little bit more $$
Sorry to all those who i've lost touch with.... leave me a message if you wanna be a pen pal... (speaking of which -- fabi have you gotten my letter?!?!) I'm really working hard to get better so I could use as much support as possible. I miss all of you so damn much!!!! Love and best wishes!
Jess
Things are crazy right now... i havent been on livejournal if forever because i realized it was hindering my attempt at "recovery" if its ever really possible to recover from this nonsense. I've gained weight -- which i keep telling myself is a good thing (everyone else says so) I'm not gonna mention exact numbers... so i dont get caught up in it. My bmi is still "underweight" although I'm no longer at an "anorexic" weight. (Which some of or most of you did not know I got down to) ....
I'm still struggling a lot with purging. I go through phases. Its all parallel with my depression unfortunately. I'm on a bunch of new meds though and things are going pretty well.
New news.... i'm moving out!!!! With Rich ! YAY!!! It's official now. We are gonna do it. Things have been crazy for us but we both realized how much we really are in love and can't let go so easily. He said if his life was straight right now and if he had more $$ he would definitely be giving me a diamond! WOW right?! It's only been a year though, so i dont mind waiting at all!
I quit my waitressing job becasue i was getting harrassed by some guy that works there... and the place was outta control with drugs... everyone was on some sort of drug all the time... it was awful, i didnt feel as though i needed to be around all that shit. SO I got a new job! lol at my favorite place on earth.... STARBUCKS! WOOT! :) im working on getting an evening job as well... to make a little bit more $$
Sorry to all those who i've lost touch with.... leave me a message if you wanna be a pen pal... (speaking of which -- fabi have you gotten my letter?!?!) I'm really working hard to get better so I could use as much support as possible. I miss all of you so damn much!!!! Love and best wishes!
Jess