hate life
this sux so much. you'd think, since I'm an adult, I can make my own decisions. but since moving back home, I'm being treated like a teenager again.
especially since I can't drive.
its been pointed out to me, that after 3 1/2 yrs, I still really haven't accepted that a lot of stuff I've been used to doing or enjoyed doing may now be out of reach. I'm sorry, I'm not ok with that. at least not yet. there has to be a way to still have most, if not everything I'm used to.
Mostly what I'm upset about right now is there's a concert I really want to go to, but with having seizures, and still not sure what the triggers are for them.... I've only had about 12 grand mal & maybe 6 other minor absence ones in the 3 1/2yrs. but I don't have health insurance right now so if something happens and I end up going to the hospital, I can't afford the bills. (not working, havent in a yr actually)
so this is yet another thing that feels just out of reach. only 10yrs ago i was working as a stagehand at concerts. helping with setting up & taking down the equipment. even used to work in theater too. now i get super light sensitive at the most inconvenient times. I swear its the meds. its the only thing that makes sense.
especially since I can't drive.
its been pointed out to me, that after 3 1/2 yrs, I still really haven't accepted that a lot of stuff I've been used to doing or enjoyed doing may now be out of reach. I'm sorry, I'm not ok with that. at least not yet. there has to be a way to still have most, if not everything I'm used to.
Mostly what I'm upset about right now is there's a concert I really want to go to, but with having seizures, and still not sure what the triggers are for them.... I've only had about 12 grand mal & maybe 6 other minor absence ones in the 3 1/2yrs. but I don't have health insurance right now so if something happens and I end up going to the hospital, I can't afford the bills. (not working, havent in a yr actually)
so this is yet another thing that feels just out of reach. only 10yrs ago i was working as a stagehand at concerts. helping with setting up & taking down the equipment. even used to work in theater too. now i get super light sensitive at the most inconvenient times. I swear its the meds. its the only thing that makes sense.