life
Haven't posted in a long time. things could be better.
Haven't worked in almost a year. not really sure what I'm going to do w/my life since I don't think I'm gonna be able to go back to my old career that I just spent 5yrs training for. Wonderful right? Can't pass the damned certification test & can't drive so pretty much means I can't work.
Plus with having Epilepsy (not that I've had that many seizures, but I have no warning as to when one is going to happen) every time I have a seizure my doctor alters the meds. I was doing really well for a while. Thought I'd finally gotten to a point that my life could be back to normal. 9.5 months w/no episodes....and then I have an absence seizure. Lasted less than 30 seconds. Didn't lose consciousness or anything but was out of it enough to not be able to respond or react to anyone/anything around me.
So once again the paperwork to get my driver's license reinstated has been postponed by my doctor again.
I understand his reasoning but hate it all the same. I hate having to rely on others to get around to places the transit system doesn't go.
for a while now Ive thought about just going off my meds entirely and finding a nice quiet out of the way place to disappear. I'm so done with this life. I don't know what it is I'm supposed to be doing but this isn't it. I'm tired of being a burden to others
Haven't worked in almost a year. not really sure what I'm going to do w/my life since I don't think I'm gonna be able to go back to my old career that I just spent 5yrs training for. Wonderful right? Can't pass the damned certification test & can't drive so pretty much means I can't work.
Plus with having Epilepsy (not that I've had that many seizures, but I have no warning as to when one is going to happen) every time I have a seizure my doctor alters the meds. I was doing really well for a while. Thought I'd finally gotten to a point that my life could be back to normal. 9.5 months w/no episodes....and then I have an absence seizure. Lasted less than 30 seconds. Didn't lose consciousness or anything but was out of it enough to not be able to respond or react to anyone/anything around me.
So once again the paperwork to get my driver's license reinstated has been postponed by my doctor again.
I understand his reasoning but hate it all the same. I hate having to rely on others to get around to places the transit system doesn't go.
for a while now Ive thought about just going off my meds entirely and finding a nice quiet out of the way place to disappear. I'm so done with this life. I don't know what it is I'm supposed to be doing but this isn't it. I'm tired of being a burden to others