What else do I have to do??
I don't really want to write this, but Kelsey is on an epic adventure and I hate the telephone.
Josh left this morning, which is sad, but it could maybe be the last time we have to spend an extended amount of time off.
I was sick on Sunday. Threw up six times and had diarrhea and couldn't even stand up to take a shower or even get to the bathroom if I didn't have to throw up. I have no idea how I got it. Nobody else that I was around the week before or even after got it. :(
Anyways, I am still feeling sick. I was feeling better when Josh was here, but I guess since he left, the goodness, or at least some of it left. I went to lunch and all I could eat was half a bagel a cookie and a few bites of soup. I slept all morning. I haven't been able to eat much all week actually, yesterday ringing in with rice chex, saltines and half a sandwhich with some french fries. I just feel like my energy is gone. I have a presentation and two mini-projects due tomorrow and I slept away my homework time this morning.
I hate school with a burning fiery passion. You laugh, but I utterly despise the person it turns me into. I just want to play oboe and live life and garden and bake and not have to have a degree or a masters, which I feel pressured into, because how would I even be able to get a job in an orchestra without a masters? GAH!
Anyways, I have class, which I'm totally unprepared for, emotionally, physically, mentally and homeworkally in 17 minutes. I would rather just sleep the rest of the day. Clean my room and sleep. Then have tomorrow off, catch up on everything, THEN have Friday and I'd be back on track. Whoops, NOT since I also have lots of homework on top of the two mini-projects and presentations due tomorrow.
About 75% of the time, I just really want to drop out, but I know how stupid that would be with only one year left.
I wish I could be traveling and adopting a dog and walking miles down endless beaches just listening to the waves. Jeez.
Does anyone else ever wonder why we allow our lives to be so dictated by the system? But then, since we're so accustomed to it, the skills to live without it are pretty much lost. Or at least archived in the library basement. :(
Josh left this morning, which is sad, but it could maybe be the last time we have to spend an extended amount of time off.
I was sick on Sunday. Threw up six times and had diarrhea and couldn't even stand up to take a shower or even get to the bathroom if I didn't have to throw up. I have no idea how I got it. Nobody else that I was around the week before or even after got it. :(
Anyways, I am still feeling sick. I was feeling better when Josh was here, but I guess since he left, the goodness, or at least some of it left. I went to lunch and all I could eat was half a bagel a cookie and a few bites of soup. I slept all morning. I haven't been able to eat much all week actually, yesterday ringing in with rice chex, saltines and half a sandwhich with some french fries. I just feel like my energy is gone. I have a presentation and two mini-projects due tomorrow and I slept away my homework time this morning.
I hate school with a burning fiery passion. You laugh, but I utterly despise the person it turns me into. I just want to play oboe and live life and garden and bake and not have to have a degree or a masters, which I feel pressured into, because how would I even be able to get a job in an orchestra without a masters? GAH!
Anyways, I have class, which I'm totally unprepared for, emotionally, physically, mentally and homeworkally in 17 minutes. I would rather just sleep the rest of the day. Clean my room and sleep. Then have tomorrow off, catch up on everything, THEN have Friday and I'd be back on track. Whoops, NOT since I also have lots of homework on top of the two mini-projects and presentations due tomorrow.
About 75% of the time, I just really want to drop out, but I know how stupid that would be with only one year left.
I wish I could be traveling and adopting a dog and walking miles down endless beaches just listening to the waves. Jeez.
Does anyone else ever wonder why we allow our lives to be so dictated by the system? But then, since we're so accustomed to it, the skills to live without it are pretty much lost. Or at least archived in the library basement. :(