『fourty』
[Private to Self | Cursed Private]
I'm going to die. i'm supposed to die. It was decided the moment I survived because how else can one get rid of a Horcrux without destroying it?
...I knew it could've eventually come to this, that I'd die fighting him but in the end we'd win. Because that what I'm here for, the reason why I survived that night.
But why did I have to hear it from the mouth of Severus Snape? Out of the mouth of goddamn traitor? i wouldn't have believed him, but with the curse- and everything makes sense. how can i deny it?
Why couldn't you have told me? Pulled me aside and told me that it was my destiny to die like you'd known all along. Instead of pretending like everything was all right, telling me over again to do this, do that- trust you. Smiling at me as if you car- as if you didn't know what was written in the future.
i trusted you, dumbledore. over and over again, i trusted you regardless of what I'd read or heard. no matter how many things you kept from me. I trusted you because you were Albus Dumbledore, the wizard who i looked up to. one of the first people I came to trust.
---I don't want to die. But in the end, does it really change what I have to do?
[/Private]
I'm going out for a while, so don't worry if I'm not back until late. Just need some air.
[ooc: Um. ._.]