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For my first day of spring break it is 20 degrees outside and I've been in lab for 5 hours and counting.
I have about 30 hours of grading to do, which is more than usual. I'm expected to make progress in classes AS WELL AS take a break/come back refreshed.
I need to write my 60+ page literature review, I planned on attending a thing for thesis writing on Monday and Tuesday but Tuesday looks like a snowed-in day.
The gym is not holding classes all week so I feel really fucked about that. It's too cold to do things outside, I won't bother trying to handle it. I don't do well structuring things myself, ie. I don't do a great abs/barre/spin workout outside of abs/barre/spin class. I cannot reproduce that kind of effective atmosphere. I cannot get matt to go to the gym. I've resorted to casually bringing up photos of us three years ago and emphasizing the fact that 15 minutes of HIIT is worth it.
I had plans to go to a Jack and Jill last night for Matt's old friend (my hairdresser). We parked and walked up to the door behind this woman with a perfect 10 body (straightened long blonde hair, 6" black patent leather pumps and her perfect pair of Guess Jeans). Red flag went off when Just as Hot Female Friend with dark straightened hair, a black choker and a deep V neck black top and black jeans "rescued" this woman right at the door. Matt and I opened the door ourselves and say a completely full room of people we did not know with no free seats. Everyone is confined to their little round event table chairs. Miserable Nightmare Scenario. He looked at me and said "we could turn right around and pretend this never happened". I said, yeah? Let's fucking do it. On the way through the parking lot I decided if she asks I will say that I showed up and immediately remembered that I had forgotten to take my Klonapin. I don't take that, however it's spelled but it's pretty accurate.
_hugenope. I guess this woman's social group is mainly perfect 10s with VS model bodies that have been treated as such their whole lives, as according to Matt. I love girls who get ready for events but the conversation is usually pretty goddamn shitty if you can't entertain them. They just flitter around nervously. We went to see Logan instead. I really want to talk about that but I won't ruin it if you haven't seen it.
Honestly. I wasn't blind-sided by it all, like I know how it goes but it was fucking rough. There were 2 chinese girls sitting across the isle from us and they stayed after the movie and just fucking cried. I kept telling matt that movie was just basically "hey guys, you wanna watch your fucking childhood icons die?" Dude I thought he was dreaming the whole thing ... then for a few milliseconds I knew that he wasn't dreaming but I was just hoping maybe he was... I felt so strongly about it but I didn't even cry.
Laura's facial expression was constantly someone keeping their shit together even when shit is very fucking clearly not together at even fucking all. I had a really hard time with the kids. I think that movie needs a support group chat afterwards. I'm excited for summer movies.
Here's hoping I get to actually relax. I blocked off Wednesday - Saturday for my own time, I am not making any commitments at all.
I have about 30 hours of grading to do, which is more than usual. I'm expected to make progress in classes AS WELL AS take a break/come back refreshed.
I need to write my 60+ page literature review, I planned on attending a thing for thesis writing on Monday and Tuesday but Tuesday looks like a snowed-in day.
The gym is not holding classes all week so I feel really fucked about that. It's too cold to do things outside, I won't bother trying to handle it. I don't do well structuring things myself, ie. I don't do a great abs/barre/spin workout outside of abs/barre/spin class. I cannot reproduce that kind of effective atmosphere. I cannot get matt to go to the gym. I've resorted to casually bringing up photos of us three years ago and emphasizing the fact that 15 minutes of HIIT is worth it.
I had plans to go to a Jack and Jill last night for Matt's old friend (my hairdresser). We parked and walked up to the door behind this woman with a perfect 10 body (straightened long blonde hair, 6" black patent leather pumps and her perfect pair of Guess Jeans). Red flag went off when Just as Hot Female Friend with dark straightened hair, a black choker and a deep V neck black top and black jeans "rescued" this woman right at the door. Matt and I opened the door ourselves and say a completely full room of people we did not know with no free seats. Everyone is confined to their little round event table chairs. Miserable Nightmare Scenario. He looked at me and said "we could turn right around and pretend this never happened". I said, yeah? Let's fucking do it. On the way through the parking lot I decided if she asks I will say that I showed up and immediately remembered that I had forgotten to take my Klonapin. I don't take that, however it's spelled but it's pretty accurate.
_hugenope. I guess this woman's social group is mainly perfect 10s with VS model bodies that have been treated as such their whole lives, as according to Matt. I love girls who get ready for events but the conversation is usually pretty goddamn shitty if you can't entertain them. They just flitter around nervously. We went to see Logan instead. I really want to talk about that but I won't ruin it if you haven't seen it.
Honestly. I wasn't blind-sided by it all, like I know how it goes but it was fucking rough. There were 2 chinese girls sitting across the isle from us and they stayed after the movie and just fucking cried. I kept telling matt that movie was just basically "hey guys, you wanna watch your fucking childhood icons die?" Dude I thought he was dreaming the whole thing ... then for a few milliseconds I knew that he wasn't dreaming but I was just hoping maybe he was... I felt so strongly about it but I didn't even cry.
Laura's facial expression was constantly someone keeping their shit together even when shit is very fucking clearly not together at even fucking all. I had a really hard time with the kids. I think that movie needs a support group chat afterwards. I'm excited for summer movies.
Here's hoping I get to actually relax. I blocked off Wednesday - Saturday for my own time, I am not making any commitments at all.