Nicole's cell phone is going to get ran over if it doesn't shut up!
It's early! It shouldn't be ringing. Normal people are asleep. Goddamn boys.
So, I officially have 1 week and 6 days left in Jackson County, Ohio. It's weird. I've lived here the whole 19 years of my life. I've played on these streets, made friends, wrote music, and became the rough draft of who I am today, and I've done it all here. I'm a fairly sheltered girl. Never seen the ocean. Never been to a zoo. And in this moment of pure uncertainty, I can't help but think it's for the best. I really do think I need this for me. Whether I come back or not, I need to live while I still can.
I have numerous events planned for the next two weeks. I am slightly nervous that I may not get to it all, but I'm hoping with every inch of me that God will give me most of it. I already got the OU thing taken care of. I went up last weekend and said my goodbyes. I'm proud of myself because I didn't cry. I always cry. Me and crying are like peanut butter and jelly.
I'm scared to leave everyone. This is practically everyone I've ever known. All the people I'm supposed to know. But I have to go with Nicole. It's not only for me. I can't leave her to go down there alone and not only that but I can't survive without her. Nicole is the best friend I've ever had. She's my Jessica Harp...on;y she can't really sing or play guitar. Her singing's not bad, it's just not great. haha :] Her guitar playing is though. I've heard animals do better than her.
You know what I'm really excited for? I want to see the sunset on the ocean. I want to get a job at a music store. I want money again; I've been so broke since I quit my job. I want to go shopping. I want to play shows and meet bands. I want to find my own band. I want to send everyone postcards with the words "Greetings from Florida" in big bold black letters. And I want to show everyone that I'm not afraid to take a step into the dark -- that I'm not afraid to fo after exactly what I want. I know all of this is for the best. No matter what comes out of this, the next time I drive through Jackson County, Ohio, I'll know I made the right decision, and I'll be a different person because of it. My heat may stay in The Heartland...but my dreams are all down on the shore. I'll see you on the beach at sunset.
Becka
So, I officially have 1 week and 6 days left in Jackson County, Ohio. It's weird. I've lived here the whole 19 years of my life. I've played on these streets, made friends, wrote music, and became the rough draft of who I am today, and I've done it all here. I'm a fairly sheltered girl. Never seen the ocean. Never been to a zoo. And in this moment of pure uncertainty, I can't help but think it's for the best. I really do think I need this for me. Whether I come back or not, I need to live while I still can.
I have numerous events planned for the next two weeks. I am slightly nervous that I may not get to it all, but I'm hoping with every inch of me that God will give me most of it. I already got the OU thing taken care of. I went up last weekend and said my goodbyes. I'm proud of myself because I didn't cry. I always cry. Me and crying are like peanut butter and jelly.
I'm scared to leave everyone. This is practically everyone I've ever known. All the people I'm supposed to know. But I have to go with Nicole. It's not only for me. I can't leave her to go down there alone and not only that but I can't survive without her. Nicole is the best friend I've ever had. She's my Jessica Harp...on;y she can't really sing or play guitar. Her singing's not bad, it's just not great. haha :] Her guitar playing is though. I've heard animals do better than her.
You know what I'm really excited for? I want to see the sunset on the ocean. I want to get a job at a music store. I want money again; I've been so broke since I quit my job. I want to go shopping. I want to play shows and meet bands. I want to find my own band. I want to send everyone postcards with the words "Greetings from Florida" in big bold black letters. And I want to show everyone that I'm not afraid to take a step into the dark -- that I'm not afraid to fo after exactly what I want. I know all of this is for the best. No matter what comes out of this, the next time I drive through Jackson County, Ohio, I'll know I made the right decision, and I'll be a different person because of it. My heat may stay in The Heartland...but my dreams are all down on the shore. I'll see you on the beach at sunset.
Becka